This is the sad reality I am discovering. I say sad, though that isn’t completely true. Some of it is great; for example having the confidence to say and do things I would have baulked at before. The fact that I am old enough to have seen my son grow up and he and his wife produce a wonderful son who at 10 months old is a joy. That I have the financial security and to either not work or to work just a few hours a week. Those kind of things. But when it comes to feeling good about my age and the changes that are happening to my body less so. What’s more G is finding getting older a challenge and that is affecting us both.
Him
Over the past year it is changes to him and his body that has in effect reduced our sex life to a minimum. I’m pretty sure and he is too, that he needs to see a doctor about his relative inability to get an erection and when he has one what he can do with it. Early in the year when we were on holiday in France was probably the last time we spontaneously managed sex. Though in April when we visited the Secret dungeon he took some viagra which was pretty successful. But it’s safe to say the sex life we enjoyed during the first 10 years of our relationship is no more. While I do crave the odd orgasm most of the time it doesn’t bother me. Even though I’m pretty sure it should.
Me
About a year ago I got fed up with constant dieting and restricting what I eat. Something I’ve done most of my adult life. So of course the end result is that I’m about a stone heavier than I was. What’s more, I now crave food that I wouldn’t even have considered necessary in my life. Plus I’m not all that good at resisting it! I am seriously contemplating weight loss medication to get me back on the straight and narrow. I’m going to mull it over while I’m away on holiday in France. The fact is though I’m not happy with either my weight or the way I look. Nor that I’ve had to buy bigger clothes.
The other thing that I am attributing to age is tiredness. I just don’t have the energy I once had. Of course maybe my weight is contributing to that too, but I suspect age has a lot to do with it. I can still move as quickly and do the things I did. But I just get tired more quickly and take longer to recover.
Us
Us is still strong though, for all the trials and tribulations and for all we are getting precious little sex. We enjoy each others company and laugh together so much. Our culturally led social life is back on track, probably contributing to the tiredness. Plus travel is something we can do and enjoy. We’re off to our bolt hole in France at the end of the month, with a touring holiday around Brittany on the way. I have so much to be grateful for and I really am.
While there is little in the way of kink in our lives these days, we have our moments and this weekend we are off to CMnf which will be fun and is something I’ll write about in my next post.