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# Julie After MPB

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## Posts

- [Work in progress](https://aftermpb.com/2025/08/09/work-in-progress/) - It's been a while since I've managed to publish a post. I'm trying to revamp the blog, but progress is painfully slow. I can't quite work out how I want it to look and what's more I can never quite find the time to do it. Like many tech related things I struggle to get
- [Embracing being naked in public](https://aftermpb.com/2025/06/09/embracing-being-naked-in-public/) - Yesterday we were at CMnf to socialise, for me to be naked
- [A glimpse of our Swedish Bathroom](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/18/a-glimpse-of-our-swedish-bathroom/) - Following on from the quick selfie I took of my boob on our sunny terrace yesterday, I thought it might an idea to give you a tour of our surroundings here in France. This photo shows me in our ensuite. The house was previously owned by a Swedish couple, which maybe has something to do
- [First of the year](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/19/first-of-the-year/) - After a beautifully sunny first day here in the South of France, yesterday and today have been cloudy. Yesterday was also cold. But today, even though it rained a bit, has been warmer. Consequently it has taken at least 36 hours too get the hot tub up to temperature. And 48 before we felt safe
- [Throwback Thursday in Hoxton](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/20/throwback-thursday-in-hoxton/) - Back in March 2020 as the pandemic started to take hold and just before we were all sent into lockdown, G and I spent a night in Hoxton. The dungeon was contained within a flat in the middle of Hackney, East London. As with most of these places you would never have known. What we
- [Altered image](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/22/altered-image/) - Sometimes when an image has been altered it confused the brain as to what it sees. This looks like my bottom in many ways. but then again it is something else. My boobs and nipple.....
- [A flash by the lake](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/23/a-flash-by-the-lake/) - The weather was glorious when we arrived here in the south of France last Monday. The weather since then has not! Mostly cloud accompanied by drizzle and yesterday proper rain. So much so that I moved the hire car away from a potential flood area. It didn't but it has recently so.... Today though promised
- [Balcony scenes](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/24/balcony-scenes/) - These two balcony scenes were taken as selfies earlier this evening prior to a dip in the hot tub. I couldn't chose between the two, so you have them both!
- [The Kiss](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/25/the-kiss/) - Last spring we were lucky enough to see the real painting, The Kiss in Vienna. Alongside many other of Gustav Klimt's other paintings. It was an amazing experience, only partly spoiled by the whole tourist element of people getting selfies taken in front of The Kiss and then pretty much walking out. The Belvedere museum
- [Mr Selfie](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/26/mr-selfie/) - This selfie taken by himself, Mr Selfie is rather complex. The image hasn't appeared before on the blog and was taken last October in our bedroom here in France. It shows the doors to our little balcony and our wardrobes with mirror. Plus of course his lovely naked body, perhaps post hot tub. Anyway, I'm
- [A favourite](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/27/a-favourite/) - For this final Throwback Thursday of February Photofest 2025 I'm showing one of my favourite photos taken in a favourite holiday place. The holiday (post the 2021 lockdown), the hotel with a view, the weather, just everything. I guess if I could choose It would be taken a year later on honeymoon since I'd have
- [A taste of pleasure](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/28/a-taste-of-pleasure/) - This taste of pleasure brings February Photofest 2025 to a close. I'll write something about the experience over the weekend.
- [I'm back but with a new name](https://aftermpb.com/2025/05/26/im-back-but-with-a-new-name/) - It's been a long time. February Photofest was and always is quite the effort. I intended to take a short break afterwards, though not 3 months. Of course prior to February my posts were pretty random and definitely not regular. But that was because I was trying to decide what to do with the blog.
- [Navigating my way to change this place](https://aftermpb.com/2025/06/04/navigating-my-way-to-change-this-place/) - It's been quite a while since I needed to do any work on a blog; probably 3 or 4 years or maybe longer. So, what with actually working for a living (3 days a week) and managing life in general I'm struggling to find the time. Plus, to be honest also with the finer details
- [Age isn't just a number](https://aftermpb.com/2025/06/05/age-isnt-just-a-number/) - This is the sad reality I am discovering. I say sad, though that isn't completely true. Some of it is great; for example having the confidence to say and do things I would have baulked at before. The fact that I am old enough to have seen my son grow up and he and his
- [A quick boob selfie](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/17/a-quick-boob-selfie/) - A busy 24 hours meant that I didn't post yesterday. We had a lovely time with my son, daughter in law and grandson yesterday afternoon. He's nearly 7 months old now and has started solids. That his favourite food is avocado made me smile, since I don't remember ever giving his dad such a thing
- [Hello out there](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/15/hello-out-there/)
- [Bath antics](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/14/bath-antics/) - We live a mostly dull life, but that doesn't mean that we don't indulge in some silliness sometimes. This is one of those moments. However, if I knew how, I'd have edited out my double chin!!
- [Blast from the past](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/13/blast-from-the-past/) - For this week's Throwback Thursday I give you one hell of a blast from the past. This was taken in 2015 when we travelled to Spain for Easter and this particular image was taken in Malaga. We stayed overnight before journeying on to Cordoba, Seville and Granada (amongst other places). Lovely memories of an amazing
- [Knobbly knees](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/12/knobbly-knees/) - There's a marked difference in our body sizes. He is slim and petite, I'm not. His knees are knobbly, mine are not!
- [Cheeky flash!](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/11/cheeky-flash/)
- [Happy Hot Tubber](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/10/happy-hot-tubber/) - It's not just the pleasure of drinking a gin and tonic (in a plastic glass) that makes him such a happy hot tubber. Nor that he can stroll around naked and enjoy the tub as if it were his bath. But also that the local water is soft and so good for his skin, his
- [Happy place](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/09/happy-place-2/) - I just over a week we'll back in our happy place, our house in France. Just for 2 weeks this time, but to be honest that really doesn't matter. This winter here in England is proving to be cold, wet and downright drab. The weather in France won't be hot or even in the main
- [Back to nature](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/08/back-to-nature/) - It's great when you can get into the wood for a walk and in the process get back to nature. The fact that the places we walk in France are so often more deserted than we find here helps.
- [Get your boobs out!](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/07/get-your-boobs-out/) - And I'm very happy indeed to have boobs to get out!
- [Looking back to 2015](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/06/looking-back-to-2015/) - 2015 was my first year participating in February Photofest. A year into the relationship that would become the lifelong one it is now I decided I needed to share more about us then text. While G was taking photos of me and sharing them, I didn't really feel brave enough to share them here very
- [New day](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/05/new-day-2/) - As you face a new day, it's good to look out and consider what is ahead. This is taken from a hotel room balcony and what I wouldn't have noticed myself when I took the photo is the scenery reflected in the curtain!
- [Who do you see?](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/03/who-do-you-see/) - A fun image taken by G in a hotel in St Malo before we caught the ferry back home last year. Mirrors and window align nicely so not only do you see us both, but the sea in the background too.
- [Just a glimpse](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/02/just-a-glimpse/) - You'd have to be looking to see him through the rocks. But I crouched down a little and saw him there. A glimpse of his legs spread and his tackle hanging there. Click below to see who else is participating in February Photofest 2025
- [Sun Kissed](https://aftermpb.com/2025/02/01/sun-kissed/) - January has been a busy month. Mostly on account of my new job which is now full on for the 3 days a week I'm giving to it. My downtime has been somewhat busy too, but no real excuse for not actually blogging. I really should try harder. Actually I've decided to do just that
- [Good Morning](https://aftermpb.com/2025/01/04/good-morning-2/) - I'm taking the potential fact I've returned to blogging day by day. At the moment I'm feeling positive about it, but we haven't got far into January yet. This year I've set no specific goals or resolutions. But in my head I have a few things I would like to do differently and one of
- [So to 2025!](https://aftermpb.com/2025/01/01/so-to-2025/) - 2024 was by far my worst year for writing and blogging since time began almost 12 years ago. Maybe it's a sign that this is my first post since September. Or maybe the fact I'm here on January 1st 2025 is a different one. I have this place, I pay for it to still be
- [A great view and a really great arse](https://aftermpb.com/2024/09/22/a-great-view-and-a-really-great-arse/) - We're in France and do you know what the grumpy man of just days ago has just turned into someone willing to display his great arse without being asked. What's more is that the French countryside looks pretty great too!
- [Sinful Sunday 238 / 700](https://aftermpb.com/2024/09/07/237-700/) - This weekend is the 700th edition of Sinful Sunday hosted by my lovely friend Molly of Molly's Daily Kiss. I am totally in awe of this amazing achievement and so happy to be here with my contribution. Considering how little I've posted over the past couple of years this is my 238th Sinful Sunday. post.
- [Bottomless](https://aftermpb.com/2024/08/25/bottomless/) - It's been a long time. But here is my bottomless self back for Sinful Sunday, showing her bottom. Life over the past months, two years even has been busy. Things have had to give and one of those things has been my blog. In effect, I do desire to write. About life in general, about
- [France](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/09/france-2/) - I've been lucky enough to own property in France for almost 11 years. Back in 2013 I was made redundant and that summer, I invested some of the money into a small apartment. This provided me with a much needed bolthole when my marriage was failing and I was trying to find my way forward.
- [English Countryside](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/08/english-countryside/) - We live in a town with a population of 97,000 people just north of London. Although the town is an urban area we are minutes from the countryside. What's more we are probably no further than 20 minutes from what might be described as English Countryside. Yet, although we frequently drive through the countryside, we
- [Diary](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/07/diary/) - When I'm travelling, I like to keep a hand written diary of the places we visit and things we do. This is partly because I tend to forget some of the finer details of towns and cities, churches, castles etc. But also it's a great record to look back on and links nicely to the
- [Contrast](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/07/contrast/) - The Sinful Sunday prompt for April is high contrast. I'm going to be honest here and tell you that this very image appeared in black and white back in January last year. But this colour version shows a higher contrast between me, standing there in the shadows of the brown room and the beautiful day
- [Cocktails](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/06/cocktails/) - One of the things we love to do when away is to find a suitably swanky place for drinks and most especially cocktails. I'm rather partial to a martini, a mojito or a Pina colada, depending on where I am in the world and the weather. Even an Aperol spritz on a warm and sunny
- [Budapest](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/06/budapest/) - My plan for this year's Blogging from A-Z challenge is to focus on my travels. Over the lifetime of this blog I've visited many places home and abroad. I've often featured photos of either or both of us while travelling, but these have usually been less about the places and more about showing naked or
- [All sorts of problems](https://aftermpb.com/2024/04/05/all-sorts-of-problems/) - Life has been ticking along nicely. More than nicely in fact since I'm just back from a very lovely trip to central Europe. I'll write more about that very soon. First though the problems, which have been with my blog. This trip has involved quite a lot of travelling around (when don't our holidays?) This
- [Mirror Image](https://aftermpb.com/2024/03/24/mirror-image/) - I have some stuff to say about my absence. Partly due to February Photofest fatigue, partly because we're away travelling but also on account of nearly losing my entire blog this week. However, I need time to put some thought into what I want to say. Therefore today I'm posting this mirror image. Don'r you
- [What was and what is](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/28/what-was-and-what-is/) - Looking back. through my. photos, I found this one from 2016. Probably the last time I got slim enough to fit into this lovely corset. Back then I had great boobs, almost had a waist and damn it my. hips are slim. I miss my body from them as much as I miss the kitchen
- [Ideas](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/25/ideas/) - “My best ideas come in the shower, where I’m showered with water, but also ideas.”― Ryan Lilly It's day 26 and this is my 21st post. I'd really like to label that a win for February Photofest. Especially given that since last May I'd posted only 19 times. For the most part this month's offerings have
- [Pierced nipple](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/23/pierced-nipple/) - It's almost unbelievable to think that my nipple has been pierced for 10 years in April. I wrote about it here. I have lots of nipple jewellery but I am extremely lazy about changing it. The pleasure I used to get from anything to do with my breasts and nipples has diminished, if not completely
- [Back to 2017](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/22/back-to-2017/) - This week's Thursday Throwback takes me back to 2017. That year I did my own mini photoshoot with camera and tripod. It's amazing to think that I went to that trouble, but then I spent quite a bit of time in the evenings on my own at that time. I also seem to have been
- [Man in the bushes](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/21/man-in-the-bushes/) - Your eyes don't deceive. There really is a man in the bushes. With his shorts down and posing for this photo.
- [My cleavage](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/19/my-cleavage/) - There's no symmetry. But this is my cleavage and I'm happy to have it. Looking down my top at myself tells me the story of how my body has changed. But having a disfigured cleavage is better than none at all.
- [Standing proud](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/18/standing-proud/) - Not much to say here except that Master is standing proud for my pleasure and delight. Perhaps also for any people who happen to be walking past.
- [The Big Reveal](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/16/the-big-reveal/) - This image has the feeling of one of those deep in the tropical jungle wildlife documentaries. Most of the wildlife was definitely of the small flying insect kind though! Anyhow, here we are for the big reveal; of a boob!
- [Reminders of spring](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/15/reminders-of-spring/) - The weather in our part of the world today has been decidedly spring like. The sun appearing through the clouds as we were out and about today reminded me very much of last week in France. But more than that. The blossom is on some of the trees and early daffodils are appearing hear and
- [One of those shower pictures](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/14/one-of-those-shower-pictures/) - I'm just back from my mum's having been to do my post holiday visit. She has one of those large walk in showers that lend themselves to one of those, or one of these shower pictures. So this was grabbed this morning. Pretty much half way though February Photofest, I missed but 13 images posted.
- [Pool view](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/02/pool-view/) - Master is great at finding hotels and Airbnb's with a good view. This was one of those occasions when the view was good, but sadly reality was less so. The pool looked inviting as I stood looking at it pre-shower but sadly it needed a good clean, so I didn't go in. Still a lovely
- [Moon shot](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/03/moon-shot/) - There was a time when Master could be found behind the camera only. Now though he has become quite the exhibitionist!
- [Quirky](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/04/quirky/) - This quirky image was taken on our journey home from Spain last October. I can't quite remember where the light sauce was coming from, but seeing it reflected on G's back. So snapped a photo, as you do.
- [Colours](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/05/colours/) - I'm not massively enamored with my facial expression in this photo, I think he has caught me somewhat off guard. But what I really do love is the plethera of colours. The light of the sun seems to really casting dark and light on the hills, fields and tress. As well as the browns of
- [The best bubbles](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/06/the-best-bubbles/) - The best bubbles, other than champagne and that might be up for debate. I think that the decision to buy the hot tub for here in France rather than at home in England was a good one. Lounging in the water, sometimes with light show and sometimes either heating up or cooling down works a
- [A new day](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/07/a-new-day/) - I took this selfie this morning just before i got up. I could see through our bedroom window that the sky was blue again after the cloud of yesterday. There is nothing better than a bright new day. One that is full of possibilities. Looking back, it is good that we don''t always know the
- [Alternative view](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/08/alternative-view/) - G open plays around with the images he takes of me. He exclusively uses his phone to take photos these days and he uses one of the apps available to edit and modify them. Over the next couple of Thursdays I'll post some of them. This one is from one or picnics at the end
- [Happy place](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/09/happy-place/) - We're nearing the end of this current two weekstay in our happy place in France. Made all the better by having some lovely weather and the chance to warm up at the end of the day in our hot tub.
- [Quickflash](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/10/quickflash/) - This photo wastage last September in the hallway of ourhouse in France. Note my lovely big kitchen in the background. Anyway, it's a quick flash kind of shot and one that hasn't been possible for a while. Last summer was the first time since my mastectomy that I've felt comfortable wearing a summer dress with
- [Bruised peach](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/12/bruised-peach/) - I don't often bruise and when I do I heal quickly. That is when the bruise has been caused through impact with a crop, cane or other such implement owned by Master. When I inadvertently bash myself against some furniture of take a tumble, the opposite is true. Unfortunately this bruise was from the latter,
- [Looking out](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/13/looking-out-2/) - Yes, I'm fully dressed. But someone thought this was worthy of a photo!
- [10 years and counting](https://aftermpb.com/2024/02/01/10-years-and-counting/) - February Photofest begins once again. I wasn't sure about participating as I haven't really been blogging. However this does mean that I have a bit of a stash of photos, so I thought, why not. February 1st gives me a bit of an excuse to post anyway, because today is a special anniversary. It's 10
- [Into the light](https://aftermpb.com/2024/01/21/into-the-light/) - I long for the bright and sunny days when you can emerge from the gloom, into the light. But not just the light, the heat of the day. We've had some beautifully sunny days here this week, however they have been accompanied by freezing temperatures. What I long for is a sun high in the
- [Boobs for BoobDay](https://aftermpb.com/2024/01/19/boobs-for-boobday/) - I've been meaning to write about my boobs for ages. By that, I mean to give an update on where I am with regards breast cancer treatment, surgery and all other related things. Of course it helps if I'm bothering to actually post anything at all on the blog. Which I really haven't been doing.
- [New coat, no knickers](https://aftermpb.com/2024/01/14/new-coat-no-knickers/) - I've got a new coat, a bargain from the sales. Not that I went out of the house to find it in them there sales. I just found it on the off chance while lying in bed one morning, cos these are things you can do when you don't have to be anywhere. Plus it
- [From above](https://aftermpb.com/2024/01/07/from-above/) - We do enjoy a. bath together. Occasionally when away and in a hotel room, we find a treat of a huge bath to luxuriate in. Unfortunately at home we have to make do with a regular sized bath. All be it one where neither of us needs to be 'tap end'. Anyway this from above
- [2023 ends, what now?](https://aftermpb.com/2023/12/31/2023-ends-what-now/) - I couldn't let 2023 end without a post. My first and last for this month of December. All is good here in the MPB and Master household, but I am not really inspired to blog. As you can see above, we are no less silly, especially after a glass of wine or 3. But our
- [Looking and seeing](https://aftermpb.com/2023/11/04/looking-and-seeing/) - "It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.” ~ Henry David Thoreau While away on holiday we took a night away to the Historic City of Arles. Master has a habit of finding us amazing places to stay and this little airbnb was no exception. Our balcony faced the Arena, a
- [Cheeky](https://aftermpb.com/2023/10/29/cheeky-3/) - I swear that as he gets older Master is getting to be more of an exhibitionist. In this cheeky post he insisted on exhibiting himself for me. On our last weekend at our home in France, we found an amazing picnic spot, just 20 mins or so away. Afterwards we went for a walk and
- [Time waits for no one](https://aftermpb.com/2023/10/22/time-waits-for-no-one/) - I'm continually mystified about the passage of time. An hour can seem so long and a year.... Speaking of which, it's nearly November and where did that year go? Well actually I know where this year has gone, in a complete craziness of work up until May, trips to France, Spain, the Netherlands and Belgium.
- [Bamboo](https://aftermpb.com/2023/10/08/bamboo/) - We've had the most amazing time at our house in France. While there have been little bits of maintenance to do, in the main we've been relaxing. Plus having a look around our local area, and finding places to spend time. Today we picnicked by the river and then went for a stroll to look
- [A memoir](https://aftermpb.com/2023/10/07/a-memoir/) - The school that was new when my nan was there in the 1920s This week's Revelations prompt is memoir. It asks if we have considered writing one, and if so what it would be called. This blog is as close a memoir as I think you'll get from me. Most of it was written contemporaneously
- [I don't know what's gotten into me lately](https://aftermpb.com/2023/09/15/i-dont-know-whats-gotten-into-me-lately/) - This is the Revelations prompt at the moment and what do you know it's got me writing. Well, supposing I get to the bottom of the post and press publish. You see, I've gone from being someone who spends nearly all day at her laptop screen working to someone who avoids it. It's not just
- [The suite](https://aftermpb.com/2023/08/06/the-suite/) - Sometimes you are gifted with a hotel room just asking for a certain type of image. Then a Sinful Sunday prompt comes along that seems to fit the image (I hope). This is un cropped and un altered. It's just as Master took the photo that night and then sent on to me. Credit to
- [Feeling more alive](https://aftermpb.com/2023/07/30/feeling-more-alive/) - We have a new happy place in our lives. After 10 years of owning a small apartment in the south of France, last year we traded it in for a house. Much bigger and more of a home than a holiday place, which the apartment always was. Over the past 11 months or so we
- [Excuses.....again!](https://aftermpb.com/2023/07/25/excuses-again/) - (image: sunset from our terrace in France) It's the end of July and I am embarrassed to say that this is my first and possibly only post for the month. I came back from Eroticon fired up, I really did. But then nothing. First of all the desire to write, but no time. Then ready
- [Intimacy](https://aftermpb.com/2023/06/25/intimacy/) - There are lots of ways of showing intimacy within a relationship. This his one of them. Snuggled up together watching TV, our feet touching. To me there is something sexy and intimate about this. Even though no sex took place that evening.
- [Time to be empowered](https://aftermpb.com/2023/06/13/time-to-be-empowered/) - I wasn't sure about going to the much delayed Eroticon. Given my lack of interest recently in blogging and in sex and kink blogging in particular. Add to that the extended delay in being able to put on the much delayed 2020 event. But in the end the fact that our tickets were rolled over
- [Our happy place](https://aftermpb.com/2023/06/04/our-happy-place/) - I can't deny that this month's Sinful Sunday prompt has caused me some angst. Producing a collage of images doesn't sound hard, but merging them into one is a whole different game. I spent far too long on YouTube videos this morning within ending up with anything I could use. Thankfully there are fabulously talented
- [Eroticon 2023 - Meet and Greet](https://aftermpb.com/2023/06/03/eroticon-2023-meet-and-greet/) - After a hiatus of over 3 years Eroticon 2023 is finally happening in just a week's time. Having actually turned up in 2020 due to our hotel booking and other things we had scheduled I guess our wait has been less than most. I wasn't sure whether to carry our tickets over or not nor
- [Posed](https://aftermpb.com/2023/05/28/posed-2/) - My first and who knows, only post for May. It's been a busy time this month. Work finished and we headed off to France where we've been unwinding after a busy few months. Back home next week, but meantime a weekend in Amsterdam. This posed photo was taken last night in our hotel room. More
- [Zest](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/30/zest/) - I wouldn't say I've completely re-discovered my zest for blogging. But I do think the blogging A-Z has helped me decide that I do want to keep on writing and creating here. The theme of the challenge home has been resilience and I'm proud to zealously got to the end, even though I'm posting two
- [Yesterday](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/30/yesterday-2/) - "Yesterday is a dream, tomorrow but a vision. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well therefore to this day" - Sanskrit Proverb. Yesterday was one of those days that in some ways I'd like to forget. Though its events played on my
- [X marks the spot](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/28/x-marks-the-spot/) - Or in other words, the treasure is here. I've struggled to find interesting things to say over this month, what's more I've found it hard to keep up. I think that's because I'm still finding it hard to be motivated to blog. But perseverance is winning the day and I'm bang on time with today's
- [Fiction](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/07/fiction/) - I haven't written any fiction in quite some time. Given that I've had little time for writing day to day stuff and been busy staring at a screen for work, It's not surprising. But I do have something that I wrote a couple of years ago and which I'm going to share over the next
- [Identity - Slave training for Suzie part 2](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/11/identity-slave-training-for-suzie-part-2/) - This is part 2 of my new story, one written a couple of years ago, but only shared this month. It comes with a Content Warning. It is a BDSM Master / slave story and is about a slave involved in a power exchange relationship who goes to a training centre to receive instruction on how to be
- [New Experiences for Suzie](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/18/new-experiences-for-suzie/) - Part 3 of Suzie's story. This story comes with a Content Warning. It is a BDSM Master / slave story and is about a slave involved in a power exchange relationship who goes to a training centre to receive instruction on how to be a better slave. There are references to consent / non consent, sex, degradation, impact
- [Quest - Part 4 of Slave Training for Suzie](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/21/quest-part-4-of-slave-training-for-suzie/) - This story comes with a Content Warning. It is a BDSM Master / slave story and is about a slave involved in a power exchange relationship who goes to a training centre to receive instruction on how to be a better slave. There are references to consent / non consent, sex, degradation, impact play, punishment, to name but
- [Slave](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/25/slave/) - Part 5 of Slave training for Suzie. There are links to the first 4 parts below. This story comes with a Content Warning. It is a BDSM Master / slave story and is about a slave involved in a power exchange relationship who goes to a training centre to receive instruction on how to be a better slave.
- [What next for Suzie?](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/27/what-next-for-suzie/) - This story comes with a Content Warning. It is a BDSM Master / slave story and is about a slave involved in a power exchange relationship who goes to a training centre to receive instruction on how to be a better slave. There are references to consent / non consent, sex, degradation, impact play, punishment, to name but
- [Valued](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/27/valued/) - "Strive not to be a success, but rather to be of value." Albert Einstein This is the penultimate day of the job that I've been doing for the last 6 months. But also of the return to work that began back in 2020. Back then it seemed a good idea to do something useful and be
- [Unwritten](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/25/unwritten/) - The Revelations prompt for this week is Unwritten, a song by Natasha Bedingfield. I know the song, but have to admit never having listened properly to the lyrics. Nor until now to have actually read them. Actually they are really making me think. This is the first verse: I am unwrittenCan't read my mindI'm undefinedI'm
- [Time to myself](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/25/time-to-myself-2/) - Last week I very nearly agreed to another 3 to 6 month job. It was due to start as soon as we return from our holiday. This is after having told everyone just how tired I am and how much I need some time to myself. Thankfully I have come to my senses. This weekend
- [Rest and Relaxation](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/23/rest-and-relaxation/) - Neither rest or relaxation have been easy to come by. lately. But last evening I had a lovely bath and afterwards lay for a while wrapped in a warm towel. It certainly helped me have the best sleep in quite a while.
- [Praise](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/20/praise/) - I'm probably not an easy person to dish out praise to, since I'm not usually one to boast about my achievements. Well certainly not in a work or general setting. Being called a good girl by Master might well be an exception. Let's explore these two things. Praise in general I guess that I've followed
- [Other things](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/20/other-things/) - I'm struggling to keep up with the Blogging A-Z this year. So much so that I'm 2 days behind, or is it 3? our fabulous weekend away in Ludlow was followed for me by two office days. Consecutive days out like that are almost unheard of and thankfully will soon be a thing of the
- [Make changes](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/15/make-changes/) - "Make changes to your life; don't wear the same roads out, start walking on the new paths" Mehmet Murat Ildan How true this quote for me, my life and this blog over the past 11 years. I make no excuses for looking back regularly to check the roads I've been taking and to think about
- [Ludlow](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/14/ludlow/) - Here's something different for my blog. I'm writing today about a place that we're currently visiting and it's our third time here. Ludlow is a small market town in Shropshire not far from the welsh border. It's a pretty place with old buildings, a castle, river and a Norman church called St Laurence. This will
- [Keep on going](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/13/keep-on-going/) - "Keep on going and the chances are you will stumble on something, perhaps when you are least expecting it. I have never heard of anyone stumbling on something sitting down". Charles F Kettering That has to be my motto. Keep on going Julie, because that's the only way you're going to achieve what you want
- [Joy](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/12/joy-2/) - Last evening I felt frustrated with my blog and my lack of desire for writing. I was feeling like I was going through the motions. Actually though I think I was just tired after a trying day. It is that area of my life where I am going through the motions. Life itself is something
- [Holidays](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/11/holidays-2/) - 4 days of the Easter holidays have. sped by. In fact I had 5 days off and somehow got little chance to write. Part of this is because I've reduced my laptop screen time more generally. So, I've kind of lost the habit of writing and blogging. Instead I'm doing different things with my time
- [Great Outdoors](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/09/great-outdoors/) - The great thing about the blogging A-Z is that there is no letter for Sunday, which means we can catch up as I am today with G for Great Outdoors. I've trawled back, but can't find that I've used this image before. I think though that it's from 2019 or there about. This weekend at
- [Engagement](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/07/engagement/) - Not even through the first week and I'm already behind. Thankfully this is a long weekend here in the UK and that gives me time to write. But it also gives me time for some engagement with other bloggers. One of the main reasons for participating in the Blogging A-Z is to visit other people's
- [Dare](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/05/dare/) - Image above of me showing off my bum in a public place. Less daring than sex on a picnic table, but more than I'd have done before. Today's Blogging A-Z 2023 prompt comes courtesy of the Revelations meme run by Molly of Molly's Daily Kiss. It's really only in the past 10 or 11 years
- [Calm](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/04/calm-2/) - “Within you, there is a stillness and a sanctuary to which you can retreat at any time and be yourself.”― Hermann Hesse I'm not by nature a calm and relaxed person. I get stressed when I shouldn't do, even getting lost or fearing I'm somewhere I shouldn't raises my anxiety levels. But age and experience
- [Blessings](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/03/blessings/) - There's so much to be glad about, to feel blessed with. Sometimes, during the monotony of daily life, it's easy to forget that. One month to go till I finish my contract and I'm free to go back to my life as a retiree. Whether that will be permanent I don't know, but I feel
- [Lay back](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/02/lay-back/) - One of our occasional bath photos, this image shows Master relaxing and he lays back and relaxes in the warm water. You can't see the bubbles, other than those in the glasses. But they are there. This hasn't been one of those laid back weekends. We're away in the west of the country for Master's
- [Aging](https://aftermpb.com/2023/04/01/aging/) - "In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." -Abraham Lincoln Last summer I turned 60. For most of the life of this blog, I was a woman in her 50's. It was a decade of change but one of fun and joy. While embracing new experiences
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2023](https://aftermpb.com/2023/03/26/blogging-a-z-challenge-2023/) - I first participated in the Blogging A-Z Challenge in 2016. That year I covered off two words or phrases for each day, one kinky and one not. Since then I've written about D/s, sex and relationships and menopause related stuff to name a few. This year I'll have to do a bit of planning so
- [Queen of my domain](https://aftermpb.com/2023/03/25/queen-of-my-domain/) - If Master is the king then I am surely his queen. There's just two of us here, so I'm not sure how much weight being ether king or queen carries around here. Over time, things have equalised, well every where but in the bedroom. There he is the king, or my lord and I am
- [Trying to get back to blogging](https://aftermpb.com/2023/03/23/trying-to-get-back-to-blogging/) - I've not written anything for a month. I managed a reasonable number of posts during February photofest considering I wasn't sure I had any material at the beginning. In fact I probably. had enough to get to the end, but ran out of steam. Work and other stuff got in the way once again. But
- [Bubbles](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/21/bubbles-3/)
- [Gold!](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/19/gold/) - Sometimes, while travelling you just have to release your gold. It helps of course if this is one of your Master's kinks.
- [Mirror Mirror](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/18/mirror-mirror-2/) - I love it when we go somewhere with attractive furniture or a beautiful bathroom or even a great view. Recently we stayed in an airbnb in South London with a fabulous mirror. So, on the last morning after my shower I captured this quick selfie. Just right for this post. - Mirror Mirror!
- [When I was young](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/16/when-i-was-young/) - Today's Throwback Thursday is a never seen before photo of me taken when I was young. This week I've been going through old photos, after the cupboard I'd been storing them in sustained water damage from a leak. I've been meaning to sort through the boxes for years. Ever since I moved in with Master
- [Reveal](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/15/reveal/) - Not quite sure what kind of edit this is or what filter Master used. But I've cropped out my face because it had me looking even older than I feel! I do love a hotel room or indeed airbnb that provides robes. They are particularly useful for after a jacuzzi bath or indeed for lounging.
- [Love](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/14/love/) - “One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.”~ Paulo Coelho There is no doubting that we have that honeymoon glow here. Last summer was definitely one of love and getting away on our honeymoon allowed us to express that to each other. Yes, there was the wedding and damn we
- [Stripes](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/12/stripes/) - Today is a very appropriate day for this post because we are off to a club to play and for me to walk around naked while Master is closed. And, these are the stripes I gained last time we were there in December. I'm hoping for similar today! I don't always mark very much and
- [Bath for two](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/10/bath-for-two/) - One of the joys of life is taking a bath. Even better when it's a bath for two. Unfortunately we don't have the biggest of baths. But that doesn't make it any less enjoyable or indeed relaxing. Just a little tight. Thankfully Master has skinny legs 😁
- [Way back in time](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/09/way-back-in-time/) - Back in 2017 when I was essentially living on my own I took my camera and tripod (yes really) and took a few photos for February Photofest. This image appeared on Valentine's Day that year like this. Today's is a little more natural but still altered from the original. So, a 3 in one offering
- [Reflection](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/07/reflection/) - This cheeky little selfie was taken while I waited for Master to join me in the jacuzzi bath of our airbnb a few months ago. A reflection in one of the metal button things.
- [Vulva](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/06/vulva/) - The vulva is a part of the body that we (the owner) tend not to see except in the mirror or on a photo. You need to be some kind of contortionist to be able to do otherwise. At my age this impossible, if indeed I ever could have. There's something kind of beautiful about
- [Pert](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/04/pert/) - Definition: Small and attractive Photo by mpb. Subject: Master's pert bottom in a jacuzzi After I posted this I realised that I hadn't checked the sinful Sunday prompt, which is Purple. By some accident of light I think the water here might just have a purple tinge!
- [Hidden in plain sight](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/05/hidden-in-plain-sight/) - CW: Psychological effect of breast cancer This grainy, over exposed image taken by Master last summer in Spain, looks more like a painting than a photograph. It's something that might usually go into the hidden file in my photo stash and stay there. But there feels something quite beautiful about it. The street was quite
- [Rear View](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/02/rear-view/)
- [February Photofest 2023](https://aftermpb.com/2023/02/01/february-photofest-2023/) - It's that time again! January is in the past and suddenly February is upon us. I have to admit I intended to post more during January than I did in the end. However I am happy that I did seem to get out of my blogging apathy. It's just that time hasn't always been my
- [Cleavage](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/22/cleavage/) - 10 months post breast reconstruction surgery I don't quite have the cleavage I once had. Nor the one I'd have hoped for. But I do have a cleavage and I can wear tops and dresses that are just that bit more low cut then I could this time last year. I'm quite in love with
- [Quality is the key](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/19/quality-is-the-key/) - Photo by Sincerely Media on Unsplash This week's Revelations prompt is about body count. This thankfully refers to the number of people you have had sex with rather than murdered. As it happens my murder body count is zero but I haven't had full on sex with so many more. Does this matter? Is it about quantity or
- [Fun and laughter](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/15/fun-and-laughter/) - I wouldn't say I have a kink for laughter. It's just such a necessary part of life and central to a well functioning relationship. Even those that are in many ways serious, like at work need time for humour and laughter. Looking back I can see that when we stopped laughing at ourselves and each
- [Order and Chaos](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/11/order-and-chaos/) - Photo by Brett Jordan on Unsplash I've been sitting here wondering just how ordered or chaotic my life is. You see, sometimes I think it might look like I live in some kind of chaos. But actually I'm pretty organised. Maybe then it's organised chaos! There was a time when I stored everything in my head. I had
- [Looking Forwards](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/08/looking-forwards-2/) - We're back from our Christmas and New Year break in France and now back to face the realities of life. Looking forwards there is work for me, and for Master finally sorting out his mother's estate. Plus, we will need to re-engage with family who we haven't seen since early in December and also plan
- [Balancing the positive and the negative](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/05/balancing-the-positive-and-the-negative/) - Photo is a happy pose from the summer! Master and I have had quite the slanging matches a couple of times over the past few days. I'm not sure if it's a result of being cooped up together for 3 weeks without outside influence. You can perhaps have too much of a good thing. I'm
- [Dear Diary](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/03/dear-diary/) - Let me tell you my plans for 2023. Actually, after the busiest year ever in 2022 I'm not going to make too many actual plans. Instead I'm going to talk in general themes. Dear diary is the first prompt for Molly's new weekly meme: Revelations and as you know I like a meme. This brings.
- [Looking back to a year of blogging 2022](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/02/looking-back-to-a-year-of-blogging-2022/) - In terms of total posts and words, 2022 was a good one. 123 posts and 56k words, so not too shoddy. But essentially I wrote pretty much all of those words in the first half of the year. More recent posts have been photos and a few words. As I have been saying for months,
- [Object of Desire](https://aftermpb.com/2023/01/01/object-of-desire/) - It's a new year and so it's time to let go of the old and let in the new, as Violet says in today's January Jumpstart prompt. The image above was taken back in September in our new bed in France. Those first few days (after we had made the bed and other furniture) were
- [Seated but not in a chair](https://aftermpb.com/2022/12/04/seated-but-not-in-a-chair/) - This month's Sinful Sunday prompt is chair. I know I'm cheating with this image, because although I'm seated I'm definitely not sitting on a chair. I've been having a few blog issues this weekend. This is irritating because yesterday I actually wrote a proper post about the Sex Blog top 100 and how happy I
- [Memories of a summer of love and fun](https://aftermpb.com/2022/11/26/memories-of-a-summer-of-love-and-fun/) - As winter consumes us we think back to a summer of love and fun.
- [Threats don't work unless it's for a good time](https://aftermpb.com/2022/11/13/threats-dont-work-unless-its-for-a-good-time/) - Our relationship has never been about punishment. Therefore any threat for a spanking or a good sexual going over was always about pleasure. I'm not his pleasure bitch for nothing you know? What's more, I'm all for a good time. For one thing Master has never really wanted the kind of M/s relationship that meant
- [Spanish Noir](https://aftermpb.com/2022/11/06/spanish-noir/) - This Spanish hotel garden was full of fun and mystery, especially at night. Just right for the Sinful Sunday theme of Film Noir. In this case, Spanish Noir
- [No thanks to abuse!](https://aftermpb.com/2022/10/14/no-thanks-to-abuse/) - "Put her in her place, slap her hard & often.All women are whores". I've been a very bad blogger. There have been reasons, but I've written so very little for months. Summer was wonderful. Beautiful weather, evenings at the pub. A wedding, honeymoon, new house. Just perfect. There was lots I could have written, but the
- [All of me](https://aftermpb.com/2022/10/09/all-of-me/) - Sinful Sunday is 600 weeks old. This year I managed to host a meme for 14 weeks, not all of them consecutive. I'm in awe of Molly who has hosted Sinful Sunday for 600 weeks in a row. But not just that. Sinful Sunday is about celebrating so much of what the blogging community is
- [In the pink](https://aftermpb.com/2022/10/01/in-the-pink/) - I'm embarrassed to say that my last post was almost a month ago. To be honest, September has passed in something of a blur. A good one, but a blur all the same. This time last month we were in Spain and I shared an image of the beautiful bath at one of our hotels,
- [Fun in the Bath](https://aftermpb.com/2022/09/03/fun-in-the-bath/) - This week's Sinful Sunday prompt is about images where there are no people, instead objects that suggest something sexy or kinky. I'm not sure that this image of our bathroom in Toledo hits the spot. But what came next would have done. Ok, so there was no sex or kink in the end, but there
- [Opposites attract](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/31/opposites-attract/) - This No True Way prompt closes in an hour and this is the last day of the Blog Days of Summer. So here I go with a pretty quick and spontaneous post. The statements Your goal is to be the exact opposite of your dom.Forget all the sass and wise comments.Your dom will not enjoy
- [Girl meets tree](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/27/girl-meets-tree/) - We've been away from home for 9 days and have slept in 5 beds so far. It's been a whirlwind of a trip, though. thankfully we are here in Salamanca for 3 nights. We continue our journey tomorrow. Yesterday was a mega city day, we covered over 20k steps while looking round this beautiful place.
- [Greetings from Spain](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/24/greetings-from-spain/) - The past week, indeed the past 3 weeks have been just so busy it's been impossible to write regularly. This too will be a quick post. Hopefully over the next few days I'll have time to catch up with writing and reading. But on to this short post and greetings from Spain. We left home
- [Elust #152](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/19/elust-152/) - I haven't joined in with Elust for such a long time and wouldn't have this time if Oz hadn't messaged me to ask if he could include my post. Of course I was happy to do so. Hopefully I'll have written something half decent to be included again in the next edition! Good to be
- [The beauty of trees](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/16/the-beauty-of-trees/) - There is a certain elegance and beauty about the tree. It's size and shape, how it looks in winter, unclothed, it's leaves brown and shrivelled at its feet. The way in which the tiniest buds appear, growing by the day until the first blossom and / or leaves emerge. I think I noticed this much
- [Married!](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/14/married/) - It's funny really. I've spent 37 of the last 40 years married, most of that time to the wrong person. Since Thursday 11th August (4 days ago) I've been married to my Mr Right. The last few days have been a whirlwind of fabulousness. It was such a special day and neither of us can
- [A new phase](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/10/a-new-phase/) - It's finally arrived. Tomorrow we won't just be Master and slave but husband and wife, I feel we're entering a new phase. Of course very little, maybe nothing will change. I'll wear his ring as well as his collar, and change my name for a few things. But in the main all will look the
- [Family stuff sometimes gets to me](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/08/family-stuff-sometimes-gets-to-me/) - There is a danger in trying to be all things to all people. Sometimes it leaves you upset and stressed. Sometimes too it gets in the way of enjoying special times, like your birthday. What's more, as happened on Saturday it can lead to arguments rather than sex and a spanking. Yep at the weekend
- [Sixty](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/04/sixty/) - Ten years ago when I was fifty, I wrote a post about being that age. My blog then was in it's infancy and now it's 10 years old. Where on earth did that decade go? For all of this time I've been writing about being a woman in her 50's. About my life and experiences.
- [Counting down](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/02/counting-down/) - In 9 days we will married. Almost exactly because by the time I publish this post it will be after 3.30pm. I'm planning to get back to this blog over the coming days and weeks. Firstly as a wedding count down and then as a revival of my travel blog. I really enjoyed sharing our
- [Being in the wrong](https://aftermpb.com/2022/08/02/being-in-the-wrong/) - "Try not to apologise. When you are in your role, you are doing as you wish.That also means you “can’t go wrong” and that you should never apologise for what you said or did" My first Blog days of Summer 2022 post is also for No True Way. I think that if this was the way that Master conducted
- [All in the contract](https://aftermpb.com/2022/07/29/all-in-the-contract/) - It's not even August and I'm already writing again - go me! This week's Kink of the Week is about contracts and since I found out I've been thinking a bit about this topic. Although the context of the question is D/S or M/s actually there is much more to this. None of us are
- [The Blog days of Summer](https://aftermpb.com/2022/07/28/the-blog-days-of-summer/) - It seems I'm going to need a meme to get me re-started and hopefully The Blog days of Summer will be it. After the past couple of months there are weeds growing in this space. My output has been bad even by my own standards. So from August 1st I'm going to blog for as
- [Return](https://aftermpb.com/2022/07/19/return/) - This is my first post since April. Lots has happened, but I haven't felt inclined to write. Instead I've read, done cross stitch and generally got on with life. Recovery from my surgery was slow, including a wound that is only just healing after 4 months. Now though I have lots of exciting things ahead
- [A sinful glimpse](https://aftermpb.com/2022/07/18/a-sinful-glimpse/) - There haven't been many glimpses of anything particularly sinful around these parts lately. But a few nights ago while sitting on our balcony at home an opportunity arose. I think that this hot weather is likely to bring more of me out of hibernation! There were technical issues over on the Sinful Sunday blog this
- [Why I haven't blogged yet this month](https://aftermpb.com/2022/07/14/why-i-havent-blogged-yet-this-month/) - My July blog production has reached a new low. It's 14th of the month and this is my first post. Most days I've not even looked at the blog, nor stats or anything related. For some reason I've lost the desire to write here, maybe after 10 years I've run out of steam. Maybe also
- [A lean month](https://aftermpb.com/2022/06/29/a-lean-month/) - My blogging mojo seems to be absent. Consequently in this very lean month, this is only my fourth Every Damn Day in June post. I could make some apologies but actually I don't want to. I just haven't felt like writing. So what have I been doing instead? Work This month, after taking April and
- [My breasts](https://aftermpb.com/2022/06/19/my-breasts/) - Content Warning: This post includes a photo of a healing breast reconstruction and discussion about breast cancer and DIEP reconstruction. For 3 and a half years I had one breast. during that time I made the most of what I had and what I was. Someone who had survived cancer without too much trouble. Also
- [Clean and pretty?](https://aftermpb.com/2022/06/06/clean-and-pretty/) - Hygiene and grooming are important – your Dom wants you clean and pretty I'm struggling with this quote. Do good hygiene and grooming equate to clean and pretty? Indeed to the words clean and pretty go together? But I won't get caught up in the words because I'd rather my blog posts have some substance.
- [Every Damn Day in June 2022](https://aftermpb.com/2022/06/01/every-damn-day-in-june-2022/) - May was a lean month here on MPB. Elsewhere too I've been pretty absent. Much of May was spent away from home. It was fun and productive because we spent time with family and friends and we also (fingers crossed) may have both sold and bought properties in France. These activities gave me little time
- [Naked](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/28/naked/) - It's taken me a long time to feel comfortable in my own skin, to feel it's ok to walk around naked. I'm an inhibited soul deep down, or maybe I was conditioned to be so. Who knows. Here are #Five Things about what being naked means to me. People didn't walk around naked when I
- [Five Things #14](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/21/five-things-14/) - It's a slow time in the world of blogging and memes right now. But I am going to persevere, if only to get myself blogging regularly again. I've been busy this last couple of weeks, travelling and looking at property in France. More of that in the weeks to come, for now let's get to
- [The process of healing](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/15/the-process-of-healing/) - I'm healing up slowly. That's not entirely true. Most of my body is healing quickly and well from the DIEP breast reconstruction I had on 23 march. There's a stubborn area in the cleavage that is healing, but slowly. Thankfully this hasn't hindered my rehabilitation and ability to get travelling again. We booked the apartment
- [Responsibilities](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/05/responsibilities/) - This week's No True Way is about responsibilities. It asks if the submissive has specific and wide ranging responsibilities, chores or even dare I say it rituals (See this week's Five Things). I really don't take responsibility for everything that goes on in my life. To be honest it isn't what Master wants from me.
- [Five Things #13](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/05/five-things-13/) - It turns out a weekly meme is a bit beyond me. Well, certainly when trying to post daily for the April A-Z. Anyway back on track as I'm posting this on the right day! Vices wasn't popular, but I did managed to link up a post, so all is not lost. So, on to Five
- [An abstract view](https://aftermpb.com/2022/05/01/an-abstract-view/)
- [Xenas, Yours and Zodiac](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/30/xenas-yours-and-zodiac/) - It's 30th April and I'm 3 days behind. The past couple of weeks have been busy ones, which is good. But I've also had less time to blog. Plus when I've been away as I have a few times, I've left my laptop at home on purpose. So this is one blog post for XYZ.
- [Wonder](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/28/wonder/) - Sometimes I wonder if I'm a character being written, or if I'm writing myself.Marilyn Manson My blog is now 10 years old. My first post was written on April 21 2012. This month I've been looking back at the content, now over 1600 posts. The thing I've been asking myself is, I wonder how much
- [30 days of submission - The return](https://aftermpb.com/2014/05/18/30-days-of-submission-the-return/) - Since this girl is in a new relationship and since her submission has significantly changed (in her own eyes). She has decided to revisit the 30 days of submission she completed in 2012/13. Since this whole things takes an age doing it one day at a time, she will complete these in batches. 1) Does your
- [Vices](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/28/vices/) - I should be on X but I'm only on V. As usually I'm behind with the A-Z, which means I'll have to write more than one post today. That to be honest is one of my vices (if you can call it that. Biting off more than I can chew - rushing in with enthusiasm
- [Underwear](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/26/underwear/) - I wasn't someone who particularly cared about what underwear I owned. That's not to say I didn't have some nice and matching stuff, such as this. But as I mentioned in my post on Sunday I was more about comfort than style. I feel compelled to write more specifically about underwear because It has been
- [Time](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/25/time-2/) - Time was in short supply and I spread myself so thinly sometimes I struggled to find time for me. It's a common thing to believe we have to do everything, all of the time. It's ingrained. We need to work to live and then look for a way to find the time to enjoy life.
- [Five Things #12](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/24/five-things-12/) - Apologies once again that I extended the last prompt about Clothing. This was mainly to help with the link up to Kink of the week (Socks). Thank you to Molly, Lily and Innocent Loverly who along with me linked up. Click here to find all the posts. To catch up I'll keep this prompt live
- [Socks and other clothing](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/24/socks-and-other-clothing/) - This post is a 4 way meme; go me! Socks is the current Kink of the Week and Clothing is the prompt for this week's slightly extended #Five Things. S is today's (belated) Blogging A-Z and I'm also linking to Sinful Sunday. Socks Back in February 2019 I wrote about favourite socks. Actually I'd forgotten
- [Relocation](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/23/relocation/) - In summer 2018 I moved to live with Master. This relocation brought to an end 27 years living in that particular home. A place I'd moved to as a young mother with the man I'd imagined I'd stay married to for life. I'd had a love hate relationship with the house. There were times when
- [Qualities to look for in a partner](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/21/qualities-to-look-for-in-a-partner/) - I'm not sure I've always been the best judge of what qualities to look for in a partner. But I know that I hit the jackpot with Master. He wouldn't be everyone's cup of tea, but he is definitely mine right now. That might not always have been the case. He is opinionated, pretty much
- [Ownership and possession](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/20/ownership-and-possession/) - I'm behind with the blogging A-Z but for a good reason. We've been away for the weekend, staying with friends and delayed our return until yesterday afternoon. I'm pleased to say I've been on some reasonably long walks with no ill effects. Which was one of the reasons we were a little later getting back.
- [Summer Nights](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/16/summer-nights/) - We plan to get a hot tub in our own garden, but for various reasons that hasn't happened yet. In our own garden we'd be able to get naked and be just a little naughty. Then obviously enjoy both summer nights and other times of the year too. But this photo was taken in an
- [All the Memes](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/15/all-the-memes/) - We're down to just a few meme's at the moment, but at times over the years there's almost been one for every day of the week. I thought I'd take a look back through my meme blogging over the past 10 years and see what I've written. Back in May 2015 I wrote about Suits
- [Living life and enjoying it](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/14/living-life-and-enjoying-it/) - One of the most amazing things about being part of this relationship has been the opportunities I've been given to start living my life and enjoying it. Plus, doing it in a way I'd never been able to before. There's been travel, here in the UK and in Europe. But also lots of cultural things
- [Five Things #11](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/14/five-things-11/) - Firstly apologies that the last prompt about A Favourite Place was up so long. As most of you will know I've been recovering from Surgery and that affected my ability to get my brain into gear for a while. But I'm mending well and while I'm not back to my old self quite yet, I
- [Kith and Kin (Thoughts on family)](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/13/kith-and-kin-thoughts-on-family/) - CW: This post is about illness, death and dying “Family isn’t something that’s supposed to be static, or set. People marry in, divorce out. They’re born, they die. It’s always evolving, turning into something else.” ― Sarah Dessen, Lock and Key In 2014, when I was in the throes of a new relationship. When my estranged husband was
- [Friendships and relationships](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/13/friendships-and-relationships/) - This week's No True way offers the following theory in the management of a power exchange relationship: Make a plan how to correct your mistake. Often it just means avoiding the thing that lured you to begin with. It could mean you end a friendship or activity, if things need to be drastic enough. If
- [Jealousy](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/12/jealousy-2/) - “You can only be jealous of someone who has something you think you ought to have yourself.” ― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid's Tale "It is so easy to believe that you can share a partner with another. To begin with I truly believed I could, indeed I probably could have if the other person believed it too and
- [Intensity](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/11/intensity/) - At the end of my relationship with S we often barely spoke for weeks, let alone see each other. The level of intensity with this new man was welcome and invigorating. During the 'getting to know you' phase we communicated a lot and saw each other most weekends. My submission meant something different to G,
- [Healing](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/10/healing/) - CW image shows a healing reconstructed breast. Today is day 19 post surgery and I'm pleased to say I'm healing well. I can now bath and shower (I can't tell you what a relief that has been). Not every day as I have a couple of little areas on my new boob that aren't quite
- [New Horizons](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/09/new-horizons/) - I definitely didn't hang around. Nor did I shed a tear which demonstrated that it was time to move on. Two new horizons. From Feb 1 2014 "i joined alt.com quite a while ago, but generally didn’t use it. Firstly i wasn’t looking for anyone and secondly i wasn’t really chatting online – i had
- [Getting Dumped](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/08/getting-dumped/) - Not once, but twice. As I've mentioned before in this series, and at other times, S was a man with a bucket list. He saw me as an opportunity to fulfil some of the items on his kinky wish list. He also had a romantic idea of finding himself a soulmate and I wasn't she.
- [Found out](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/07/found-out/) - Carelessness found me out in November 2012 just 7 months into the affair with S. The irony is that I hadn't been able to see much of S and had been chatting to a different guy. He and I had been for lunch; there never was going to be anything in that relationship. But the
- [Eroticism](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/06/eroticism/) - “I want eroticism mixed with love, and deep love one does not experience often.” ― Anaïs Nin Reading back over those early posts it is clear I was looking for something that had been missing from my life for so long, if not for ever. Sex, yes, but a new deeper, different kind of sex, one that
- [Days out](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/05/days-out/) - The entire relationship with S lasted for 21 months. But since we lived over a hundred miles apart and with south of England travel that equated to a distance of 2-4 hours. Most of the travelling was done by me. He had the place to stay and I had the car. This meant that after
- [Control](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/04/control-2/) - "Freedom is the only worthy goal in life. It is non by disregarding things beyond our control"Epictetus Back in 2012 and 2013 I wrote a lot about submission and my new found desire to submit. But not about control and my desire to give that to another. That came later in my current relationship. What
- [In the light](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/03/in-the-light/) - This week's Sinful Sunday prompt is Backlighting. Given that I'm not really in a state for taking photos right now I had a look through my older images to see what might be suitable. This one standing in front of our bathroom mirror which has lovely lights around it appealed to me. I've definitely not
- [Before](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/02/before/) - “I can see myself before myself—A being through dark scenery.” ― Dejan Stojanovic, Circling: 1978-1987 For a who's who click here. It's difficult to look back and see the me I was before April 2012. Indeed it's hard enough to see who I was then. S awakened in me something I was searching for. A need to be
- [Positive update from me](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/01/positive-update-from-me/) - Apologies once again for the radio silence. This time I update with lots of good news and with a good excuse for being absent. I've had my breast reconstruction! The news of impending surgery arrived on 23 February and gave me just one month to prepare. A plastic surgeon I'd never met phoned me and
- [Meet my new boob](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/31/meet-my-new-boob/) - CW: Post shows image of post operative healing. While the initial recovery post reconstructive surgery was challenging, I'm now making great progress. So far it's not difficult to make sure I take things easy, the slightest thing wears me out. But I can see progress each day. Mobility is the best one. To begin with
- [Blogging A-Z 2022: All about the archives](https://aftermpb.com/2022/04/01/blogging-a-z-2022-all-about-the-archives/) - It's April 1st and that makes it time for the Blogging A-Z for 2022. This year it's going to be all about the archives. "That's cheating", I hear you say. Well, maybe it is but this month is a special anniversary for my blog - MPB is 10 years old on 21st of April. So,
- [A pleasant demeanour](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/29/a-pleasant-demeanour/) - I'm keen to get back to some regular blogging and glad I'm just squeezing into the deadline for No True Way. This week's prompt suggest that the submissive should possess and maintain a pleasant demeanour. I guess this suggests that by their very nature submissives are pleasant people, always able to smile and to please
- [Five Things #10](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/17/five-things-10/) - Last week was all about Impact play. Thank you to Andrew , Lily and Ash who along with me joined in with Five Things #9. Please go and read the posts and don’t forget anyone can join in by linking up. I’m definitely not strict on the 5 things thing. Though it’s great when people do
- [Taking Stock - Breast Cancer and Preparing for Reconstruction](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/16/taking-stock-breast-cancer-and-preparing-for-reconstruction/) - CW This post is about Breast Cancer and Reconstruction Surgery Until I had breast cancer myself, I never understood how this disease could affect a persons sense of being. It's not just the surgery whether lumpectomy or full blown mastectomy, but everything that comes with it. The nature of the disease means the tumour may
- [Some time for play](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/15/some-time-for-play/) - Last weekend we returned to the CMnf event we used to attend regularly. It was amazing to be back amongst all those fellow naked women and well dressed dominants. The club was busier than when we attended at Christmas, but we managed to maintain our distance. This is feeling particularly important in the run up
- [Symmetrical](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/05/symmetrical/)
- [Five Things #9](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/05/five-things-9/) - Last week was all about Orgasms. Thank you to Molly and Floss who along with me joined in with Five Things #8 about books. Please go and read the posts by clicking here. Don’t forget anyone can join in by linking up. I’m definitely not strict on the 5 things thing. Though it’s great when people do manage
- [Five Things About Orgasms](https://aftermpb.com/2022/03/03/five-things-about-orgasms/) - This week is proving to be a busy one. Yesterday I devoted my day off to spring cleaning and to exercise, but that meant no time or energy for blogging. So, I'm really behind and this is my first post for March. I've written about orgasms a lot on this blog, so I'm using this
- [February in reflection](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/28/february-in-reflection/) - “Time spent in self-reflection is never wasted; it is an intimate date with yourself.” Paul TP Wong I've been taking photos at my mum's every fortnight this year. These are mainly so I can see my own shrinking shape, a pleasing sight for me. I thought this one, taken yesterday morning would be perfect for
- [My Master, My Man](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/27/my-master-my-man/) - Yes, that's him. My Master, my Man!
- [Looking back, looking forwards](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/24/looking-back-looking-forwards-2/) - Looking Back This image was taken in France back in September 2020. When, we were luckier than most and were able to travel and take a holiday. I'm relaxed and happy in this image, because I'm lying in, or on the bed and I'm looking up at the man I love. What's more, I'm happy
- [Five Things #8](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/24/five-things-8/) - Last week was a quiet one. Thank you to Molly who along with me joined in with Five Things #7 about books. Please go and read the posts by clicking here. Don’t forget anyone can join in by linking up. I’m definitely not strict on the 5 things thing. Though it’s great when people do manage it.
- [A love of books](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/23/a-love-of-books/) - This is an old image and I don't know if I've used it before, but it's the only one I could find with me holding a book! Ever since I was a young child I have loved books. I was an early reader and the fact my mum preferred reading to us than doing stuff
- [Adaptability](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/21/adaptability/) - This week's No True Way is about adaptability: I think submissives are the most adaptable people on the planet. We bend and change behaviours on a whim. I'm not sure submissives are more or less adaptable than most people. Certainly I'm the same person I was before Master and I met. Though I am certainly
- [Being a pet](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/20/being-a-pet/) - I'm not a pet but I do enjoy wearing a tail, or even a dog hood and have done so. Pet play in BDSM involves the submissive taking the role of an animal, crawling around the floor, eating from their owners fingers and wearing animal like attire. I'm not a pet, but I am intrigued
- [My week 14-19 Feb 2022](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/19/my-week-14-19-feb-2022/) - Another week in review for the EJC. It's been a busy one and I've had little time for blogging. But I managed to post my February photofest every day after missing Saturday due to host server issues. On to the week. Feb 14 Monday – Valentine’s Day We didn't celebrate. I'm not into the whole
- [Face the wall](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/18/face-the-wall/) - I guess if punishment was a thing for us, this might be a good one. To be made to face the wall, pull down my pants and not speak. That wasn't what this photo was about, but I guess it could have been!
- [Another take](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/17/another-take/) - I took this photo when I spied Master at the end of a corridor, his trousers at half mast. A few seconds later I took this one. I guess, rather than a throw back, you'd call this another take. This was taken soon the way down to a French Pyrenean town. There are two ways
- [Five Things #7](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/17/five-things-7/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #6 Love, Sex and Romance. Please go and read the posts by clicking here. Don't forget anyone can join in by linking up. I'm definitely not strict on the 5 things thing. Though it's great when people do manage it. Welcome to week 7 – Books
- [I can do this!](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/16/i-can-do-this/) - For the past few years I've been very good at making excuses for the fact that I can't lost weight. But it turns out I can. In just 6 weeks I've managed to lose 10lb and an enormous number of inches. What it has taken and will continue to require though is commitment. Plus a
- [Taking compliments](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/16/taking-compliments/) - I'm not good at taking compliments from people, I never have been. When people tell me I look good and I don't think I try to make excuses as to why they think I do. And when someone tells me I look well I assume it's because I look fat and healthy. At work I've
- [Love,Sex and Romance](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/15/lovesex-and-romance/) - It's that time of year again when thoughts turn to love, sex and romance. Well they do if you make and sell cards, flowers, cakes or any other elements of the Valentine industry. I don't buy into it because I don't like being taken for a mug. Plus I prefer my sex and romance all
- [A reflection of him?](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/14/a-reflection-of-him/) - No True Way asks if the submissive is a reflection of the dominant? Also is the behaviour of the of the submissive the responsibility of the dominant? We are mature adults with our own history. Before we came together we'd both been married, had children and other relationships. At the beginning of our relationship we
- [Hotel Morning](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/13/hotel-morning/) - I'm up and showered, but not yet dressed. He's relaxing in bed studying his phone. This is a typical hotel morning, or indeed any morning!
- [Hey!](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/11/hey/) - Hey! I wasn't sure I'd post today. But I have. Hey this is my left boob, just before my waist started to shrink! I'm looking forward to sharing my new smaller waist! Hey, In this particular photo it looks like my right boob has just inflated. Hey, in reality it hasn't. Hey! It's boobday!
- [Five Things #6](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/10/five-things-6/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #5 – Photography. What a great response was fabulous. There are a couple of links from bloggers who aren't part of our normal sex blogging crowd. Some great photos on the posts though and anyone is welcome. If you haven’t already, go look at all the
- [Early daffodils](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/08/early-daffodils/) - They were looking a little lonely. Those first, early daffodils now trying to bloom in our garden. So, I decided to keep them company for a little while. It was late in the afternoon of a sunny, winter's day. So the yellow flowers were looking downwards. But I think you'll agree these early daffodils are
- [Afters](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/10/afters/) - This week's #Swap with Floss prompt is all about afters. After sex, after dinner or after a life event. In this case, after sun, food and wine, I'd imagine. The before I've written quite a bit about the fact that most of our sex takes place in the mornings. That's when Master is at his
- [Taking photographs](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/09/taking-photographs/) - The Beginning I was about 11 when I received my first camera. I still have an album of small square photos, family members off centre or almost off the screen. In those days of course you had to take your film to the chemist or send them off. What came back was a mystery, and
- [Balcony scene](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/08/balcony-scene/) - A warm night and Master is posting for a balcony scene. We were staying in this Spanish castle, a place of history. Somewhere sieged and captured by the French. Ruined and abandoned, but now restored. Who could have imagined that hundreds of years later a balcony scene such as this would happen?
- [Caught short?](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/07/caught-short-3/) - In this image, I might have been caught short just after my birthday picnic last summer. Of course, I couldn't possibly comment! Click below to see who else is participating in February Photofest.
- [Perseverance](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/10/perseverance-2/) - I've decided that perseverance is my word for 2022. You see, I'm great at starting things with great enthusiasm, but not so good at seeing them through to the end. I'm no starter finisher people. Rather I'm the ideas person and also the power behind others who finish off the work. I've done leadership and
- [Revitalised](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/12/revitalised/) - Week 2 of #SWAP with Floss has arrived with the prompt: revitalised. I'm linking this with the Erotic Journal Challenge prompt for today of Lost and Found. Since we arrived back from Holiday last autumn there's been little to excite. We did managed a few nights away in two different locations in October to attend
- [Author of my own life story](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/19/author-of-my-own-life-story/) - In the degree that we remember and retell our stories and create new ones, we become authors, the authorities of our own livesSam Seen As I wrote recently, this blog documents quite a bit of my life over the past 10 years. It also references life events that occurred before that, some of them in
- [A week in review](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/06/a-week-in-review/) - This has been a busy week, work and other wise. Unusually I worked on Monday then packed Wednesday which was my day off with busyness. Plus February photofest has started, for which I've been posting images with little text. It's been as much as I can do to keep up with that. But today I
- [Mooning](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/05/mooning/) - I'm pretty sure that when we first Met Master wouldn't have dropped his trousers in a castle land mooned at me like this. He probably would have asked me to show him my bum but I'd have been surprised at the reverse. Now days though, I'm not surprised. Over time he has come to want
- [Another shower scene](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/04/another-shower-scene/) - In many ways, this photo taken last summer in an apartment in Bilbao is just another shower scene. But originally I treated this as something of an out take. The original was longer and I've cropped out my tummy. But what I can't remove are the other lumps and bumps. Usually I prefer side photos
- [Five Things #5](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/03/five-things-5/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #4: January - The longest month. The response was fabulous and if you haven't already, go look at all the wonderful posts. Click here to see who joined in and read the posts. Welcome to week 5 – Photography Five Things is a weekly meme which
- [Throwback Thursday](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/03/throwback-thursday-2/) - This image, which first appeared on my blog last August has been edited through Snapseed, to give it a more arty feel. I must admit that I quite like it. The original can be found here.
- [Looking back on January](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/03/looking-back-on-january/) - This January has been a particularly positive month, probably because I approached it as such. In the past I hated January because of the length of time it took to reach pay day. Add to that, the cold, long and dark nights as well as the lack of anything much to do except give stuff
- [The place that makes me feel calm](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/02/the-place-that-makes-me-feel-calm/) - I don't suffer from stress in the way I once did. There were times over the past 10 years or so when I have suffered really badly. There was one place I could go where I would be guaranteed to feel calm. In 2013 I was made redundant and while this in itself was a
- [Welcome to February Photofest 2022](https://aftermpb.com/2022/02/01/welcome-to-february-photofest-2022/) - Well it's that time of year again. At last January has departed and it's time to welcome in February and the annual photofest run and hosted by Molly. I'd like to say I have a theme, but to be honest that would take more effort and organisation than I've had time to put in. So,
- [Thoughts on January](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/30/thoughts-on-january/) - CW. In this post I'm going to be very positive about January. If this upsets and offends then do move on. I won't be offended. I think the main reason I used to hate January so much was the length of time it took to reach pay day. Add to that, the cold, long and
- [Jets of water](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/29/jets-of-water/) - Jets of water rain down on me! I do love a shower photo, but our shower cubicle is quite small. This morning, while at my mum's though I saw an opportunity for a really good shower image. I wasn't disappointed, either by the jets of water or the image.
- [Five Things #4](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/27/five-things-4/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #3– How I knew I was Kinky. Wow, what a wonderful response and so many great posts to read. Click here to see who joined in and read the posts. Welcome to week 4 – January, the Endless Month! Five Things is a weekly meme which
- [Celebrations](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/27/celebrations/) - This week's #Swap with floss is about celebrations. I'm a sucker for a party, any excuse to celebrate. With the right people, in the right place that is. I'm not one for random parties and events where I know no one and I'm forced to work a room. So, a few of my favourite celebrations,
- [Taking responsibility](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/25/taking-responsibility-2/) - "Doms always have to be the “adult in the room” even during a break up. The flip side of power is responsibility." This week's No True Way quote suggests that it is the dominant part of a D/s dynamic that remains 'the adult' when things need sorting out or go wrong. Personally I think that
- [How I knew I was kinky](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/24/how-i-knew-i-was-kinky/) - Prompt #3 of Five Things is How I knew I was Kinky. This is a topic I wrote about in 2019 and of course will have mentioned in other posts before and since. So, 5 things about me and kink. I was a late explorer of the world of kink I was nearly 50 when
- [Exciting times](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/23/exciting-times-2/) - 2022 is going to be the best year in ages. There I've told myself and you and I'm going to be right on this one. For one thing I'm going to lose this excess weight and keep it off. Second |'m going to get fitter than I've been in a while. And third thing, I'm
- [Getting in the mood](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/23/getting-in-the-mood/) - This 'in the mood' image, as I've entitled it was taken on New Years Eve, shortly after this one. The subject (Master) has edited it to give it this moody, black and white look. I quite like it.
- [Hands and Nails](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/20/hands-and-nails/) - Hands and nails, including nail polish are not any kind of kink for me. But I do have preferences in terms of hands and nails in general. What's more, hands themselves are a very important part of our relationship. This post is written for the memes #Swap with Floss and Kink of the Week. Hands
- [Five Things #3](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/20/five-things-3/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #2 – Winter, Snow, Ice and Cold Things. It was great to read about peoples experiences in using these tools. Click here to see who joined in. Welcome to week 2 – Winter, snow, ice and cold things. Five Things is a weekly meme which asks
- [Winter and cold things](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/17/winter-and-cold-things/) - I don't hate winter specifically because it's cold. But because, unlike this morning it is often cloudy, dull and drab. For days and sometimes weeks on end we live in a kind of nothingness, that's what I hate about winter. This is my second #FiveThings post. This week the prompt is about Winter, snow, ice
- [January 2022 - Week 2](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/16/january-2022-week-2/) - Another positive week and I'm beginning to believe I really can do this and what's more sustain the changes. In week 2 I lost another 2.5lb bringing my total weight loss to 5.5lb and taking me under my original start weight. In terms of dry January I'm on day 14, helped along by the fact
- [Submission and Feminism](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/16/submission-and-feminism/) - This week's No true way asks if it possible to be a submissive and a feminist. I'm pretty sure there are people out there who would be horrified at the idea that I have agreed to be Master's slave and am willing to submit to him. Not to mention that I have willingly given my
- [Reflections on my week](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/15/reflections-on-my-week/) - I'm just back from my mum's where I took this image after my shower this morning. Just two weeks in to the year and my reflections indicate that a positive picture continues. What's more this post quadruples up as boob day, Sinful Sunday, Erotic Journal challenge and of course Jumpstart January! Body and body image
- [Five Things #2](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/13/five-things-2/) - Thank you to everyone who joined in with Five Things #1 - Journals, Diaries and Planners. It was great to read about peoples experiences in using these tools. Click here to see who joined in. Welcome to week 2 - Winter, snow, ice and cold things. Five Things is a weekly meme which asks contributors
- [Journals, Planners and Diaries](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/09/journals-planners-and-diaries/) - So, my new meme Five things is live with the first prompt: Journals, Planners and Diaries. I'm thrilled to have got it up and running and to have a couple of link ups in the first day. I know it won't be all plain sailing, but I'm determined about this and so many other things
- [Bend right over](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/08/bend-right-over/) - This image, while not taken during exercise, puts me in mind of how much I've looked down at the ground this week. Whether on my hands and knees, bottom up a downward dog posed or bent right over. This week, I've tried my hand (and feet) at yoga after a long break. Very quickly I've
- [A good week](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/08/a-good-week/) - This first of 2022 has been a good week in almost all ways. Today will be my 6th day of dry January, I've been able to keep up with the intermittent fasting on all but one day this week and I've lost 3lb. Now for a bit more detail. Food Since Monday I've been back
- [Reflecting on the past week #1](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/08/reflecting-on-the-past-week-1/) - Already the year is a week old. Where did that time go to? I'll tell you where; being active and busy and not drinking wine. During this year I'm going to try to do some reflective posts and these will fit in with the Erotic Journal challenge. Not that there will always be a sexy
- [A boob in the sun](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/07/a-boob-in-the-sun/) - When boob day was around before I didn't participate very often. To be honest I've fallen out off love with my remaining breast. Which to be frank is a real shame, because it doesn't look all that bad. I'm 60 this year and it's definitely time to take a bit more pride in what I
- [Five Things #1](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/06/five-things-1/) - Welcome to the first edition of Five Things, the weekly meme which asks contributors to share Five things about a topic. It is open to both bloggers and anyone with a Twitter account, because you can tweet 5 things really easily! All I would ask is that you read up on the rules / how
- [Hot drinks in the winter](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/05/hot-drinks-in-the-winter/) - I'm delighted to be joining in with Floss's new meme #SWAP with Floss which started this week. This week the prompt is about mugs and hot drinks. I am a lover of hot drinks; coffee, tea, chocolate and even mulled wine. But my consumption ebbs and flows. In the main I'm a winter time hot
- [2022 - A year to make things happen](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/04/2022-a-year-to-make-things-happen/) - Ever since I started this blog I've written about making changes to my health and fitness. Over the past 2 years I've lost count of the number of times I've started, turned over a leaf and then failed over and over. I'm just not consistent. January is my most consistent month, both in terms of
- [If it ain't broke!](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/04/if-it-aint-broke/) - This is my first Erotic Journal Club post for quite some time. I'm really glad to see Brigit has regained her mojo and zest for writing at the same time as I have. Excited too that she has so many prompts coming out, which makes it easier to find something that appeals. Anyway, the prompt
- [Is submission caused by trauma or mental illness?](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/03/is-submission-caused-by-trauma-or-mental-illness/) - This week's No True Way prompt asks whether submission is caused by trauma or mental illness. A person, who identifies as submissive, went through some kind of trauma or is mentally unstable in some way. Certainly I've encountered this belief through comments on my blog over the years. But I'm pretty sure that being submissive has
- [Thoughts for 2022](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/02/thoughts-for-2022/) - I don't think there will be many people in the whole world for whom 2021 was their best. I can honestly say it wasn't my worst because even during a pandemic the loss of a parent and break up of my marriage were in 2014/15 were worse. But I am definitely glad to see the
- [Looking back on 2021](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/30/looking-back-on-2021/) - This is the 4th year I've written one of these posts. To be honest it's as much for my benefit as it might be for anyone who happens along. 2021 hasn't been the best year in any way, less of all for my blogging output. But that doesn't mean there is nothing to celebrate because
- [Putting my senses into overload](https://aftermpb.com/2022/01/01/putting-my-senses-into-overload/) - Fireworks were exploding all around outside the house and on the TV people were linking hands and singing Auld Lang Syne. Master though had disappeared. We were home alone after a quiet night in; dinner and wine then more wine and finally champagne. Just before midnight he went upstairs and seemed to be taking an
- [Gifts](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/31/gifts/) - I started this post before Christmas and didn't finish it. So, because I don't want it to hang around for another year and because I want to participate in the Kink of the Week on this topic, I've seriously edited it. A few days before Christmas when I was first thinking about this post I
- [Welcome to Five Things](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/29/welcome-to-five-things/) - I'm excited to welcome you to the Five Things Meme. Each week on a Thursday I will publish a new prompt to get the creative (and other juices) flowing. The link-up will go live early on Friday and will be shared on Twitter. The prompt might be a word, phrase, quote or image. You are
- [Optimism of good things to come](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/28/optimism-of-good-things-to-come/) - Christmas (or other holiday times) can be difficult. Real life isn't always about happy family gatherings. It can be about loneliness, sadness and drama. Over the past 10 or so years I've experienced all 3. The loneliness of living with the secret desire to leave a relationship without knowing quite how to make it happen.
- [Shield](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/12/shield/) - I'm off out today. For the first time in almost 2 years we are off to a club (same club but not CMnf) for some fun. In celebration of this momentous event I've groomed myself more carefully than I have in quite a while. I have a nice lacy garment to wear along with some
- [Greatest Fears, Greatest Hopes](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/08/greatest-fears-greatest-hopes/) - My progress through the 31 days of Self Reflection has been slow. But then my blogging progress has been pretty pedestrian. For large parts of the year, I've struggled with inspiration. Indeed at times I've wondered whether to bother with the blog at all. When I started this blog, I was in a failing marriage
- [Flash (of colour)](https://aftermpb.com/2021/12/05/flash-of-colour/) - I was actually looking for butterflies while on a walk during summer last year. He never knows when he might get a quick flash and have a photo opportunity. He certainly always seems prepared. I'm not sure Master was quite prepared this though! A last minute request for an image for this month's Sinful Sunday
- [Responsibility of the submissive?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/30/responsibility-of-the-submissive/) - This week's No True Way prompt states that: It is a submissive's responsibility to make sure the dominant (always) reaches orgasm. First of all let me state that I think that this is a load of rubbish. I mean if Master wants me to bring him to orgasm in some way then it certainly is
- [Picnic](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/27/picnic/) - The weather outside today is just horrible. Thankfully we don't have snow and the wind isn't too bad, unlike other parts of the country, it is wet, windy and very cold. That got me thinking back to our summer holiday. Picnics are a common feature of our travels. We tour around visiting places of interest
- [Don't try to break me down](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/16/dont-try-to-break-me-down/) - CW This post discusses issues of consent non consent (CNC) within fiction and real life relationships This week's no true way is about the concept that a dominant needs to break their submissive down. Supposedly so they then become the submissive of the dominant's dreams. This is pretty much the premise of quite a lot
- [Am I the only one who knows me?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/15/am-i-the-only-one-who-knows-me/) - "I am the sole author of the dictionary that defines me" Zadie Smith There was a time when I really think my true self was hidden from most people. A time when rather than tell people of I was sad or hurting, when they had upset me. I bit my tongue and kept quiet. This
- [Dilapidated](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/14/dilapidated/) - A cool day at the end of July found us travelling between Spanish cities. On the way we came across a sad and dilapidated castle. One that the original owner had dreamed of being some fairy tale place, certainly if you look at it from the front as most people do, you can see how
- [The magic of water](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/12/the-magic-of-water/) - "If there is magic on this planet, it is contained in water" Loren Eitsely There is something magic and often beautiful about the bodies of water we find around us. Trouble is sometimes we have to travel to encounter them plus wait for the right weather to see the real beauty. This year I've been
- [Making memories](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/31/making-memories/) - "Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment, until it becomes a memory" Dr Seuss We take lots of photos of the places we go to. Mainly to be honest of the beauty around us, rather than ourselves or each other. Moments in time are stored as scenic views, buildings and landscape, food
- [What is sex?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/11/01/what-is-sex/) - "Sex means PIV. Everything else is foreplay, petting, making out etc." This week's No True Way is about sex and this quote which offers, in my view a very narrow definition. It's sad that it's 2021 and people might actually believe this statement to be true. That sex can essentially only between a man and
- [Infidelity is nothing to be proud of](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/20/infidelity-is-nothing-to-be-proud-of/) - It's 6 Months since I wrote one of these Obscene Ideas self reflection prompts. All that time I had stuff I could write about but kept putting this one off. I knew though that I'd write about it in the end and that day has arrived. My marriage was blighted by the fact my husband
- [We have early progress](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/19/we-have-early-progress/) - 2 weeks in and we have progress in both weight and measurements. More though I'm feeling positive about this journey. I have a date for my next plastic surgery appointment. - 7th April and losing the required weight by then feels doable. So, what is the early progress? 2.5lb lost in the first 2 weeks
- [Finding myself (again)](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/18/finding-myself-again/) - Three years ago I was in hospital recovering from surgery. It hardly seems possible that those years have passed so quickly and that I am now used to the changes inflicted on my body. Mastectomy is brutal, there is no other way to put it. Nothing of my right breast remains, it's flat as a
- [Just over a week in - Progress update](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/13/just-over-a-week-in-progress-update/) - It's been 9 days since I started back on my diet plan and progress so far looks steady. The need to lose weight was confirmed a week ago when I saw the plastic surgeon. It was reassuring to know that they want to prioritise breast reconstructions for those that have been waiting the longest. But
- [Are collars reusable?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/06/are-collars-reusable/) - Suddenly I feel more like writing. Yesterday I had a work report to write and felt better doing it while simultaneously writing a blog post. Today I'm on a day off work and thankfully haven't lost the urge. So already I'm way up on last month. Anyway I digress. This week's No True Way is
- [A summer of discovery](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/05/a-summer-of-discovery/) - As E.L Byrne notes on her Lustitude prompt, summer in the Northern Hemisphere has come to an end. Like her I've watched the evolution of the seasons from a different vantage point this year. In doing so I've kind of missed summer here in the uk and have returned to find it is already full
- [Back on the weight loss trail](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/04/back-on-the-weight-loss-trail/) - Two months of holiday has taken its toll on my weight and I'm now at a new high. I could sense this happening over the past few weeks as clothes that had fitted well started to feel tight. But actually I went away feeling fat and unfit and nothing I've done while there helped to
- [Luxuriating](https://aftermpb.com/2021/10/03/luxuriating/) - While in France we took off for a long weekend break with friends and stayed in a lovely spacious Airbnb with glorious views. On the Saturday afternoon they went off to catch up with another friend and we used our alone time wisely. For some amazing sex followed by a little photo session. In this
- [That was September](https://aftermpb.com/2021/09/30/that-was-september/) - I don't know when or even if I have ever written just one post in a month. Much less no posts at all. It is that thought alone that brings me to my laptop on this last day of September. We arrived home late last night from an amazing 8 weeks away in France and
- [August](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/31/august/) - We've been away from home for the entire month of August. For the first time ever I (we) am going to be away for almost another month; our ferry to England is booked for 29th September. My mum asked me a couple of days ago if I'm homesick yet, I'm not. I feel guilty for
- [A Stay in The French Pyrenees](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/22/a-stay-in-the-french-pyrenees/) - Travelling into France We left Vic at around 11am on Tuesday 10 August driving through the Spanish Pyrenees into France. We stopped off at Ripoll to pick up provisions, both for lunch and for our self catering stay. Then we went around the old monestery sited there. Just the church, closers and crypt remain. The
- [Room with a view](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/22/view/) - In my post about hotel rooms I wrote about this room and showed the view, though not all of the available views. There is definitely something about hotel rooms that gets our libido rising. But rooms with balconies and spectacular views also provide opportunities for photography. This was an opportunity not to be missed!
- [The Parador de Vic - Sau (and other places)](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/20/the-parador-de-vic-sau-and-other-places/) - The parador at Vic isn't actually in the town, it's about 10km away up a winding country road. Also I never actually went to Vic so I can't write about it. The two nights (1.5 days) spent there were for a me a time of rest and recuperation. All of the places we'd visited over
- [What did he see in me?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/20/what-did-he-see-in-me/) - Is it possible for a dominant to recognise a submissive at first sight? Using some kind of instinct? Indeed is the opposite true? Is it possible for a submissive to recognise a dominant from a crowd of people? This is the topic for this week's No True Way. When we met Master already knew of
- [Lleida (Lerida)](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/19/lleida-lerida/) - Lleida is the Catalan name also known as Lerida in Spanish (you need to know these things when setting up the Satnav). We travelled there on my birthday 6th August leaving Zaragoza behind us and following the river Erbo. Having struggled to sit next to that river on the outskirts of Zaragoza the previous day
- [Catching our breath](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/19/catching-our-breath/) - Spending almost three weeks travelling around northern Spain and the French Pyrenees is a wonderful thing to be able to do. That journey through involved staying 2 nights in most places and then 4 at the end. We arrived at our apartment by the sea feeling somewhat weary, last Saturday. The weather during most of
- [Zaragoza](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/16/zaragoza/) - I wrote this post on 10th August, but haven't had the opportunity to put it out there. Given how busy we've been and also that for several days we had very poor internet connection which made uploading photos a bit troublesome. But here it is at last. More of Spain to follow. This is a
- [Going down](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/15/going-down/) - We walked up to the top via a winding road and treacherous steps. There are no photos of my assent because every effort was spent getting up to the Fort high above. It was hot, really hot and many times I wondered why I was doing this. But actually it was worth the climb. For
- [Sigüenza](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/10/siguenza/) - The Parador at Sigënza is a converted castle, situated in the south of Castile. We travelled across the mountains to the south of Lagrono where we had been on Sunday and through the parque natural Sierra de Cebollera. The views were stunning, the roads winding, with heights of up to 2000 metres above sea level.
- [Hotel Rooms](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/09/hotel-rooms/) - How kind of Molly to feature hotel rooms as a kink of the week just when we've spent many nights over the past couple of weeks in them. It's weird though that this is the first time we've stayed in hotels for 18 months or so. Because before that we were regulars. Holidays, yes but
- [Property](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/07/property/) - Me from behind. I'm wearing panties that say " This ass is the property of Master"
- [St Domingo de la Calzada - A pilgrim's trail](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/05/st-domingo-de-la-calzada-a-pilgrims-trail/) - We left San Sebastian in heavy rain which persisted through mountains and what would have been a striking landscape if only we could have seen it. The journey lasted about an hour and a half, St Domingo de la Calzada sits in the Rioja hills at a height of about 650 metres above sea level.
- [Is stubbornness a bad thing?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/02/is-stubbornness-a-bad-thing/) - This week's No True way prompt is about stubbornness. Is this a bad thing in a submissive? I'm not sure being stubborn has anything to do with being submissive, it's a character trait. A certain level of persistence in standing your ground is a reasonable thing for anyone, but knowing when to walk away from
- [San Sebastian](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/01/san-sebastian/) - After leaving Bilbao we headed to our next destination. San Sebastian is a seaside resort in the Basque area of Spain, it sits on the bay of Biscay. We arrived at around 2pm on Thursday as arranged with our host. The Sat Nav didn't know the street our apartment sits on was one way, so
- [Rushing about](https://aftermpb.com/2021/08/01/rushing-about/) - It's been a while since I posted a Sinful Sunday image. Essentially I ran out of photos and neither of us has been in the mood to create new ones. Sometimes it's good to take a break. Right now we are on holiday in Spain and are beginning to amass some new stock (as it
- [Bilbao](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/30/bilbao/) - After coffee on Wednesday morning we set off for the old town of Bilbao. We took a longer than necessary route, but didn't have a map at that point. I managed to slip over on the wet pavement, my new pumps have little or no grip. I may have to buy new ones - in
- [A ferry to Spain](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/28/a-ferry-to-spain/) - As I wrote last week, we're off to Spain and then France for a few weeks. I wrote this yesterday while somewhere off the coast of Spain. This ferry trip from Portsmouth to Bilbao offers something of normality during abnormal times. It's only the mask wearing when moving around the ship that suggests anything is
- [Stand By!](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/24/stand-by/) - Once again I've gone weeks without posting here. But stand by for an avalanche of posts, because from Monday this will be my travel blog for the next two months. After almost a year at home (save a couple of weekend breaks) we are leaving on Monday for Spain and then France. Usually I keep
- [Sex without love and love without sex](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/22/sex-without-love-and-love-without-sex/) - "Sex without love is as hollow and ridiculous as love without sex"Hunter S Thomson Sex without love Sex can take place without love and love without sex. It doesn't however need to be either hollow or ridiculous. Sex as a transactional act can be mighty fulfilling. I didn't know that to be the case until
- [Light, Love and Loyalty](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/14/light-love-and-loyalty/) - Just lately you are lucky if you get one post a week out of me. I struggle to find the words for my blog when I seem to write so many for work. Plus life has got generally busier and when I have down time it isn't my laptop that I'm reaching for. These aren't
- [Once is enough](https://aftermpb.com/2021/07/07/once-is-enough/) - "You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough" Mae West Next year it will be 10 years since I decided that there had to be more to life than the one I was living and it's 3 years since I made the biggest move of my life. When I left
- [The vulnerability of submission](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/30/the-vulnerability-of-submission/) - "Staying vulnerable is a risk we have to take if we want to experience connection" Brené Brown I have exposed the vulnerable side of myself as a submissive more than I ever did before. Within this relationship I have allowed another person to take control in a way that I didn't know possible and in
- [Writing and my love of stationery](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/21/writing-and-my-love-of-stationery/) - “Between my finger and my thumb the squat pen rests; snug as a gun.” – Seamus Heaney I'm not sure about the gun bit, but I certainly love the feel of a pen between my finger and thumb. I like to write in long hand with a real pen. Preferably in a different colour to
- [Fathers Day](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/20/fathers-day/) - Today is Father's Day and unlike Mother's Day it is celebrated on the same day the world over. For those of us who no longer have our dad in our life this is a difficult day. I have amazing memories of my dad. He was kind and thoughtful. Intelligent and resourceful. But also annoying and
- [Making A Love map](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/20/making-a-love-map/) - An interesting concept for this week's Erotic Journal Challenge - A love map. Based on Joan Mazza's book, Exploring your sexual self, each of us has a personal map of personal aspects of love, sex and romance. What we as individuals find sexy, romantic, arousing etc. Brigit finds some fabulous prompts and this is no
- [For the Health of it - A relaunch](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/19/for-the-health-of-it-a-relaunch/) - As part of the general relaunch of my blog I'm also going to give For the Health of it another try. The meme will be fortnightly once again and focus on a range of topics relating to food, fitness, health and travel. It will be both specific and general. You are welcome to follow the
- [Changes: Broadening my horizons](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/18/changes-broadening-my-horizons/) - I've decided to broaden the focus of my blog. Food and fitness with health thrown in feels a little narrow right now. So much so that it really put me off writing. After months of lockdown and very little to do and say my own horizons are broadening and I want to write about more
- [Life is good, though not very sexy](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/16/life-is-good-though-not-very-sexy/) - I've fallen out of love with my blog a bit. Struggling to find anything new to say I've decided to keep quiet. With no photos to share, I've decided not to join in with Sinful Sunday. Usually that would be the one time in a week you could expect a post. Don't get me wrong,
- [My early memories of sexual experience & their impact on the sexual being I have become.](https://aftermpb.com/2021/06/03/my-early-memories-of-sexual-experience-their-impact-on-the-sexual-being-i-have-become/) - It's 3rd June and I'm late with joining in with Every Damn Day in June, which this year is being hosted on Molly's Daily Kiss. Of course nothing says you actually have to post every day, but I need an incentive to write at the moment and this is it. June is the start of
- [Slaves don't have limits](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/28/slaves-dont-have-limits/) - It's a while since I wrote a No True Way post. Well anything at all really. Predictably after the flurry of activity that was the April blogging A-Z, I ran out of steam. Work is busy and is taking much of my weekday energy. But also I just haven't been feeling it, I don't know
- [Thoughts on Desire](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/16/thoughts-on-desire/) - "To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves" - Federico Garcia Lorco This is a post of two halves. About the desire to blog and then my desire for him and he for me. Blogging lull I started May with good intentions. Then work got
- [Thoughts on pubic hair](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/05/thoughts-on-pubic-hair/) - I have written comprehensively on my thoughts on pubic hair a few times. Firstly in 2016 when it was a Kink of the Week. As I mention in the post, while the idea of having a bare pussy appeals, keeping it that way is a faff. Left to my own devices I only really get
- [Man at work](https://aftermpb.com/2018/12/16/man-at-work/)
- [Pubic hair - KOTW](https://aftermpb.com/2016/06/13/pubic-hair-kotw/) - I am probably from a generation that while shaving legs and under arms was the norm, shaving pubic hair was not. For me, a person who always grew hair a plenty this was something of a relief. The idea of spending my entire life in the bathroom, summer and winter did not appeal.
- [Music to get me in the mood](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/03/music-to-get-me-in-the-mood/) - There are a few music tracks that get me in mind of sex. Talking about it, doing it and thinking about it. Talking Lets Talk About Sex Baby makes me think about the problems we have in talking about sex. The fact it's a taboo topic that apparently belongs in the bedroom and not in
- [In my imagination](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/03/in-my-imagination/) - "Imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality"The Cheshire Cat I've spent great periods of time living inside my own head. After all we have to spend far too much time living in the real world. A place where we work for a living, have bills to pay, relationships to maintain and families
- [30 days of Sex Positivity](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/02/30-days-of-sex-positivity/) - No one can say that I am not a glutton for a challenge. Straight from the April Blogging A-Z Challenge, I'm rolling into 30 days of Sex Positivity. This started yesterday over on Breaking Away from Monogamy, so of course I'm straight into a 2 in one situation. But I'm fairly sure that won't matter.
- [I am a sex blogger](https://aftermpb.com/2021/05/02/i-am-a-sex-blogger/) - This is a proper throwback photo. But one that I've never shown before, in fact I don't think I'd ever seen it till a few weeks ago. Master was going through old images and send me quite a number. This one seems perfect for this week's Sinful Sunday prompt. My name is Julie and I'm
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Zigzagging to the end](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/30/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-zigzagging-to-the-end/) - Zigzagging you say? You haven't even written a Y word yet! True and here I am zigzagging around with both Y and Z. Work is quite intense and involves a lot of time in front of a screen. Much more than when I previously worked for a living. Meetings are in front of a screen
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: When, not if](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/28/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-when-not-if/) - It looks like I'll make it to the end of this once again and because I am a day behind (still) this is a 2 for 1 offer! W is for what and not if and X is for Xany and Xenas. You'll have to wait to find out what they hell they mean. When,
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Vulva and Vagina](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/27/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-vulva-and-vagina/) - Why both vulva and vagina? Well because people get the names wrong. Also why vulva and vagina? Because I want to talk about how I'm ageing down there. Some anatomy Unfortunately it's not unusual for people to have little understanding of their own anatomy, nor to call it by wrong name. I guess I am
- [My mentor](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/26/my-mentor/) - 2014 was an amazing year. Master and I got together and started our journey together. It was also a very difficult year as when we met Master had another slave. She lived in the US and was planning to join him at some point in the future. The full story can be found here. 2014
- [The thing I'm most proud of](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/25/the-thing-im-most-proud-of/) - This is my next Obscene Ideas prompt, a series of posts designed to get me thinking more deeply about our life and lifestyle. I am proud of lots of things, but today I am most proud of this blog. 9 years ago on 21st April 2012 I started this blog over on blogger. It was
- [Chastity - does a girl need to be locked in?](https://aftermpb.com/2016/11/29/chastity-does-a-girl-need-to-be-locked-in/) - There was a time when I felt the need to touch myself most days. I would arrive home from work and if I felt that I had sufficient time before my son and husband arrived on the scene would make myself cum. sometimes I stood in my son's bedroom looking out of the window while
- [30 Days of Submission - Day 30](https://aftermpb.com/2012/11/30/30-days-of-submission-day-30/) - Is your need to submit being met? If not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and still be happy/content if you were never able to express your submission in the way that feels best to you again? What makes submission special to you? Well finally i
- [Ultimate fucking](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/24/ultimate-fucking/) - It's blurry. But I took the photo myself during this episode of ultimate fucking, so what do you expect. It was a late Christmas gift, or something that arrived after Christmas. Gadget man got another gadget, one that provides the ultimate fucking experience. We haven't used it much, but that seems fitting. Since it's most
- [Gadget man](https://aftermpb.com/2018/01/02/gadget-man/) - The first thing that came to mind when I saw this week’s prompt for Wicked Wednesday was Master. Following our second play date in February 2014 I called him gadget man. I kneeled, restrained, legs in a spreader bar, arms spread too, wrists in cuffs, attached to a chain that passed under the bed. Blindfolded.
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Time](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/24/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-time/) - Time passes more more quickly as we get older. That certainly seems the case to me. My 50's seem to be passing more quickly than either my 30's or 40's. But maybe that's because I've been having such a blast. Time passes faster as you get older I looked up the phenomena of time passing
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Sex is for everyone](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/23/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-sex-is-for-everyone/) - There should be no upper age limit to your ability to get some kind of sexual enjoyment. But of course many people would rather believe that sex is for the under 40. Until of course you are 39 or 49 or 59 etc. I'm going to be 59 in August and in my 20s I
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Reality](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/22/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-reality/) - Aging is real and it certainly is my reality. When I look in the mirror these days I see a middle aged woman looking back at me. It's a bit of a shock to be honest, as in many ways I feel no different to to the person I was at say 30. But of
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: About Me Quiz](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/20/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-about-me-quiz/) - Today is Q day so I found an about me quiz so you can know a bit more about me: Are you a morning or night person? - Morning is when I get stuff done. Are you afraid of the dark? - Not especiallyAre you an extrovert or introvert? - Extrovert, but I have to
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Past Love](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/19/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-past-love/) - "It will always be a mystery to me how we can't forget the love that forgot us" - J.M Storm For quite a time I refrained from writing about my relationship with Steve. After all I have moved on and am now in this relationship. But this series of posts on age and how my
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Orgasms](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/18/blogging-a-z-challenge-orgasms/) - I don't remember when I discovered the pleasure of orgasms, but I wasn't very young. Probably in my late thirties or early forties. My ex wasn't really into giving pleasure, it was all about him. So once I discovered and located the toys that would meet my needs I used them. But it wasn't until
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Nudity](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/17/blogging-a-z-challenge-nudity/) - My appreciation of nudity and the naked body arrived late. I guess I had previously admired beautiful male and female bodies, but I never really identified with them. I've never been particularly slim, or perfectly proportioned. I didn't appreciate my own body, let alone any one else. This blog has helped change that. 10 years
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Libido and Menopause](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/16/blogging-a-z-challenge-libido-and-menopause/) - I've never had the highest of sex drives. But my libido has definitely been affected by the menopause. When I embarked on this journey I was peri-menopausal. My periods were still regular, but I had started to get the hot flashes and night sweats. It's been 10 years now and sadly I still have the
- [E-lust #136 - It's back!](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/16/e-lust-136-its-back/) - Welcome to Elust 136 The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #137? Start with the rules, come back May 1st to
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Keep (or get) Fit](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/14/blogging-a-z-challenge-keep-or-get-fit/) - I've always thought that the idea of going to keep fit was slightly odd. After all you have to get there first. And that is where I am once again. But, so far so good. I started on Friday last week with a fitness video, though it took me to Monday to recover. Since then
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Kink](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/14/blogging-a-z-challenge-kink/) - I'm back at work and have slipped behind with the challenge. Still I will as always catch up. Today I'm going to talk about kink and am linking this up with Quote Quest meme: “I feel the need to endanger myself every so often.” – Tim Daly With age I've become a little less risk
- [Finding my kink](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/30/finding-my-kink/) - When I started exploring my kinky side I thought I didn't know I was even interested in kink. But thinking back, the signs were there, even as far back as my early 20's. At that time (I think I mentioned before), I wrote stories in longhand that often included threesomes and other kinky stuff. But
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Journals](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/12/blogging-a-z-challenge-journals/) - I've used blogs as journals for a long time now, since I first found Wordpress and Blogger. I started my first one when I was first in healthcare management, encouraged by the nursing blogs I'd been reading. I found myself part of a blogging community and that was fun for a while. Over time I
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Judgement](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/12/blogging-a-z-challenge-judgement/) - “Those who judge will never understand, and those who understand will never judge.” Anonymous It is only too easy to pass judgement on the choices of others these days. You don't need to call someone up or be face to face, just jump into social media. Not only that, but don't restrict yourself to passing
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: I'm behind](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/11/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-im-behind/) - I'm behind with the challenge, hence a Sunday post. Plus I haven't properly planned this, but unlike last year I am determined to finish. I'm transcribing my nan's diaries and wish now I'd used that as my theme, but maybe next year. Tomorrow I definitely need to get planning because on Tuesday I'm back at
- [The Impact](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/11/the-impact/) - The impact of Master's implements on my backside resulted in these lovely marks. It's just a shame they didn't last long. But at least we have the evidence they were actually there! To think that 10 years ago I'd never had more than a little light spanking. Who says you can't begin to enjoy your
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Habits](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/10/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-habits/) - "Habit is habit and not to be Flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time"Mark Twain New habits are pretty challenging to form and embed in life, especially where they are conscious ones. Like for example going to bed at a particular time, intermittent fasting, healthy eating
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Being Humiliated](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/10/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-being-humiliated/) - It was a major surprise to me when I discovered that being called a slut or even whore turned me on. There I was a woman approaching 50 who suddenly got very aroused and wet at being humiliated. Looking back at the situations I found myself in, gives me a thrill even today. My first
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Giving Pain](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/08/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-giving-pain/) - “Pleasure is sweetest when ’tis paid for by another’s pain.” – Ovid Last week was Master's birthday. He asked for nothing from me for his birthday other than the opportunity to give me pain. I bought him some cheese, which we enjoyed over the Easter weekend. I also gave him my body so that he could have fun
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: Gift](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/08/blogging-a-z-challenge-gift/) - It was mothers day here in the UK a few weeks ago and I received an intriguing gift from my son. A box of chocolates, but not the usual kind, milk tray or dairy. No this was a plain cardboard box containing a selection of different fair trade chocolates, individually wrapped. He had already warned
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Fear](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/07/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-fear/) - “Do one thing every day that scares you.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt I guess that the only thing that often stops you doing something you want to is fear itself. Will I make a fool of myself, will I make a mistake, will I end up in a worse place than I started? All questions that stop creativity
- [Finding myself](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/07/finding-myself-2/) - You will note from some of the previous posts in this series, I am someone who set about finding myself in my 50's. I don't think it's an understatement to say that I really didn't know who I was by my 49th birthday. Ok I was someone's wife, someone's daughter and someone's mother. But what
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Erotic Fiction](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/06/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-erotic-fiction/) - I am quite discerning in my choices when it comes to erotic fiction, though I do enjoy reading it. For a start I'm no fan of the novelette. I prefer a story I can properly get into. Also it mustn't take place entirely in the bedroom, dungeon etc. The story needs to be some how
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Exercise](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/06/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-exercise/) - This year has been terrible for exercise. Some weeks I've barely left the house, spending much of my time in my work office or on the sofa. At least there are stairs between. But now it's spring and the days are longer, the swimming pool is about to open and there is no excuse not
- [Things that made me laugh](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/29/things-that-made-me-laugh/) - Dealing with medical embarrassment Over the past few months I have found myself in some strange but pretty serious situations. I have had to take my top off for doctors and other health professionals more times than most models do for a photographer in a whole career. Everyone is very professional and careful to protect
- [Elust #114](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/20/elust-114/) - Photo courtesy of Rebel's Notes Welcome to Elust 114- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #115? Start with the rules,
- [#SoSS Celebrating sex bloggers](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/07/soss-celebrating-sex-bloggers/) - I really don't write enough #SoSS posts. I'm not great at noting down the great posts as I read them so can't always remember highlights. This has to be another of my 2020 goals - more sharing other people's shit. This week, the eagerly awaited Top 100 Sex Blogs was announced. Sponsored by Chaturbate and
- [Sex bloggers R us](https://aftermpb.com/2018/12/01/sex-bloggers-r-us/) - It is 6 and a half years since I joined the sex blogging world. When I started my blog was about describing new experiences and their emotional effect on me. A diary of events mixed in with memes and other stuff when life was uneventful. My blog has changed a lot since my first post
- [Criminalised?](https://aftermpb.com/2015/03/17/criminalised/) - In my job, I work closely with midwives and obstetricians and so had heard about this from them. But today I read this article in the London Evening Standard. Apparently, here in the UK, a woman with genital piercings is now classed as being a victim of female genital mutilation. Even if she herself chose
- [Elust #113](https://aftermpb.com/2018/12/17/elust-113/) - Photo courtesy of Quinn Rhodes Welcome to Elust 113- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #114? Start with the rules,
- [Elust #115](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/18/elust-115/) - Photo courtesy of Katteroo Welcome to Elust 115- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #116? Start with the rules, come
- [Elust 117](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/27/elust-117/) - Photo courtesy of Master's Eye Welcome to Elust 117- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #118? Start with the rules,
- [Elust #118](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/19/elust-118/) - Photo courtesy of My Controlled Ascent Welcome to Elust 118- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #119? Start with the
- [Elust #119](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/18/elust-119/) - Photo courtesy of Floss Does Life Welcome to Elust 119- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #119? Start with the
- [Elust 120](https://aftermpb.com/2019/07/18/elust-120/) - Photo courtesy of Purple's Gem Welcome to Elust 120- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #119? Start with the rules,
- [Elust #111](https://aftermpb.com/2018/10/19/elust-111/) - Photo courtesy of A Leap of Faith Welcome to Elust 111- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #112? Start with
- [Elust #112](https://aftermpb.com/2018/11/21/elust-112/) - Photo courtesy of Cara Thereon Welcome to Elust 112- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #113? Start with the rules,
- [Space to think](https://aftermpb.com/2012/07/29/space-to-think/) - i like weekend mornings. i tend to get up reasonably early, and certainly earlier than hubby and son. There is no pressure to do anything, though of course there are things to do, and no thoughts of needing to be anywhere. I have the time to read other blogs properly and use that reading as
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: D/s - starting in your 50's](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/05/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-d-s-starting-in-your-50s/) - Actually I was still 49 when I began my D/s relationship with S. During the past 9 years I have learned much more about myself, about sex and relationships than I can say. It has literally been life changing. In some ways it would have been good to have found my submissive self earlier. Perhaps,
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021 - Dieting](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/05/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-dieting/) - This is what I try to do, but it really is just too easy to fall into diet mode. I'm great at keeping focused on what I should be eating during week days, but come Saturday or sometimes Friday I fall off the wagon. Eat too much bad stuff and drink more wine than is
- [A secret most people don't know about me](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/04/a-secret-most-people-dont-know-about-me/) - No, I've never been a bunny girl, but it I was young and slim I might like to work in one of the clubs I've visited. There is very little about me that isn't described in some way on tis blog. I really am an open book and pretty much wear my heart on my
- [Only strong women need apply?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/04/only-strong-women-need-apply/) - The No True Way prompt for this week is about the idea that submissives are strong independent women seeking a release. "Submission appeals to responsible, hard working and independent women, because it takes them to a world free from those pressures" This statement reminds me of a lot of the erotic fiction books out there.
- [A few of his favourite things](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/03/a-few-of-his-favourite-things/) - I've been absent from Sinful Sunday for a few weeks. A kind of post February Photofest, lack of images, absence of motivation kind of time. But we're back with this photo showing a few of his favourite things. It's prompt week and the wheel of photography is back. So I gave it a spin and
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021 - Cancer](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/03/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-cancer-2/) - Content Warning: This post is about cancer and includes references to physical illness, death and dying. As well as more positive messages. In 2018 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and while it was a massive shock, I have since made a full recovery. I had a mastectomy followed by radiotherapy and am on medication
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021 - Cancer](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/03/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-cancer/) - Content Warning: This post is about cancer and includes references to physical illness, death and dying. As well as more positive messages. Regular visitors to my blog will know that in 2018 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and while it was a massive shock, I have since made a full recovery. I had a
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Being Loved](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/02/being-loved/) - “Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” ― Lao Tzu For a very long time I was loved, but couldn't love in return. Partly I think because his love was conditional on me being the person he thought I should be. Also because he had hurt me so very
- [Blogging A-Z 2021:  Being sexy in your 50's](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/02/blogging-a-z-2021-being-sexy-in-your-50s/) - Being sexy is all about attitude, not body type. It's a state of mind. Amisha Patel Being sexy is never about body type, nor is it about age. But the world would definitely prefer you to hide your body away if you are fat or old, or of course both. It won't surprise anyone who
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021: Acceptance](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/01/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-acceptance/) - This blog has been lying somewhat dormant for the past couple of months. Work and life in general got the better of me. But I'm going to make a good attempt at getting back on track during April. I'm joining the Blogging A-Z Challenge and am going to try to get further than I did
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021  - All Things Age](https://aftermpb.com/2021/04/01/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021-all-things-age/) - “At age 20, we worry about what others think of us. At age 40, we don’t care what they think of us. At age 60, we discover they haven’t been thinking of us at all.” Ann Landers This his my 5th Blogging A-Z. After each year I've said, never again. But here I am and this
- [Female Chastity - Physical or Emotional](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/04/female-chastity-physical-or-emotional/) - Over the past year or so my Kink of the Week post on female chastity has been one of the most frequently read on my blog. I admit to being fascinated by the concept of physical chastity devices. Though I have never worn one, I find the idea extremely erotic. That I, a submissive woman
- [A weekend in a chastity belt: Part 1 The Gift](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/31/a-weekend-in-a-chastity-belt-part-1-the-gift/) - This erotic fantasy story is part of a series of posts about female chastity and chastity belts. You can find the others here. The gift "I have a present for you," He smiled as he held the large package out to me. I'd barely arrived at Master's house for the weekend and I was still
- [Love lock](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/14/love-lock/) - I'd always wanted my labia pierced. But until Master came along, I didn't have the nerve. He was keen to know and understand my kinks and it wasn't long before I told him about this one. The idea of wearing a chastity devise, that locked my labia together was something I'd dreamed of. A love
- [The myths and the reality of being a slave](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/30/the-myths-and-the-reality-of-being-a-slave/) - What's it like to be a slave and live in a 24/7 Master / slave relationship? What are the realities and what are the myths? That's the topic I'm covering for this week's Erotic Journal Challenge. The first myth of Master / slave relationships is probably the idea that the slave would be subservient to
- [Thinking about sex](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/16/thinking-about-sex/) - Brigit Delaney has relaunched her Erotic Journal Challenge meme. Making it a little more specific and also back to weekly. I’m keen to pick up on the challenge to write more and to make some of those posts more journal like in nature. This week’s prompt is about sex – What’s right and wrong with
- [Mistakes are a necessary thing in life](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/17/mistakes-are-a-necessary-thing-in-life/) - “Mistakes are the portals of discovery.”James Joyce Master is a big James Joyce fan and we have been together to see a few of his plays*. They are always interesting and thought provoking. I wondered where the quote above came from and neither of us were sure. In his book Ulysses (of course Master has a copy)
- [Seen but not heard](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/23/seen-but-not-heard/) - “A submissive knows that they should learn to control their tongue when annoyed with their dominant“. This week’s prompt for No True Way strikes something of a cord with me. Anyone who knows me would laugh at the very idea I could keep my mouth shut about anything and with anyone. I’m an extrovert and
- [Mind over body](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/29/mind-over-body/) - When I was looking for fun and excitement and then later on a man to dominate me, I turned to internet chat rooms. Those places were full of people who had an over inflated opinion of themselves, who portrayed themselves as some kind of adonis. With a huge cock obviously. The men that I was
- [This storm is passing](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/28/this-storm-is-passing/) - I knew The Barefoot sub was starting a meme, Mindful Moments but somehow it's birth passed me by and so this is my first post linked to it. This post, This storm is passing, will I hope be the first of many. As March draws to a close I feel more positive than I have
- [Soulmate](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/11/soulmate/) - “A true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.”Elizabeth Gilbert When people told me that their other half was their soulmate I often wondered what that exactly meant. After all I loved my husband, the
- [Surreal](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/07/surreal/) - “As beautiful as the chance encounter of a sewing machine and an umbrella on an operating table.”Comte de Lautréamont Master's photo. A quote that came into his mind while discussing the image. Both surreal to my mind.
- [Mind your manners](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/07/mind-your-manners/) - "A Dom doesn’t need to ever use the word PLEASE" There are times when I don't expect Master to use the word please, or indeed thank you. Times when I do as I'm told without question. When the very tone of his voice is enough to pull me up short, to make me utter, "yes Master".
- [Let the music play](https://aftermpb.com/2021/03/05/let-the-music-play/) - “Music is the literature of the heart; it commences where speech ends.” Alphonse de Lamartine Music has always been part of my life. From my childhood when the radio played sounds of the 60's then 70's most of the day and often the record player at night. Any time a golden oldie comes on the
- [Music - The food of love](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/13/music-the-food-of-love/) - Music has been an ever present feature of my life. Apparently Shakespeare's Twelth Night quote is about using music to cure an obsession with love. I am not obsessional about love, any more than I am about music, but do think the two go hand in hand. Childhood Nursery rhymes were a feature of my
- [I dare you](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/28/i-dare-you/) - "I dare you to stand naked in the hotel corridor" He said. So, of course I did. I was probably fortified with alcohol, but given that I am a slut and an exhibitionist I'd probably do that anyway. Taken a few years ago, like the previous two days this photo hasn't been shown on my
- [Ecstasy](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/27/ecstasy/) - This is the second in a series of three images which date back a few years, but which have never appeared here before. The first from yesterday is here. This image I've entitled ecstasy. I'm not sure when it was taken, but I'd hazard a guess at 4 or 5 years ago. This was a
- [The corset](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/26/the-corset/) - I had planned to take lots of new photos this February for Photofest. But Master has been going through his old photos and found a number never to have been seen here before. Some of which I don't think I've had sight of. One such image is this, the corset. In 2015/16 I lost a
- [Throwback Thursday](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/25/throwback-thursday/) - The better weather this week has had me thinking of summer. This Throwback Thursday image was taken last May during a particularly pleasant late spring / early summer. We were still in lockdown 1 but we could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sadly we didn't know quite how long that tunnel
- [Thinking about my relationship with pain](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/24/thinking-about-my-relationship-with-pain/) - “It is always by way of pain one arrives at pleasure.” Marquis de Sade The picture above probably wouldn't look to most as if it involves pain. Indeed individually the nipple clamps and suction device would have provided discomfort rather than pain. What's more, both have the effect of causing arousal as well as a
- [Touch yourself](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/22/touch-yourself/) - There was a time when I would have been very self conscious about touching myself in this way. But these days I will not only strip off when instructed but touch myself when told to too. The words 'touch yourself' are extremely likely to turn me on and almost have me feeling weak at the
- [Beautiful moments](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/21/beautiful-moments/) - A warmer, brighter weekend has brought thoughts of summer. Plus the urge to look through previously unused photos for Photofest. Yesterday's image, where something appeared in my album last summer but definitely wasn't taken then caused another search. The two photos below were taken on that same journey, but in Spain. It was a slightly
- [Mrs Grumpy](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/20/mrs-grumpy/) - I look grumpy, hence the title of this post. More likely though I am tired after a light night. I can't work out when or where it was taken, but I'm obviously not alone. Let's hope whatever followed this photo being taken put a smile on my face. We can only hope! *Update - I
- [Lounging](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/19/lounging/) - Last summer when we were away in France there was lots of time for lounging. In bed, on the sofa, on a sun bed......you know the kind of thing. This is another image taken in one of our apartment rentals (hence the mixture of bed linen you see me lying on). Funnily enough it was
- [Summer sun](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/18/summer-sun/) - How I yearn for the feeling of the sun on my head and on my back. How I would love to be somewhere sunny and warm right now. I know spring isn't too far away, but I would give anything for summer sun right now. Taken in August 2019 this I've edited this image just
- [Sun kissed skin](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/04/sun-kissed-skin/) - The past few days have been cooler and for the first time since the beginning of July I have worn trousers and a long sleeve shirt. While we had a few cool evenings on holiday even in France, there was still no need to cover up. I love to feel the warm sun on my
- [Feel the buzz](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/17/feel-the-buzz/) - Sometimes I need a little help to get into my space. Sometimes I really need to feel the buzz!
- [Growing and changing as we grow older](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/15/growing-and-changing-as-we-grow-older/) - The image above was taken on Valentines day, I'm wearing the gifts Master bought me. Look behind - He's making coffee 😁 In my last 31 Days of Reflection post I looked back, in this I shall look forward. We came to this relationship in our middle age and we hope to carry it forward
- [Can love be blind?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/14/can-love-be-blind/) - “Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind” William Shakespeare I'm a great believer in the idea that love shouldn't be about looks or other external features, indeed over the years I've discovered that some very beautiful looking people can be quite horrible. Sadly the world is
- [Wayback When](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/13/wayback-when-2/) - Master has been sending me older images from his phone this week. Some of which I am pretty sure have never been shown here before. This is one of those. My first thought about this photo is that I remember that I wore that (spanking) skirt on this occasion last January. It was of course
- [The Hood](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/11/the-hood/) - “Don’t Worry About The Darkness In My Soul. It Ignites Me Like An Embered Coal.” – Anon I guess you could approach this quote from a number of directions. The kinds of things we do together could be considered dark to some. Impact play, restraint or even my need and desire to submit and his
- [Hello up there](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/10/hello-up-there/) - I've shared a photo of Master up on the mezzanine level of our French holiday rental before. But this one gives more of a view of the whole living space. It was some place. One I'd go back to if I didn't actually own somewhere so close by. Still, to be able to call up:
- [Hiding amongst the rocks](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/09/hiding-amongst-the-rocks/) - A photo from our holiday last year. Taken and edited by Master and a little different from others I have shown from that day. This, I thinks makes me blend in and look like I'm hiding amongst the rocks.
- [Sunday Morning Spanking](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/07/sunday-morning-spanking/) - There are few things better than a Sunday morning spanking. Well other than some sex to follow perhaps.
- [Up close and personal](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/06/up-close-and-personal/) - This isn't the image I was planning. Well, it is but this is this isn't the edit I planned. Since it's February, that can come later. The Sinful Sunday prompt weekend demanded something a bit more up close and personal than intended. But that's where the edit comes in. I'm no overly impressed with certain
- [Red bath](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/05/red-bath/) - I treated us to some bath bombs over Christmas. This was taken just before he got in, hence the slight lack of water. We're lucky to have this little luxury in our lives.
- [Morning Coffee](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/04/morning-coffee/) - “A morning coffee is my favorite way of starting the day, settling the nerves so that they don’t later fray.” – Marcia Carrington It's throwback Thursday on February Photofest, which gives me the opportunity to share an image from March 2018. In fact it was taken during Eroticon weekend, while I lounged in bed in
- [My boob](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/03/my-boob/) - This one boob is all I have. But it seems that in many ways it is enough. To hold, to feel to kiss and suck. To dress. This boob is all I have, but it's my boob and it is also his.
- [Come to bed](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/02/come-to-bed/) - Last summer, while on the way back through France we stayed in an amazing property with jacuzzi and spiral staircase. The latter was pretty treacherous, but I needed little encouragement when asked to 'come to bed).
- [Rear of the year?](https://aftermpb.com/2021/02/01/rear-of-the-year/) - I'm kicking off this year's February Photofest with an image from last summer. Master is always admiring my ass. He exclaims that it is firm and pert. Compared to the rest of me that is definitely true. This was taken by him on a hot day in France. I love this edit and long for
- [Give it to me now](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/31/give-it-to-me-now/) - This is another of our New Years Eve fun photos. I think I look like I want sex right now!
- [Onwards to February Photofest 2021](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/31/onwards-to-february-photofest-2021/) - It's been a lean month here on MPB, but that is about to change because tomorrow February Photofest 2021 starts. Firstly the excuses for my January performance. Work, actual paid work (though I haven't been paid yet). I've seen first hand the effect Covid is having on the health service. I haven't needed to get
- [How I have evolved over the years](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/24/how-i-have-evolved-over-the-years/) - The second self reflection prompt examines how I have evolved over time. The past year, five and ten years. As I mentioned in my last post, I am focusing on me as a submissive women within a Master / slave relationship and more widely in relation to BDSM. I started this blog 9 years ago
- [Flasher](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/24/flasher/) - I've been quiet this week because my new job is tiring me out. But at least I'm finding weekends to be a bit more creative. We've been taking some photos ready for February photofest. Some of them are spontaneous and start off with a moment of fun and provocation. This was one such moment and
- [31 Days of Self Reflection - A series](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/11/31-days-of-self-reflection-a-series/) - The second Obscene Ideas workbook was released on Friday. This one focuses on self reflection. I've decided to strike before the ink on it is dry and start a new series of posts using the workbook in chronological order. My focus of self reflection will be to explore myself and our relationship broadly in terms
- [Celebration](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/17/celebration-2/) - New Year Celebrations were pretty low key this year, but then to be honest we prefer them that way. Of course, the choice would have been nice, but stay home is the message and so of course that's what we did. It's almost a year since the first 'three week' lockdown began. Back in March
- [The lover and the love](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/13/the-lover-and-the-love/) - “We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.” – Tom Robbins In the beginning I thought it was all about love. That amazing feeling you get when you are with the person who makes you feel like no one ever has. That spark when you just hold hands, the
- [A blog to follow](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/13/a-blog-to-follow/) - It's a long time since I wrote a post promoting a food, fitness or health blog to follow. But as part of my blog relaunch this year I want to make this a regular feature again. You can find the others in the series here. For the first time I'm picking an Instagram blog. But
- [Everything you need to know about For the Health of it](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/08/everything-you-need-to-know-about-for-the-health-of-it/) - Welcome to For the Health of it When I decided to start a new blog about food, fitness and health I was keen to involve others. Writing about my own weight loss and fitness journey is fine and finding resources to share is great. But there are many people out there doing the same thing. What. I
- [Taking Responsibility](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/08/taking-responsibility/) - This week's No True Way prompt is a quote: The Dominant is the responsible one. My first thought is responsible for what? We all have responsibilities, to ourselves and to others. Plus we all have to be responsible for something. I'm going to sort my response into his and hers. Master and slave. But also
- [2021 - Week 1](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/07/2021-week-1/) - Welcome to my weekly journal entry. This is where I plan to write about my progress towards a slimmer, fitter and healthier me. So week 1. Week 1 review Weigh in day is now Thursday which means that today was my first of the year. I lost 1.5lb and am really pleased to say that
- [Looking ahead to better days](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/06/looking-ahead-to-better-days/) - Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book, write a good oneBrad Paisley At our Smutlancer video call last weekend Molly said something really important - that you don't have to start everything on 1st Jan. In fact there is merit in starting a new project at any time. 365 days of
- [For the Health of it prompt - January 2021](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/04/for-the-health-of-it-prompt-january-2021/) - It's already 4th January so I am late with the prompt once again. But given that many people don't stick to resolutions much past this day, maybe that isn't a bad thing. Motivation for us all has taken a real bashing this past 10 months or more. So improving health and fitness is going to
- [January 2021 - Relaunch](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/04/january-2021-relaunch/) - Like many people I know I have struggled with motivation for months. Mainly I think because a return to pre-pandemic life seems almost as far away as ever. Yes, the vaccines are being rolled out. But we have to be realistic that a large proportion of the population of any country need to be vaccinated
- [My 2021 Goals](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/03/my-2021-goals/) - Last year I set out 7 goals for the year over two separate blog posts - here and here. Despite the way that 2020 turned out I actually managed to achieve many of those goals. But perhaps not to the extent I had wanted. So I plan to revisit those (most actually) that still need
- [Silhouette](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/03/silhouette/) - "Enhancing a woman's silhouette and enhancing a woman's beauty - both contribute to enhancing her confidence, so they're synonymous, really." ~ L'Wren Scott
- [Goodbye 2020, Hello 2021](https://aftermpb.com/2021/01/02/goodbye-2020-hello-2021/) - This is part 2 of my round up of 2020. Part 1 is here. I intended to write this yesterday, but have to admit that I consumed too much fizzy wine saying goodbye to 2020! So my first post of 2021 is also my first for January Jumpstart. As you'll see below, I was hardly
- [A Look back on 2020 (Part 1)](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/31/a-look-back-on-2020-part-1/) - Over the past few years I've enjoyed looking back over my blog to review the highs and lows. To see how many posts I've written, the topics and how I've interacted with the community. Although this is far from my best blogging year, looking back I can see there have been many positives. As I
- [Endings and beginnings](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/31/endings-and-beginnings-2/) - “What is Christmas? It is tenderness for the past, courage for the present, hope for the future.” – Agnes M. Pahro I always think of Christmas as pretty much the end of the year (which of course it is since it is at the end of December). A time when you can pause and take
- [Letter box view](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/27/letter-box-view/) - For my last Sinful Sunday image of 2020, something of a letter box view. I advise close inspection! To see who else is joining in this weekend click the lips below.
- [Working out who my people are](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/24/working-out-who-my-people-are/) - “One kind word can warm three winter months. ” – Japanese Proverb This is the year I've struggled to work out just who my people are. My assumptions have been challenged and my actions judged. I'm far from alone in this. What follows is something of a ramble, but it's my ramble! In her post
- [Jacuzzi Bath](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/05/jacuzzi-bath/) - We are lucky to have a wonderful jacuzzi bath to soak in. Sometimes though the jets lead to a very bubbly and pleasurable experience. Such was the case a few nights ago.
- [Christmas cake](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/02/christmas-cake/) - This year, for the first time in I don't know how long I have made a Christmas cake. I know this isn't the most healthy thing to eat but I hardly eat cake and since I'm going to be home more I really fancied to make one. I didn't have a recipe ready but on
- [Planning - 1st December](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/01/planning-1st-december/) - Day one of my Advent Calendar of posts is about planning. Christmas is one of those times of year that needs planning. It's not that my Christmas is particularly complicated, but plan I do. First of all is my present list, which expands and contracts over time. I still buy for my siblings, nieces and
- [Just write!](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/01/just-write/) - “If you want to be a writer, you must do two things above all others: read a lot and write a lot.” – Stephen King I set myself a task to write more November. Having joined up with Brigit's EROBLOPOMO at the beginning of the month I was raring to go. Well, the results are in. November was a much
- [For the Health of it Advent Calendar](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/01/for-the-health-of-it-advent-calendar/) - December prompt: Advent calendar It's December and the start of advent. Whether you celebrate Christmas, another religious festival or are counting down to the arrival of the man in red, then this is the meme for you. December is the month of present buying and wrapping. It's the time for tree and house decorating and
- [Being thankful](https://aftermpb.com/2020/12/01/being-thankful-2/) - This is how I feel right now as this year draws to a close and we enter the Christmas / Holiday season. I'm happy and thankful to have got this far, unscathed, but I can't say I'm overjoyed either. Health Thankfully I am fit and healthy and haven't been ill this year. I met with
- [Nothing to do with age!](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/30/nothing-to-do-with-age/) - This week's No True Way is about pubic hair and whether they should be shaved or not. But the statement, which Lily saw on social media has my blood boiling. Whether you shave your pubic hair or not should have nothing to do with age. Nor should it be about gender or sex. Who are
- [Mezzanine view](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/29/mezzanine-view/) - Sadly I'm getting close to the end of my supply of holiday images. This one provides a view of the same mezzanine as last week. But this is of him and of course he is standing. The piece of furniture that I was sitting at still looks like a piano. Sadly though it wasn't. Brilliant
- [Day Dreamer](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/24/day-dreamer/) - “Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning.” – Gloria Steinem I've always been a bit of a day dreamer. Sometimes the world inside my head has been far more interesting than the one going on around me. But also letting your mind wander off is a good way of planning what you need to do. It
- [Poised](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/22/poised-3/) - It was an unexpected pleasure that we stayed in some amazing properties while in France. Unintended and expensive. But definitely a pleasure. This photo is unedited by me (he may have done so before sending it to me) because it shows I am up on the mezzanine floor. I'm sitting at a desk, though it
- [Ready](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/06/ready-2/) - I hadn't intended to disappear from the radar this past week. But events over took me and I've had to go with the flow. The great news is, we are in the warm and sunny south of France. The other good news is we are enjoying some great food and drink as well as the
- [Giving thanks](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/19/giving-thanks/) - Photo by Farhan Shaikh on Unsplash We don't have a Thanksgiving type event here in the UK. But since it will be Thanksgiving in USA next week I thought I'd use that as a prompt for this month's shortened For The Health Of It. 2020 hasn't been anything like the year any of us expected. For many of
- [Keep on moving](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/18/keep-on-moving/) - “Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” – Albert Einstein I've always believed that in life we have to adapt and change to move forward. That we have to listen, look and learn as we go. Even when my life didn't seem to be going anywhere I made a point
- [Catching up and moving forward](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/15/catching-up-and-moving-forward/) - I've neglected this blog since returning from France. So much so that I haven't even posted a For the Health of it topic for November. Time now to put all of that right and get back into some kind of routine. It's a year since I started the blog and so it seems like a
- [A quick flash](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/15/a-quick-flash/) - On the way back from a bar late one (not very warm) night in France, I pulled down my trousers for this quick flash. This is a place that is busy during the main holiday season. But by early October it is pretty quiet, especially as the restaurants tend to close early. If they have
- [A sense of fear](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/13/a-sense-of-fear/) - This week's prompt for No True Way relates to this newsletter that provides strategies for a play scene. One of which is creating a sense of fear to heighten the nervous system response of the submissive. It goes on to suggest restraint and sensory deprivation to help this to happen. It seems a nice idea.
- [Bearing a grudge](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/10/bearing-a-grudge/) - “An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind…” – Mahatma Gandhi I am not one to bear a grudge, much less try to exact revenge. The trouble is far too many people do just that. Fail to listen, make judgements and then cut you out of their lives. Or worse try
- [The poser](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/08/the-poser/) - If you think it is just me who loves to get naked and strut about you'd be wrong. Master likes to walk around naked even more than I do. He is much more comfortable in his body than I am. He really is something of a poser. This week is the 500th Sinful Sunday and
- [Part of the furniture](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/05/part-of-the-furniture/) - Image to follow There is something very appealing about posing naked as a table or footstool while my Master rests a cup or his feet upon me. His very own personalised, human furniture. My posture would be perfect and I'd hold my pose, not for minutes but hours, if needed. This fantasy speaks to the
- [I believe in destiny](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/03/i-believe-in-destiny/) - Do you believe in destiny? That even the powers of time can be altered for a single purpose?From Dracula by Bram Stoker It's funny, I thought my destiny was one thing, but it turned out to be something else. At the end of my marriage I assumed I would live out my days alone somewhere.
- [Caught short](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/01/caught-short-2/) - Towards the end of our holiday in France we headed off out for the day. We sat in an old square surrounded by a beautiful ancient church, ecclesiastical and other buildings and ate lunch. Then we went for a walk. Stupidly I didn't go to the bathroom in the café before we set off. So,
- [Writing more in November](https://aftermpb.com/2020/11/01/writing-more-in-november/) - The past months have bee pretty lean times at MPB. It isn't unusual for me to run out of steam after an enthusiastic start to a blogging year. But this year I have struggled more than usual (for reasons we all know). But rather than waiting till January and a new year, I'm going to
- [Making money from a sex blog](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/27/making-money-from-a-sex-blog/) - Wanking is only two letters away from workingAmy Norton I didn't start this blog to make money from it, which is really just as well. So far in 8 years I've earned £30 for an article and about £9 in royalties from two anthologies. But then again I haven't exactly tried hard. It is perfectly
- [In the morning](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/22/in-the-morning/) - I have always been delighted at the prospect of a new day, a fresh try, one more start, with perhaps a bit of magic waiting somewhere behind the morning. ~ J. B. Priestley Morning sex wasn't a thing for me in my former life. For one thing there wasn't time, plus there was always a
- [Taking your kink into a public place](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/26/taking-your-kink-into-a-public-place/) - I saw the tweet referred to in the No True Way prompt. Someone walking behind another who is leashed and crawling into a supermarket. I have also witnessed something similar in a UK DIY shop. To be frank the act itself doesn't shock me, after all I've seen people being led around on leads. I've
- [Call me Bigfoot](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/25/call-me-bigfoot/) - One of the apartments we stayed in while in France offered numerous photo opportunities. Some of them have appeared here already. The treacherous stairs and the window onto the street offered opportunities that just had to be taken. Just by the window up in the living room, there was a glass panel, designed to help
- [Street view](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/13/street-view/) - A pleasant side effect of the need to rent properties this holiday has been the photo opportunities they have presented. Our current one is an old village house with a room on each floor. The walls are thick and there are only windows to the front. So, it is cool, even on the hottest of
- [On the naughty step](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/27/on-the-naughty-step/) - Naughty step is the title Master, who was the photographer gave this image. As you can see he also provided me with edited versions one of which I'm using today. As it was, I'm pretty sure I wasn't being naughty at all! This was taken while staying in an old French village house. It was
- [A girl with attitude](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/18/a-girl-with-attitude/) - When Master was editing this image, he said he thought I looked pretty bratty. I replied that I had been posing with attitude. I've always had my sassy, attitude laden side and being someone's slave has done nothing to dampen that. Of course, Master has done little to correct it either. He couldn't call me
- [The truth is in the quote](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/17/the-truth-is-in-the-quote/) - “Just living is not enough,” said the butterfly, “one must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.” ― Hans Christian Anderson It's been a lean time here at MPB. I make no excuse for the lack of posts over the past couple of weeks. Firstly we were travelling back through France and then getting back to
- [I found my forever partner in my fifties](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/03/i-found-my-forever-partner-in-my-fifties/) - “We had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.” – Louis de Bernieres. Yesterday I alluded to the fact that this relationship was never meant to be serious. It was meant to be a
- [Guest Editor](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/04/guest-editor/) - October prompt week for Sinful Sunday is about asking someone else to edit your image. Most of my photos are taken by Master, sometimes he edits them and other times I do. So, I decided it might be time for a guest editor. The image was taken just outside a town in the French Pyrenees.
- [Can there be love in a D/s relationship?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/02/can-there-be-love-in-a-d-s-relationship/) - Relationships come in all shapes and sizes and can often be complex things. They are based on knowledge, trust and understanding and by nature they are transactional. Add a power exchange into the mix and it becomes important that both parties know the rules. That is to understand what that means to both parties rather
- [September round up](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/02/september-round-up/) - Welcome to the September round up of Food, Fitness and Health and the For the Health of it meme. I'm not sure how good September has been for my health and fitness. On the one hand I've been in the sun, have swum in the sea and have walked loads. I've also eaten a lot
- [October Prompt: Favourite Recipes](https://aftermpb.com/2020/10/01/october-prompt-favourite-recipes/) - Thank you to everyone who linked up to the September prompt about Self Care. A round up post will follow. Wow! It's 1st October and the seasons are changing again. In the past week we moved from summer to autumn and that has been noticeable even here in France. The temperatures have reduced by 10-15
- [Setting priorities](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/25/setting-priorities/) - The September Erotic Journal prompt is about priorities and how we set them. Brigit has used a great quote from Stephen Covey, someone I've long admired in my leadership readings. The key is not to prioritise what's on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities. September is traditionally a time to rethink priorities in life.
- [Thoughts on kneeling](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/22/thoughts-on-kneeling/) - I've written a few times about kneeling, that well known symbol of submission. There are also a few images of me doing so, including the one above. That one is in a particular context that doesn't happen often. But in this post I wrote about some of the practical issues and believe me they are
- [Not the holiday we expected](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/10/not-the-holiday-we-expected/) - The joys of a holiday in France It's hard to believe that it is almost 2 weeks since we set off on holiday to the south of France and 10 days since we arrived here. We expected the first few days to be busy as we had some home improvement projects planned. But we hadn't
- [Unlearning the habits of a lifetime](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/09/unlearning-the-habits-of-a-lifetime/) - So many things to unlearnThe Other Me This blog pretty much catalogues my attempts, over the past 8 years to unlearn habits that formed over a lifetime. I'm pretty much a people pleaser and I hate conflict. This led me to take on responsibilities for things I would have been better to leave to others.
- [How much control does the submissive have?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/07/how-much-control-does-the-submissive-have/) - Many people say that it is the submissive that has all the power and control in a D/s relationship. After all, the decision to enter the relationship and to agree to comply to certain rules is made by the submissive. Or is it? I can only speak from my own limited experience and these are
- [September Prompt: Selfcare](https://aftermpb.com/2020/09/06/september-prompt-selfcare/) - This prompt was inspired by a tweet and responses from Violet Fawkes asking what people did to provide themselves with selfcare. I decided there and then that this would make a great prompt for the For the Health of it meme. Little did I know how relevant that might be. A week ago we set
- [On the weight loss trail](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/26/on-the-weight-loss-trail/) - It feels as if my mojo for losing weight has gone missing. After my Slimming World weigh in two Friday's ago I really wanted to feel as enthused as others in group. But as I sat there, masked and socially distanced from friends I hadn't seen in real life for months, I felt kind of
- [Lust](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/26/lust/) - That most delicious of feelings. When you encounter (see, hear, meet) someone who absolutely turns you on. When your carnal desire for them means that you just can't wait to kiss them, touch them and have sex with them. During the period just before my menopause I was pretty much aroused all the time. It
- [M/s: Reality or Fantasy?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/23/m-s-reality-or-fantasy/) - “Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope, and that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.” ~ Dr. Seuss My post about following orders got me thinking. Is my life as slave to Master a reality or a fantasy that we
- [My name is MPB and I am an exhibitionist](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/22/my-name-is-mpb-and-i-am-an-exhibitionist/) - I've always been something of an exhibitionist, but until relatively recently it didn't involve me having my photo taken, kickers down in a field. Thank goodness! It was more that I wanted to be the centre of attention. A real, look at me Leo type. It's almost as if I can't help myself. I would
- [Blogging A-Z 2018: X (Exhibitionist)](https://aftermpb.com/2018/04/28/blogging-a-z-2018-x-exhibitionist/) - Ok so exhibitionist doesn't begin with X but it has an X in it so that's fine isn't it? Julie the exhibitionist There is no getting away from it, I love to strip off or to flash my body to Master if the opportunity arises. In the photo below we were on our way out
- [The Joy of Swimming](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/20/the-joy-of-swimming/) - If anyone asked me what I missed most during lockdown I'd have to say it was seeing my son. But that would be closely followed by swimming. Of all forms of exercise I do and have done, swimming is my favourite. So, it is with pleasure that I can say that yesterday I swam for
- [Taking orders from Master](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/20/taking-orders-from-master/) - A submissive shouldn't question a dominant's orders. It's not the submissive's position to know what a dominant's reasons are. They should just do it and trust the dominant with that decision. During our day to day life we don't have the kind of relationship where by Master says jump and I ask him how high.
- [My Food, Fitness and Health Goals](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/18/my-food-fitness-and-health-goals/) - I deliberately chose the topic of goals as this month's For the Health of it topic because I knew it was something I really needed to do. In this post I'm going to separate the goals by those I have for the blog and the more personal ones. The Food, Fitness and Health Blog Goals
- [A website to follow: The Smutlancer](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/17/a-website-to-follow-the-smutlancer/) - For the first time I'm linking to a website that is about becoming a writer (of a blog or any other medium) and improving your skills to such an extent that you can get paid for writing. The Smutlancer is an amazing resource for such writers, whether they are new or experienced. One caveat is
- [Best friends](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/17/best-friends/) - “A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself- and especially to feel, or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at any moment is fine with them. That’s what real love amounts to – letting a person be what he really is.”~ Jim Morrison The ex as a friend My ex wants us to be
- [Lockdown weight](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/14/lockdown-weight/) - I've been monitoring my own weight over the last 5 months since lockdown started. But over time I have been less and less good at keeping to any particular regime of weight management. To begin with things felt bleak, what was the point in keeping up with healthy eating? What's more our alcohol intake increased.
- [Finding sexy stuff to wear](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/13/finding-sexy-stuff-to-wear/) - I won't lie, finding sexy stuff to wear is a challenge. I swear that a person who has had a mastectomy isn't meant to want to wear stuff that makes them feel good. In winter it matters less. Because you can hide the thick strapped bras under layers of other clothes. Come summer though, especially
- [Resetting some goals](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/12/resetting-some-goals/) - In my last post I wrote a bit about the ways in which I've let things slip over the months since the beginning of lockdown. My weight gain isn't massive but it is there. I've only just been able to get back to swimming, which is my preferred exercise (other than walking). So, that had
- [August](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/12/august-2/) - I've been beyond lax with updating this blog. While I started it with immense enthusiasm at the end of last year events have caught up with me. Running two blogs and writing for them both regularly has become something of a chore. Added to which I've not even been following my own health advice. Now,
- [From the darkness to the light](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/11/from-the-darkness-to-the-light/) - Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light. Brene Brown There are so many ways that starting this blog has helped me explore myself more closely and see the positives from some very negative situations. I think that's why I am clear that whatever
- [August: hot days and lustful nights](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/08/august-hot-days-and-lustful-nights/) - To be frank I'm pretty much living my best life right now (well I was before the dreaded lurgy arrived). That's not to say I can't look back at some fabulous halcyon days before this relationship. August has always been a good time for me, it's my birthday don't you know, so I deserve to
- [Birthday treats](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/09/birthday-treats/) - As I mentioned in yesterday's post, this year's birthday provided some unexpected treats. One of the main one's being tied to our hotel bed and used for Master's pleasure. Read about the day and weekend here.
- [TTWD](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/29/ttwd/) - “The thing is that you brought this out in me. How could I want it with anyone else” – JM Storm One of the best ways I know of describing our kinky life is this - The Things We Do (TTWD). I first saw the phrase / abbreviation on other blogs soon after I started blogging and
- [Cheers](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/24/cheers/) - We love hotel rooms where there is the opportunity for a soak in a bath and a glass of something bubbly. Cheers!
- [Electric play](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/25/electric-play/) - Just when I thought I was out of images I've come across one not shown here before. I was taken as the same time as this one in November 2016. Electric play. I don't know how long it is since Master has used his violet wand on me. Reading back to the post linked above,
- [Lace](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/26/lace/) - Of all the new lingerie I have bought or been given recently this lace beauty is my favourite. It is comfortable to wear and has the ability to reveal and hide the parts of my body I want it to. I'm also happy with the way my body is beginning to change shape, though there
- [Fucked on a picnic table](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/27/fucked-on-a-picnic-table/) - This story is loosely based on fact. I really was fucked on a picnic table in the woods while wearing a leather collar and leash. But the rest of it is part of my fantasy of what might have happened that day. Content warning: Consent Non-consent (CNC), Humiliation. A story of being fucked on a
- [Poised](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/28/poised-2/) - Poised for action. I'm at my mum's tonight, though this was from my last visit. Whenever I stay here I wear by dad's dressing gown. It is soft and comfortable and sets me up for the day.
- [Happiness is....](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/29/happiness-is/) - My happiness is complete when I look at him and see this. Without Master in my life none of these February Photofest images would have been possible. Whether because he took them, was in them or inspired them. Thank you. So, that's it folks for another year. Thank you for visiting and commenting. See you
- [Blog changes](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/05/blog-changes/) - I've been thinking of making some changes to the blog for ages and ages. But somehow haven't quite got around to it. As another month stretches ahead of me, with little to keep me occupied, I've bitten the bullet and started. The name At the start my blog was called world of Joolz. This was
- [Fear and Trust](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/05/fear-and-trust/) - This week is Sinful Sunday prompt weak, but I just don't have anything movie related to share. So, I've decided to show an unseen photo and combine it with this week's Quote Quest prompt. “Right on the edge of fear was where trust could grow.”― Cherise Sinclair There's no doubt I've come a long way
- [Back](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/19/back-3/) - Yes, this is a picture of my back, and bottom etc. I'm not sure when it was taken but I quite like the shape of my body in the image. I've been reflecting this week on my blogging future and have found that just by writing about what is troubling me, I feel more positive.
- [Freedom to be me](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/03/freedom-to-be-me/) - “Raise a glass to freedom, Something they can never take away.”~ Lin-Manuel Miranda (“The Story of Tonight” from “Hamilton”) Freedom is a concept I've taken for granted all my adult life. Even when I felt at my most constrained by marriage or parenthood I always knew deep down I had choices. I worked and had
- [Master with a capital M](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/02/master-with-a-capital-m/) - I'm really happy about the No True Way prompt for this week, because I've never written about this topic before. Dominants tend to be the “Alpha Male”, and that is why “Dom” is always spelled with a capital, while “sub” is always lowercase. First of all let me say I am incredibly inconsistent when it
- [A little pink](https://aftermpb.com/2020/08/01/a-little-pink/) - A wooden spoon can be used for lots of things. Making cakes, fixing stuck plugs holes and providing a pink bottom. I don't mark easily, so Master was quick to take a photo of his handy work. I trimmed the image a little and hope it fits in with the August Sinful Sunday prompt. Click
- [Where the power lies](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/29/where-the-power-lies/) - “Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.” ~ Oscar Wilde In this post or semi lockdown world we are struggling in many ways. Not in terms of our overall relationship, all is well there. But in terms of M/s. Most of the time I don't feel particularly submissive or slave
- [The Power](https://aftermpb.com/2017/12/04/the-power/) - Much of our sex happens in the morning. There are age related reasons for this, I think it is called ‘morning glory’. But also tiredness at the end of the day (mostly on my part I must add). The past few weeks have been a little lean on the sex front. Low level illness, tiredness,
- [Self doubt](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/22/self-doubt/) - “And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self doubt.” Sylvia Plaith I never used to have anything in my draft folder. Suddenly though I do. The thing is, I have stuff to
- [A blog to follow: Journey to health with Priya](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/16/a-blog-to-follow-journey-to-health-with-priya/) - It's been a long time since I last recommended a blog to follow. To be honest I've been extremely remiss in posting at all. But I'm going to try to get things moving again here. Priya left a message on my blog a couple of days ago and included the link to her own new
- [What inspires me to write about sex?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/14/what-inspires-me-to-write-about-sex/) - By it's very nature reading and writing about sex can be both liberating and exciting. That if the sex being written about is interesting and exciting. For many years there was no mileage in writing about my own sex life. It was dull, bordering on non existent. But as I wrote in my last post,
- [Finding myself](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/13/finding-myself/) - “Who are you?Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?I have. I am fucking crazy.But I am free.”― Lana Del Rey I started this blog when I was at the beginning of a journey. Funnily enough at the beginning I didn't know
- [All submissives should have a safeword and be prepared to use it.](https://aftermpb.com/2020/07/10/all-submissives-should-have-a-safeword-and-be-prepared-to-use-it/) - Not just submissives, but anyone engaging in BDSM or kink related play and / or sex. As I wrote in this post last year I've had a safeword in both of my D/s and M/s relationships. I believe they are an important aspect of relationships or situations where a power exchange takes or place. Or
- [Elust #124](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/18/elust-124/) - Photo courtesy of Discovering Kink Welcome to Elust 124– The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #125? Start with the rules,
- [#Elust 125](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/21/elust-125/) - Photo courtesy of Focused and Filthy Welcome to Elust 125– The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #125? Start with the
- [Balancing our needs](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/16/balancing-our-needs/) - In her introduction for this week's Sex Bloggers for Mental Health, Catherine links to my post from last week about priorities. As she highlights, I wrote about the need to balance my and our needs with those of others. For this week's prompt Catherine asks: but how? For me, the realisation that a rebalance is
- [Elust #126](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/17/elust-126/) - Thank you Cara for choosing my post An advent diary as one of your picks for this month's Elust! Photo courtesy of May More of Sex Matters Welcome to Elust 126– The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic
- [SoSS 2020 - 2](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/25/soss-2020-2/) - I've written less this week. I've had the time but not the inclination. I guess that's part of the problem with the long month of January, it's easy to run out of steam. But I have instead had time for reading and thinking about what I've read. Floss Liddell has been going through some changes
- [Looking back at 2018](https://aftermpb.com/2018/12/28/looking-back-at-2018/) - This year, more than most I can remember has been a time of immense highs and unbelievable lows. It has also been one of great change. For so long I talked about making those changes and there were many times that I thought they would never happen. This blogging year has also been one of
- [Landmarks in my blogging history](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/30/landmarks-in-my-blogging-history/) - This week's Food For Thought Friday is about Landmarks. It is also a landmark occasion because this is the last theme that the wonderful Kilted Wookie will host, because he is handing the baton to May and Floss. I have participated in F4TF 22 times, plus another twice during it's previous incarnation. Then, it was
- [Elust #123](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/20/elust-123/) - Photo courtesy of Deviant Succubus Welcome to Elust 123– The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #124? Start with the rules,
- [Inspiration and blocks - F4TF](https://aftermpb.com/2018/10/19/inspiration-and-blocks-f4tf/) - I have kept a blog for probably 10 years, and have been writing this one for well over 5. In that time my content has ebbed and flowed. There is nothing like a new relationship or exciting situation to get the creative juices flowing. But at other times, inspiration is difficult to come by. What
- [I am Number 18](https://aftermpb.com/2012/09/05/i-am-number-18/) - The 18th person to become a Cock Worshiping Sub (CWS for short over at Spanky's place Bright Bottom. i have thought of becoming a member for quite a while, because of course i do worship Sir's cock and know that my place during play and in the bedroom is to give Him pleasure. That pleasure
- [For the Health of it - July Prompt:](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/30/for-the-health-of-it-july-prompt/) - My Ideal Dinner Party This year we've been short on opportunities for social occasions. Restaurants have been closed and we've not been able to have people into our homes. Things are gradually changing, but travel is still difficult if not impossible. So, I thought it might be nice to do something a little different this
- [Live in the moment](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/28/live-in-the-moment/) - "Live the actual moment. Only this moment is life".Thich Nhåt Hanh
- [My hopes and fears](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/22/my-hopes-and-fears/) - This has been the weirdest time for everyone. All of the plans that we had for this year are up in the air. I haven't seen my son for over 3 months and have had to use frailty exemptions to see my mum. Our lives are not usually spent at home but right now we
- [Endings and Beginnings](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/22/endings-and-beginnings/) - “There will come a time when you believe everything is finished; that will be the beginning.” – Louis L’Amour What a fabulous idea for a meme. The lovely LSB has launched Quote Quest and this is the very first quote. Endings I guess the trouble with endings is that you can't always work out when
- [Absence of productivity](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/21/absence-of-productivity/) - My Food, Fitness and Health mojo has been absent. I'm struggling to keep focused on my goals and so days go by without writing. Here or on my other blog. But it's time to work out what's wrong and get back on track. Yesterday I was pointed towards this Youtube video. It really spoke to
- [The collar is never off](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/21/the-collar-is-never-off/) - Two new memes started this week. Quote Quest run by Little Switch Bitch (I plan to write for that in my next post) and No True Way, run by Lillith Avir. The first prompt for Lillith's meme is: Whether worn or not, the collar is never off. Master gave me my collar in July 2015.
- [Encouraging growth](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/20/encouraging-growth/) - This photo was taken a few weeks ago when my tomato plants were tiny. They are probably 5 times the size now and just about to flower. I know a lot of us are struggling with inspiration and purpose right now. 12 or more weeks into lock down we wonder what the point is. How
- [On the stairs](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/16/on-the-stairs-2/) - This is the first in a series of posts over the coming days and weeks. I plan to use some older images to participate in the Scavenger Hunt. (The photography meme is now owned and run by Sub bee). It will give me the chance to revisit some fun times and to show off my
- [Washing and Grooming](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/15/washing-and-grooming/) - This last fortnight's Kink of the Week topic has been washing and grooming. I've always found being in the bath or shower together to be a very intimate experience. We take a bath together reasonably often, but this usually involves sitting at opposite ends. During those times we tend to soak, relax and chat. Sometimes
- [Navigating the new normal](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/15/navigating-the-new-normal/) - It feels like time to call our current situation the new normal. After all this is probably how our life will be for a while. But that doesn't mean I have to like it, nor how angry everyone is about our current world. It isn't that anything has specifically changed. Ok, so we didn't have
- [Revising my goals for 2020](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/09/revising-my-goals-for-2020/) - Well this year has turned out a little different than expected. When I posted my goals for the year on 31st December and 1st January none of us knew what was in store for us. But since the only certainty right now is not knowing how long things will be different it's time to review
- [A strange week](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/07/a-strange-week-2/) - I deliberately decided not to post Every Damn Day in June (that is not every day). But didn't mean to leave gaps of 3 days. Hence a post today even though there's already been a Sinful Sunday. But this week has been strange. Work For a start I imagined I'd be doing the contract tracing
- [Indecent](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/07/indecent/)
- [Truth](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/03/truth/) - “I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?” John Lennon It's often difficult to establish fact from fiction, sometimes that matters and sometimes it doesn't.
- [Hopes and Fears](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/02/hopes-and-fears/) - I started this blog with great enthusiasm. 2020 was to be the year I lost weight, did fun things all summer and then had breast reconstruction surgery in the autumn. My weight is stable and I am only a few pounds heavier than I was in March. But I should be a stone lighter by
- [The retreat](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/02/the-retreat/) - This story is dedicated to @sexblogofsorts who recently challenged me to write something inspired by this photo. A recent feature of our relationship is that he books up our trips away. I've found this difficult to let used to. I like to control where I'm going, how I travel and what I do when I
- [Let's get this show back on the road](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/01/lets-get-this-show-back-on-the-road/) - May turned into my leanest month for blogging since July last year. My excuse then was that I was on holiday, often without wifi. This year, things are different. I have wifi, I have moved blogging hosts and my blog isn't constantly down. But what I don't really have is inspiration. Nor do I have
- [Elust #130](https://aftermpb.com/2020/06/01/elust-130/) - The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #131? Start with the rules, come back June 1st to submit something and subscribe
- [Behind the fallen tree](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/31/behind-the-fallen-tree/) - We've been fortunate that the weather has been good here recently, but until now have restricted our walks to places we don't need to drive to. Last weekend we were at last able to get out and about and enjoy the sunny weather. We drove to a nearby beauty spot and had a lovely picnic.
- [Into Summer](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/28/into-summer/) - This has been the strangest of springs. After a wet but mild winter the weather has been pretty glorious. Just a few wet and windy days, but otherwise warm and sunny. Given that we have been in lockdown since late March it was just as well. Queuing in a supermarket car park is no joke
- [Feeling perky](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/24/feeling-perky/) - During a Smutlancer chat yesterday we talked about how to get back on track with blogging sexy and erotic things. I agreed with Molly and others that maybe more photography would be a good start. I have a new phone tripod and intend to give it some use this week. Meanwhile here's something I took
- [Statistics](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/20/statistics/) - As the saying goes, there are three kinds of lies: lies, damned lies and statistics. The quote was attributed to Mark Twain and apparently spoken by Benjamin Disraeli (a 19th century Prime Minister). Though as you can see here, the phrase has quite a history. But, I digress. This week's Wicked Wednesday prompt is about
- [My Blogging Mojo has disappeared](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/18/my-blogging-mojo-has-disappeared/) - For the first time in forever I didn't post a Sinful Sunday image. Not because I didn't have one, but because I just couldn't be bothered. I was offered the opportunity to join our Smutlancer productiveness group for a Zoom call yesterday afternoon, I turned that down too. Instead I decided some of my never
- [A love of lists](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/13/a-love-of-lists/) - There was a time when there was no need of lists. I retained all the information I needed in my head. It's only in recent years that I've had the need to write my lists down. Well, that's what I thought. But closer reflection tells me that's not quite true. I always had a calendar
- [Being this girl](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/12/being-this-girl/) - In many ways being this girl is like being someone else. Someone that exists only to be his and to serve. That was likely the purpose of the exercise, as described in this post. Julie was (and is) a strong minded individual. Caring, loving and devoted to loved ones. Hard working and tenacious. All useful
- [Arousal](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/10/arousal/) - #NSFW Recently it's been difficult to show a positive view of arousal after 50. Not just difficult to see but also to achieve. It is challenging to accept that your body is ageing and that it fails to respond as it once did. Then sometimes something miraculous occurs.Suddenly your partner makes you aroused in a
- [Love and life right now](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/08/love-and-life-right-now/) - Deep down I knew that the Coronavirus lockdown would last for months rather than weeks. But that doesn't mean to say that I was emotionally prepared for it. Back in those early days at the end of March we were busy with home projects. During much of April we had good weather so eating lunch
- [Sexual Service](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/02/sexual-service/) - I am a sex slave. My role to Master is to provide him with sexual service when he requires it. But also to be ready for him to use me when he wishes. This post is a work of fiction based on a limited amount of reality but mostly reading, fiction and non fiction. My
- [Half moon / Full moon](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/02/half-moon-full-moon/) - After almost a week of cloud and rain, today has been beautiful. Not as warm as previously but gloriously sunny. So, we took a walk this afternoon and Master encountered these sights. A half moon complimented by a full moon.
- [The Changing Seasons](https://aftermpb.com/2020/05/01/the-changing-seasons/) - This month's For the Health of it Prompt is: The Changing Seasons It is spring here in the Northern Hemisphere and with it comes longer days and (hopefully) warmer weather. Around me the trees have blossomed and now have lots of leaves on them. The birds are singing as they build nests and care for
- [In the Zone](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/30/in-the-zone-2/) - This has been my fourth year of Blogging A-Z and once again it has been difficult to keep on track. At least this year I am finishing on the right day. For once I've managed to stay in the zone most of the way through. Unfortunately I lost momentum on Food, Fitness and Health and
- [Years](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/29/years/) - There are no categories or tags beginning with Y. It occurs to me I might not be labelling posts all that well. Something perhaps to rectify. For today's post I have decided to recap on this week through the years from 2012 until this week to see how my life has changed. 2012 This week
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge: V&W](https://aftermpb.com/2017/04/30/blogging-a-z-challenge-vw-mpb-masters-pleasing-bitchmpb-masters-pleasing-bitch/) - It was all going so well. Catching up on the 30 day challenge wasn’t a problem when I was just a day behind. Then leading up to T and U I got myself ahead. I had every intention of continuing in this vein, but work and my social life took over so. Now as
- [X is for......](https://aftermpb.com/2016/04/28/x-is-for/) - Wow, what words begin with X? I know many people are being creative with this letter of the alphabet and perhaps I am too. But in a different way. X is for Xanadu and for X rated. As far as I knew Xanadu was a song by Olivia Newton John and ELO that I remember
- [Xeronisus](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/28/xeronisus/) - There are no categories beginning with X on my blog. So I went over to Kinkly to find a word to use and so my new category beginning with X is Xeronisus. It means a person who is unable to orgasm at all. Apparently it is a relatively common condition, more common in females. Those
- [I'd never be a cougar](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/28/id-never-be-a-cougar/) - The only three categories beginning with W are Women's rights, Work and Wicked Wednesday. Guess which one this post will be categorised under for the 110th time. This week's Wicked Wednesday prompt is Cougar. Definition: Large American cat (see above) or an older woman seeking a sexual relationship with a younger man. In this post
- [Used and Vanilla Family Life](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/27/used-and-vanilla-family-life/) - I'm behind with the Blogging A-Z but determined to catch up and finish. So, I'm covering another two topics today. These are really polar opposites to each other. There are just two categories on my blog beginning with U, the other being Underwear. Vanilla Family Life is the only one beginning with V. Used This
- [In the dungeon](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/26/in-the-dungeon/) - This is another of the photos taken when we stayed at the Hoxton Dungeon in March. It hardly seems possible that March was still only last month. April certainly seems to have been the longest month in living memory. Anyway, this provides a view from a fun over night stay. A wonderful session of impact
- [Relaunch](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/26/relaunch/) - For various reasons I've not been able to give this blog and the For the Health of it Meme my attention. So I am planning to relaunch the meme on 1st May and to run it monthly. Over the next few days I'll catch up on blogging here and revamping the prompt page etc. Thank
- [Sex](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/25/sex/) - A theme running through this whole blog is sex. The whole purpose of starting the blog in the first place was to catalogue my journey in both sex and submission. Back in 2012 I had only had intercourse with one man and had never experienced anal sex. I masturbated a lot, but was rarely satisfied.
- [Relationships](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/23/relationships-4/) - How apt to reach this stage right now. My relationships feature prominently on this blog and have since the beginning. A thread from the beginning was my relationship with my then husband. Over a long period of time I sought to work out how I felt about him and how to manage the fallout from
- [Lockdown](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/21/lockdown/) - For the last month we and much of the world has been in a state of lockdown. Of course countries like Italy and Spain were already a few weeks in when we joined this phenomena. For us, we are to stay home unless going out is essential. That means those people whose jobs that can't
- [Question memes](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/21/question-memes/) - Back in 2012 and 2013 there were great periods of time when I had little to write about. Having embarked upon an illicit affair with someone living 100 miles away, we weren't able to see each other often. So, in the absence of excitement in my life and to avoid dull writing I joined in
- [An Opinion on recent events in the Sex Blogging world](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/18/an-opinion-on-recent-events-in-the-sex-blogging-world/) - #SoSS Shitstorm special - Looking at the wider issues. 20/4/20 - I reserve the right to publish or not comments on my blog. I also reserve the right to reply or not. We are living in strange times. People's anxiety is at record levels, and that includes those who don't usually describe themselves as anxious.
- [Psychology](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/20/psychology-2/) - I have 3 general categories for posts that are about me and how I tick, or a specifically about the more internal aspects of our dynamic. The psychology of me, of D/s and M/s. Posts in the D/s category are mainly from my time with Steve and the first few months with Master. Usually those
- [Small Luxuries](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/19/small-luxuries/) - During these difficult times we have to make the most of small luxuries like taking a bath together. As you can see from this, I'm feeling pretty chilled and ready to climb into bed and sleep. If I remember rightly I slept very well that night, which isn't always the case. Moments like these will,
- [Nipple (singular)](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/16/nipple-singular/) - I hadn't expected that the only two categories beginning with N would involve the word nipple(s). But since that's what it is, I feel compelled to write about it. Things in the nipple department feel a lot different now I only have the one. I'm not in love with my remaining boob in the way
- [Being kind to yourself](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/15/being-kind-to-yourself/) - At the start of the Covid-19 lockdown I imagined myself getting so much done. Decorating, cleaning, writing and finishing off my 5 year old cross stitch, to name a few. We started well with the decorating, finishing off painting in the living room and moving to the hall. But we've since come to a halt.
- [Me and My Life](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/15/me-and-my-life/) - My world and therefore life has become smaller of late. Manly revolving around what happens here in my own home environment. A place the two of us inhabit. The world outside us and our bubble is something of an unknown quantity. We see people pass by, but we don't really interact with them. I communicate
- [Books of my childhood](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/05/books-of-my-childhood/) - I loved reading as a child and still do. I bought books with my pocket money and borrowed them from the library. At Christmas I often received a book or two from various aunts and uncles as well as grandparents. They usually wrote inside the cover so that you knew they had bought them for
- [Virtual Journey](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/13/virtual-journey/) - My weight loss journey has come to a grinding halt. I just don't seem to be able to get back properly on track. But it isn't all bad, while I haven't lost weight in a month, I haven't put any on either. Slimming World have gone virtual, and I've discovered the joy of Zoom. Each
- [Kinky](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/13/kinky-2/) - How do you know if you are kinky? How do you know that your needs are not vanilla? I guess you don't unless you discover kink. Which around 8 years ago, I did. My first experience of anal sex happened on my very first night with S. It was planned, because I'd been getting ready
- [Go to Websites / Resources for Food, Fitness and Health](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/12/go-to-websites-resources-for-food-fitness-and-health/) - I have a feature on this blog for websites that provide advice and support on eating well and keeping healthy. Over the past few weeks I've pulled back from promoting new ones. Mainly because I've had other things on my mind. It's been enough of a struggle to keep posting anything at all. This meme
- [The beauty of touch](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/12/the-beauty-of-touch/) - I know I'm lucky that I have some one to touch and be touched by. Right now there are too many people unable to see and touch their loved ones. Of an evening we often sit at either end of the same sofa and I rest my feet on his lap. I didn't always like
- [My Journal](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/11/my-journal/) - Other than January Jumpstart, Journal is the only category beginning with J. I started this blog in April 2012 (apologies for my mistake in previously saying I was coming up to 9 years, it's 8). I started the blog to journal my progress from dull married housewife to exciting submissive. Though I didn't really know
- [Inspiring](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/11/inspiring/) - A break from my own categories for this post on Inspiring relatives for Food 4 Thought. The person from my own family who has inspired me the most is my nan. My maternal grandmother was born in 1920 to a mining family in the north east of England. One of 9 children, they had very
- [Blogging A-Z: Isolation](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/11/blogging-a-z-isolation/) - Around the world people are living in a state of what has been termed 'social' isolation. For us, that means the two of us living here in a nice house with a garden. We are able to go out for shopping and to take a walk. We aren't able to socialise with others, which is
- [Blogging A-Z: Holidays](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/11/blogging-a-z-holidays/) - I'm behind. A busy day followed by a lazy one and I am behind. Will endeavour to catch up today and tomorrow. This H is also posted on my other blog. Over the past few years I have come to expect not just one holiday a year, but several. Added to which there have been
- [Holidays](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/10/holidays/) - Over the past few years I have come to expect not just one holiday a year, but several. Added to which there have been lots of weekends away. Right now, we should be on holiday in France. But of course, because of closed borders and lack of access to anywhere outside of the house we
- [Blogging A-Z: Greens](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/08/blogging-a-z-greens/) - I'm quite a lover of foods that are green. So, have no problem in eating my greens as it were. Particular favourites are cabbage (including spring green), leeks and broccoli. I love to cook cabbage and leeks together and also to mash them into potato. Spinach too is great, mixed with ricotta in pasta or
- [This girl - speaking in the third person](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/08/this-girl-speaking-in-the-third-person/) - It was a way of getting me to settle into my new role, as His submissive. Very soon after we got together, Master asked me to use the third person when referring to myself. At first I thought he was joking. But, no he wasn't. He suggested I use one of the following: this one
- [Blogging A-Z: Fit and Healthy](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/07/blogging-a-z-fit-and-healthy/) - Or: Staying Fit and Healthy when at home This is the topic for this week's For the Health of it Meme. Chosen because all around the world people are having to stay at home and I can guarantee many are anxious about their health. Of course people are worried about developing coronavirus. It seems to
- [Forced to orgasm](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/07/forced-to-orgasm/) - So much is written about denial. Not being allowed to come is a major part of many D/s dynamics. The need that exists within in the person being denied, and being edged and then denied again. Being forced to orgasm several or even many times is quite something too. Both are about power and control.
- [Exhibited for his pleasure](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/06/exhibited-for-his-pleasure/) - The harness served to frame my upper body. Under my arms and around my tits, before fastening at the back. My nipples tingled, held tightly within bejewelled shields stood hard and proud. The collar, attached to the harness was wide, and quite tight. This meant I could only look ahead of me, my field of
- [Blogging A-Z: Exercise](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/06/blogging-a-z-exercise/) - When it comes to exercise, I am not a natural. Style and coordination don't come easily either. I've never been a runner, I hated having to run when I was at school and I'm hardly going to start doing it now I'm in my 50's. But I do like to keep fit and healthy and
- [Happy birthday to you](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/04/happy-birthday-to-you/) - Like for most (if not everyone) this has been another week of crap. But I do feel for my own Birthday Boy Master more than myself and most. This week was his birthday. A special, landmark kind of birthday. Now he isn't one for parties or making a fuss. But he decided (after much consideration)
- [Blogging A-Z: Decision](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/04/blogging-a-z-decision/) - Veering off the food related words of the past 3 days, this is a journal type post. How is it that we make a decision on Monday, or late at night or any morning to eat and drink only healthy stuff. Then within hours are doing something the complete opposite. The problem 3 weeks ago,
- [The need for dominance](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/04/the-need-for-dominance/) - I thought I liked to be in charge. To have the final say, to get my own way. Well I do, but only up to a point. As an older sister I was bossy, and sometimes a bit domineering. So much so that one of my brothers bought me a post card of Adolf Hitler
- [Wearing His Collar](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/03/wearing-his-collar/) - Collars are such a huge symbol in the kink community. Attend any munch or kink event and you will see many people of all genders wearing them. In that context, a collar doesn't necessarily denote that a person is submissive. But, that they consider themselves part of a community or lifestyle. Collars come in all
- [Blogging A-Z: Calories](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/03/blogging-a-z-calories/) - Calories in and calories out. That's the age old advice of nutritionists. It's still the advice we're given in the UK. It seems sensible that since a calorie is a measure of energy that goes into the body, it needs to be equal or less than energy used. But are all calories the same? This
- [Blogging A-Z: Bread](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/02/blogging-a-z-bread/) - After yesterday's post on Avocados, we move onto B. I have to admit that I haven't planned this out well. But intend to mix up food, fitness and health topics. Today's topic is Bread. I've long known that too much bread makes me feel.full and bloated. Add bread to other carbohydrate rich food like pasta,
- [She wore a butt plug](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/02/she-wore-a-butt-plug/) - Day 2 of Blogging A-Z 2020 and today's word is Butt Plug. I've written many times about wearing a plug, though only ticked it as a category 8 times. Maybe because it's often linked with anal sex. Anyway, it's been too long since I wrote any fiction, something I regret. So here goes. She knew
- [This girl and the plug](https://aftermpb.com/2016/03/02/this-girl-and-the-plug/) - When things between Master and this girl were becoming a little more serious, in the summer of 2014 He introduced a contract. He had noted a few thoughts down on paper (He is a man of lists, so it probably was on paper) while He was visiting His then slave. Perhaps the fact He made
- [Out of the Blue](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/01/out-of-the-blue-2/) - Images from out balcony last week. I decided on the title for this post for the Wicked Wednesday prompt Blue because it's the name of a record I own. Written and recorded by the Electric Light Orchestra in 1977 it was one of their most successful albums. It has the bonus of being a double
- [Blogging A-Z 2020 - My Archives](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/01/blogging-a-z-2020-my-archives/) - The Blogging A-Z for April is back. I think I remember saying last year that 2019 would be my last time, that 4 times is enough. But as they say, never say never and since we are living in strange times I am back for year 5. This year's theme will be My Archives. And,
- [Blogging A-Z Avocados](https://aftermpb.com/2020/04/01/blogging-a-z-avocados/) - I've participated in the Blogging A-Z four times previously on my other (NSFW) blog. And am doing so again this year. But I thought it would be fun to also participate here. This may turn into a mad and rash act. But here goes. For day 1 I'm talking about avocados. I have loved eating
- [The joy of fiction](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/30/the-joy-of-fiction/) - I've always loved books and reading and in particular fiction. For many years non fiction has tended to relate to work and study or travel. So it has been fictional story telling that has grabbed my imagination and taken me to different times and places. I wrote recently about my childhood favourites, so this post
- [Keeping fit and healthy when staying at home](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/29/keeping-fit-and-healthy-when-staying-at-home/) - Who could have predicted that Eating Out would become something we were no longer allowed to do. Between the date I published my prompt post (8th March) and the expected close date two weeks later all restaurants and bars in the UK closed. We had followed Italy, France, Spain and many other countries into lockdown.
- [Relaxed](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/28/relaxed/) - It's been difficult to relax lately. So we have rediscovered our lovely jacuzzi bath. Here, I am relaxing and waiting for Master to join me.
- [Spirituality](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/28/spirituality/) - To me spirituality is an idea that there is something more than me and us. That we are here for a purpose and after we die something of us remains somewhere. I've always wanted to believe that the soul and spirit live on. But I have no real evidence and being a science based individual
- [Respect](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/26/respect/) - Showing respect to others is important, but it has to be earned rather than assumed. During my childhood I remember the saying: respect your elders. But what if those elders don't conduct themselves in a way that is kind or respectful to you as a child or other adults. As a nurse, my early adult
- [Elust #128](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/25/elust-128/) - Elust 128 Photo courtesy of Rebel's Notes Welcome to Elust 128- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #129? Start with
- [Hugging](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/24/hugging/) - Apparently I wasn't the kind of child who liked to be cuddled or hugged. Having two younger brother helped because there are usually only so many hugs to go around. Unless of course you are at a party with lots of aunts. Both my parents were only children, but my nan had 9 brothers and
- [Life is a rollercoaster](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/24/life-is-a-rollercoaster/) - Can it be just two weeks ago that I was preparing for Eroticon and working hard to lose an extra couple of pounds? That Friday, even though I knew by then it was cancelled, I received my 1 stone award at Slimming World. That Friday we were still free to go to London, stay in
- [Following my instincts](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/22/following-my-instincts/) - For as long as I can remember I wanted to take care of people. My family and then a much wider group. I went into nursing to care. But found it harder than I expected. Over time I became fatigued by caring. Perhaps because of my nature I took on too much, inviting everyone's problems
- [Hoxton Dungeon, a review](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/21/hoxton-dungeon-a-review/) - I hadn't intended to combine the review of our visit to the Hoxton Dungeon with my Sinful Sunday post for the week. But given the events of this week and my lack of posts, plus the photographic evidence in hand, I thought: why not? Other dungeon related posts can be found here. Some background to
- [Shaping up](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/19/shaping-up/) - I have to admit to being quite pleased with the way that my body shape is beginning to change. Also that I can now wear some of my smaller panties. Like this leopard print style ones. This serves as a useful reminder before I completely throw my lifestyle changes out of the window. This last
- [Eating out](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/18/eating-out/) - We eat out a lot. Eating in restaurants has been part of our life since the beginning of our relationship 6 years ago. Before that, in my previous relationship, eating out was something mainly restricted to special occasions or when we were away. Not to say that there weren't other occasions. But our social life
- [Perseverance](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/18/perseverance/) - When does perseverance become stubbornness? That's the question I ask myself as I write this post. My last post was about sport and the fact that while I'm in no way sporty I do at least persevere with it. Even when I don't really enjoy it. Because sometimes we do things because they do us
- [Cheeky](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/15/cheeky-2/) - Well, the weekend hasn't turned out quite as expected. London is less busy then usual, the hotel quiet. But things are still open and people going about their business. This might be the last opportunity for cheeky fun we have for a while. But when staying in a hotel overlooking something very cheeky, one has
- [Sporty?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/15/sporty/) - I have never been in any way sporty, I am clumsy with poor coordination. Those things rarely help you play sport well. But I'm nothing if not a trier and so have attempted most things. Childhood I wasn't good at ball sport, though played netball, hockey and tennis at school because it was required. No
- [Valuable lessons in smoothing the curves](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/12/valuable-lessons-in-smoothing-the-curves/) - Its now over 3 months since I started intermittent fasting to lose weight and get slimmer. I love my curves (to an extent) but want them to be smoother. I'd rather a curve than a roll. I want to fit my summer clothes this year. And, I need to lose weight for surgery. There's no
- [Curves](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/10/curves/) - I am very curvy. I have curves in places I like, but also in places I don't. For years I hated the sight of my body and would only look at it in a mirror that I found flattering. I also avoided the camera. This was helped along by the fact I always seemed to
- [Eroticon 2020 Meet and Greet](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/09/eroticon-2020-meet-and-greet/) - What is the best book you have read in the last 12 months? My favourite books from the past year are a trilogy (no I couldn't choose one). Not my usual reading material but, A Discovery of Witches and the rest of the All Souls trilogy was just the best thing I've read in a
- [For the Health of it #2 - Eating Out](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/08/for-the-health-of-it-2-eating-out/) - Thank you to everyone who linked up to For the Health of it #1 - Physical Health. There were 8 link ups, including 2 from May More. Posts provided insights into the ways in which people are able to be and stay healthy. Including in the face of some difficult challenges including chronic illness and
- [Glass](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/07/glass/) - This glass dildo is just wonderful. Cool and smooth I love the feel of it as it slides into my cunt. Just a beautiful thing.
- [Dating](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/05/dating/) - When I saw this F4T prompt about dating and dates I wondered what on earth I could write. In fact, I wondered if I've ever even been on one. I guess of course it depends on your definition of what a date is. It's also because I never called going out, seeing someone, dating. But
- [Keep believing](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/04/keep-believing/) - This week's Wicked Wednesday prompt is: Don't Stop Believin. But, because I'm such a positive person, I've decided my post will be entitled Keep Believing. I love our community and the way is sticks together and supports each other. Of course we are all different, from our relationships, gender and sexual preferences politics and our
- [Yesterday](https://aftermpb.com/2014/04/02/yesterday/) - i have rarely had such a difficult day to deal with. But it is over now, and i can look back on it. There is no guarantee that these kinds of stresses won't happen again, but i guess there is more chance that you can cope if they have happened before. Previous episodes of sub
- [A little light spanking](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/01/a-little-light-spanking/) - One of the joys of Sunday morning is a long lie in with Master and the attention he likes to give me. This morning that involved a little light spanking, as well as some delicious sex. He told me at the time and again after he sent me this image that I have a rather
- [Slow and steady](https://aftermpb.com/2020/03/01/slow-and-steady/) - After I texted G with news of my latest weight loss, hw replied with "Slow and steady" So, it is. Just another half a pound this week. so just 1.5lb this month and a total of 13lb. Just one pound to the first stone. But, that isn't the whole story. Even though the scales haven't
- [My physical health](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/25/my-physical-health/) - I've never been skinny or exercised excessively, but I always considered myself healthy. Throughout my adult life I've tried to eat reasonably healthily and to do enough exercise. I was brought up to make food from scratch and eat takeaways as a treat.In my 20's and 30's I went to keep fit, but hated the
- [A website to follow: Delish](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/24/a-website-to-follow-delish/) - Delish is a magazine style website contains all kinds of useful information. Recipes, food and other news. The UK site concentrates on food and drink, including cocktail recipes and restaurant reviews. The US site on the other hand has more to offer. Including trends, jewellery, entertainment and other news. I'm assuming that the US site
- [Co-dependent](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/24/co-dependent/) - I never thought I'd want to be dependent on another person. When my marriage was ending I was adamant I wanted to be independent and to live alone if that was required. I like my own space and at the time I had a well paid job and was exploring what being single could mean.
- [For the Health of it](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/23/for-the-health-of-it/) - There's a new meme in town. Not sex, kink or relationship focused. But health related. I started my new blog, Food, Fitness and Health in November 2019 and now I am launching a meme. Full details are available here. It goes live at midnight tonight. The first prompt is Physical Health. I'll be writing about
- [For the Health of it #1 - Physical Health](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/23/for-the-health-of-it-1-physical-health/) - Welcome to the first prompt post of my brand new meme here on Food, Fitness and Health. I've decided to keep the first few prompts broad so that they give the opportunity for writers to approach them from any direction they wish. Also, it will, I think allow me to use some of those topics
- [Lazy Sunday Morning](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/23/lazy-sunday-morning/) - I'm out of new and original photos for February Photofest. So, some effort will be required to generate the 6 photos needed to make it to the finish line. Make that 5, because I snapped this image of myself enjoying my lazy Sunday morning in bed.
- [Toxic](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/22/toxic/) - My mum is 80, she has surpassed expectations in living as long as she has. Including her own. She has a number of health problems, including type 2 diabetes. She smokes and eats cakes (a lot of cake) and chocolate. But as far as she is concerned, she is 80 and lives alone so everyone
- [SoSS 2020 # 4 - Favourite February photos](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/22/soss-2020-4-favourite-february-photos/) - This week I'm sharing some of my favourite photos from this month's February Photofest. I am in total awe of the amount of work that fellow bloggers put into this annual event. Which I'm sure you know is run by the fabulous Molly Moore. Every year I say I'm going to plan and to create
- [Comfort](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/21/comfort/) - Sometimes only comfort will do. Lacy and sexy is great. A thong excites and tantalises. But for a regular week day, under jeans, I go for comfort.
- [Moving on down](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/21/moving-on-down/) - Slowly. But the scales are definitely definitely moving down. Just half a pound off this week. But given the weekend of excess I had last week this is a good result. Checking my 'journey' I can see this is my lowest weight for around 2.5 years. My BMI which was 33 when I was weighed
- [Aired](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/20/aired/) - Don't you long for the summer when underwear is optional? I'm certainly looking forward to a time when I can get my cut aired. Wear a dress and leave off the knickers. Also, I am hoping that this dress will fit in the summer, because this is from two summers ago. Almost a stone down,
- [With the benefit of hindsight](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/20/with-the-benefit-of-hindsight/) - You know, hindsight is a wonderful thing. If we could see our future selves we would probably do many things differently. Make decisions that didn't take us down a fateful path. Or maybe we would. Perhaps that is what human nature is all about; learning by our mistakes. I suggested the prompt regrets / benefit
- [For the Health of it Prompts](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/19/for-the-health-of-it-prompts/) - Updated: 01 May 2020 I have decided to change the The Food, Health and Fitness meme to monthly: Starting today Friday 01 May 2020. The link opens at 13.00 (UK time) and will stay open until Sunday 31st May at 12..00. Dates and prompts are subject to change. The prompts are as follows: Physical Health
- [Countdown to the start of: For the Health of it](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/19/countdown-to-the-start-of-for-the-health-of-it/) - On Monday 24th February my new Meme: for the Health of it goes live. As mentioned last week, the first topic is Physical Health. These are some questions you might ask yourself to help decide what to write about. What do you do to stay / get healthy?Is it just about diet?Or is a combination
- [Showing some leg](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/19/showing-some-leg/) - There was a time in my life that I owned many pairs of stockings. Sheer, lined, fancy patterns, fishnets. In 2012 got myself involved with a man who had something of a fetish for stockings, preferably attached to suspenders. He loved me to show my legs and much more. He also liked me in heels
- [Legs](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/26/legs/) - While hooked up in the play swing last night I took a few photos. These are not the best of the bunch but I am saving those for February Photofest. I played with the Prisma editing app on my phone and these show that even under exposed photos of my legs can come out looking
- [Elust #127](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/18/elust-127/) - Photo courtesy of Submissy Welcome to Elust 127- The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you're looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it'll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #128? Start with the rules, come
- [A glimpse](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/18/a-glimpse-2/)
- [Outtake](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/17/outtake/) - More material for this years February Photofest is needed. So I turn to the outtakes. This one was part of a set of selfies for Violet's Fawke's meme Lingerie is for Everyone. Not so flattering or such a good image as the others I submitted but still a lovely view of my newest lingerie set.
- [Processed food](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/17/processed-food/) - Last week I came across this (rather long) article in the Guardian about processed food. Much of it is about the things we know or are now learning about the western diet. The food that is most accessible contains hidden sugars and processed carbohydrates and make us want more of it. Ultimately that food contributes
- [Turning things around](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/16/turning-things-around/) - I won't deny that I was disappointed with last week's weigh in. But mostly with myself for allowing old habits to creep in. This week though was somewhat different. My weigh in on Friday showed a 1.5lb loss bringing the total to 12lb. I'm definitely not out of the woods though. Weekends are still an
- [Posed](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/16/posed/) - This is from a set of photos I took with camera and tripod for a previous February Photofest but never used. There is something quite strong and powerful in this highly posed image.
- [A letter filled with love](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/16/a-letter-filled-with-love/) - I always struggle this week of the year. The week of your birthday. You would think that I'd be over it all, after all you are 29 now. But somehow the trauma of a difficult pregnancy and then the joy of your arrival has become intertwined with the sense of betrayal I experienced from your
- [Relaxed and ready](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/15/relaxed-and-ready/)
- [Exposed on St Valentine's](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/14/exposed-on-st-valentines/) - What could be more romantic?
- [In Leather](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/13/in-leather/) - Searching for a Throwback Thursday photo that also features lingerie I came upon this. Photos like this make me both happy and sad. Happy because I had a fabulous pair of tits and loves to show them off. Happy too because Master buys me some brilliant things. This leather bra is no exception to that.
- [Key ring](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/12/key-ring/) - A slightly different version of this image appeared just after Christmas. For this exposed photo I am a human key ring.
- [Romance](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/11/romance/) - I wouldn't say I am unromantic, in fact I love a little romance, but I'm not a big fan of St Valentines day. Partly that is because it is over commercialised, in a similar way to Christmas and Halloween. Flowers cost twice as much, restaurants are overbooked and over priced. Plus, in the main the
- [Alcove](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/11/alcove/) - Today I continue this week's #FebruaryPhotofest theme - Exposing Myself. This photo was taken in one of the many castles we visited on holiday last year. I'm not sure what this alcove was originally used for, but it makes a useful place for a bare bottom opportunity.
- [For the Health of it](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/11/for-the-health-of-it-2/) - Welcome to For the Health of it When I decided to start a new blog about food, fitness and health I was keen to involve others. Writing about my own weight loss and fitness journey is fine and finding resources to share is great. But there are many people out there doing the same thing.
- [Exposing myself](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/10/exposing-myself-2/) - This week's February PhotoFest images will have the theme of exposing myself. This doesn't mean I randomly go around showing my bottom, cunt or boobs off to just anyone. These were all specifically taken to expose myself to Master. I hope you'll enjoy them. This first one was taken on the balcony of my apartment
- [Exposing myself](https://aftermpb.com/2015/02/09/exposing-myself/) - Over the past week I have posted some very personal photos which in turn reveal intimate details of my life with Master in a way that words don't. I think that my ability to do that comes from the fact that I am happy with the relationship I have with Master right now and that
- [Self control](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/09/self-control/) - In so many ways I am good at exercising self control. I'm good at lists and planning and sometimes I can even stick to the plan. I don't get easily annoyed, well not these days because it feels less necessary. I can also stick to a diet plan, avoid sweet things and alcohol until I
- [Green Thai Curry](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/08/green-thai-curry/) - Not my photo (from pixabay) because I forgot to take one when I made it this week! This recipe for Green Thai Curry is one I got from Jamie Oliver's 30 minute meals and have used and adapted over the years. You can have it with chicken or other meat, vegetables or fish / shell
- [A blip](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/08/a-blip/) - Yesterday, the scales went up and not down. It was only a one pound gain and my first since December. It was disappointing but I do know where it came from. Gradually I've been reintroducing wine at dinner during the week. I'm quite annoyed at myself since last week I managed to eat out and
- [SoSS 2020 - 3](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/08/soss-2020-3/) - So, we're already a week through February and so far so good with my fortnightly #SoSS posts! My reading this last couple of weeks has been varied and there have also been the February Photofest posts to keep up with. I'll devote the #SoSS to them - there will be some fabulous ones to choose
- [Being proud of who we are](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/07/being-proud-of-who-we-are/) - I spent much of my adult life fretting that things hadn't turned out how I wanted them to be. Trouble was, I didn't actually know what that was. My whole blog is about my voyage of discovery to establish who I truly am and what that means. Sometimes I've been anxious that I'm in some
- [Chilling](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/06/chilling/) - For the first throw back Thursday of this years February Photofest, this photo of Master chilling out. This was taken at Stoxx, which sadly no longer seems to be available. As well as showing him relaxing, it gives an idea of some of the equipment. We can only hope the owners rent it out again
- [A Website / Blog to follow: Diet Doctor](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/05/a-website-blog-to-follow-diet-doctor/) - Diet Doctor is a site run by doctors and dieticians. It is particularly devoted to a low carbohydrate / Keto lifestyle. On the one hand it offers a paid for premium service with special meal plans. But on the other is has a vast library of free resources. In particular the growing evidence of the
- [I am, because we are](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/05/i-am-because-we-are/) - It is a coincidence that as I walked home yesterday I was thinking about this topic. Wondering about who I am now as we enter the 7th year of our life together. Wondering whether I am worthy as his submissive and partner. I came to the conclusion that we are where we are because of
- [Master's plaything](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/04/masters-plaything/) - This would have been a great image for this objectification post from last week. But I wanted to save it for February Photofest. I'm not really sure why this hasn't been featured before, but really happy to include it now. This was also taken at the secret Dungeon As you can see my nipples are
- [Body measurements - February](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/03/body-measurements-february/) - At the moment the news from here is pretty much all good. I'm still feeling good about my 1lb weight loss last week. Plus I had a reasonable weekend food and alcohol wise. Saturday was our anniversary - 6 years since my partner and I first met. We had planned to eat in a local
- [Anticipation](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/03/anticipation/) - He has prepared her carefully. Securing her across the chest and legs. She is blindfolded, but for now her hands and arms are left free. Her legs are secured in an open position and from the back he can see her pink cunt through the gap in her legs. She waits in anticipation not knowing
- [Submitting](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/02/submitting/) - This week's February Photofest theme is all about our kinks. My photos will highlight some of the fun times we've had both at home and some of the privately rented dungeons we've stayed in. This image of me kneeling in submission was, I think taken at the secret dungeon. It was taken a few years
- [Anniversary](https://aftermpb.com/2020/02/01/anniversary-photo/) - 6 years ago today I met a man in a pub. It wasn't meant to turn into anything special. But it did and today today he is my Master and I am his slave. He is also my Partner, lover and friend. Today is our Anniversary and this photo epitomises our relationship. This photo was
- [February Photofest 2020](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/31/february-photofest-2020/) - The annual sex positive photographic meme February Photofest, hosted by Molly's Daily Kiss starts tomorrow. This will be the 5th time I've entered. My first was 2015 and other than 2018 when I had far too. much going on I've participated every year since. Though I have plans for some photo opportunities this month, mainly
- [Weigh in day and January progress](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/31/weigh-in-day-and-january-progress/) - Of course I've had consistent weight losses before. Usually this tails off after 3 or 4 weeks. The fact that I put on no weight at Christmas means that this is my longest continuous journey for a long time. This week's news This week I lost 1lb. I'd be disappointed if it wasn't for the
- [Privacy](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/30/privacy/) - Where to start with the Food for Thought topic of privacy this week? The fact that our every move around towns and cities, in pubs, shops and restaurant are monitored. That our digital habits are monitored to the extent that we receive adverts on our phones for things mentioned in passing. Or being part of
- [Food to heal - Eating a rainbow](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/29/food-to-heal-eating-a-rainbow/) - As I've mentioned previously, I have struggled with my weight for many years. But it took my breast cancer diagnosis to make me think properly about whether what I eat could contribute to illness. Also whether what I eat could also heal. Of course I have tried to eat healthily over the years. But not
- [Time to celebrate](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/29/time-to-celebrate/) - This is a special week, the 400th edition of Wicked Wednesday, so time to celebrate such an amazing feat. This weekly meme was invented by and is hosted by Marie Rebelle and has been running since 4th June 2012. At that time I was in the first throws of my extra first and only marital
- [Pegs - not just for clothes](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/28/pegs-not-just-for-clothes/) - The current Kink of the Week is pegs or clothes pins as they are called in some places. Now, the application of pegs to my body was the first form of pain I inflicted on myself at the hands of another. As I describe in this post, S instructed me to apply pegs to my
- [Blog to follow: Fat girl skinny](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/27/blog-to-follow-fat-girl-skinny/) - Kirsty from Fatgirlskinny.net has followed slimming world from home to lose 5 stone in weight. She set up har blog 5 years ago, along with an instagram account to get support without needing to go to a group. Her site is really professional and contains a mix of resources. These include recipes, advice on the
- [Objectification in our relationship](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/26/objectification-in-our-relationship/) - I'll start by saying that I'd decided not to write for this prompt on Tell Me About, because I have nothing to say. But a conversation with Master reminded me that actually it is part of my life. Somewhere over the past few weeks I've forgotten, partly because objectification is just an every day part
- [A bright new day](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/25/a-bright-new-day-2/) - This is one of the photos taken last March when we celebrated Master's birthday. A beautiful spring day as I think you can see from the image. I'm not sure where we'll be on his birthday this year, it's a special year for him and he is choosing where we'll go. Hopefully though there will
- [Friendship](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/25/friendship/) - I wasn't going to write anything for this week's Food For Thought topic on friends and friendship because I have written about before. But, it gives me a chance to link up my previous posts and perhaps to expand a little. My best friend and partner Is of course Master. Next weekend is the 6th
- [My Friday update](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/24/my-friday-update/) - My 4th official weigh in this year and another 1.5lb down. My total weight loss is 10.5lb, 6 so far this year. At last I'm consistently losing weight. I wasn't planning to do my measurements until February (so just over a week's time) but couldn't resist. So, did them on Wednesday. Changes were small (.5
- [My problem with food](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/23/my-problem-with-food-2/) - The thing is that my problem with food is that I like food too much and I pretty much like all food. Obviously I like some things better than others, but the only thing I can think of that I won't eat is peanut butter. I like peanuts and butter, but together? Yuk!! This post,
- [My problem with food](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/23/my-problem-with-food/) - The thing is that my problem with food is that I like food too much and I pretty much like all food. Obviously I like some things better than others, but the only thing I can think of that I won't eat is peanut butter. I like peanuts and butter, but together? Yuk!! This post,
- [Time Management](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/22/time-management/) - It's now 18 months or so since I left my permanent job and kind of retired. In that time I've worked on a couple of projects that paid money and am about to again soon. Mostly my time is my own in a way it never was before. Blogging is one of my main hobbies
- [A blog to follow: The Yoyo Chronicles](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/20/a-blog-to-follow-the-yoyo-chronicles/) - The Yoyo Chronicles is a blog written by Julie Obiamiwe who like me is a yoyo dieter. She has been trying to lose weight since 2014 (like me). Over that time though she has had great successes but always managed to put some or all of the weight back on. There was a time when
- [Opposites Attract (or should you fuck a tory?)](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/20/opposites-attract-or-should-you-fuck-a-tory/) - In some ways that is true about us. Not in terms of kink, we seem to be aligned there. But upbringing, education and politics. There are some huge differences. This conversation with GOTN yesterday has led me here to this post. But actually I've thought about writing it for some time. That's because a lot
- [Should we eat fruit?](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/19/should-we-eat-fruit/) - In the past, I've eaten a lot of fruit in the belief it was healthy and good for me. Berries with porridge, a banana midmorning, an apple with lunch, another banana later etc. Of course, the fruit was only part of the problem, constantly eating might have been the other. But, how healthy is fruit
- [Summer's on the horizon](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/18/summers-on-the-horizon/) - It's mid January. The month that often feels like it will never end. Here in the southern half of the Uk we have at least had a sunny and day today. We've had far few days this winter when we could see the sun and the sky. So, I'm already looking forward to summer and
- [Content warnings](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/18/content-warnings/) - Content Warning: Cancer - A discussion about whether blog posts mentioning my breast cancer diagnosis should contain content warnings. Recently I've been a bit irritated by the hashtags a friend of mine uses every day on her instagram posts. These in turn a reposted on facebook and if you subscribe, to her YouTube account. This
- [A long and winding road](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/17/a-long-and-winding-road/) - Today I'm extremely happy to report another weight loss of 2lb which takes my total loss since November to 9lb. I'm feeling happy, proud and excited that I've finally found something that works for me. I'll admit that getting to a reasonable BMI by the time I see the plastic surgeons about my breast reconstruction
- [Home](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/17/home/) - Concepts of home have become more difficult for me to articulate over recent years. What does home really mean to me? Is home a place, a person, a state of mind? Unusually, I read the Food for Thought posts already posted before writing this. Now I'm not sure if I'm clearer or if the waters
- [365 days - 30th January](https://aftermpb.com/2017/01/30/365-days-30th-january/) - My house is a home because...... It is the place I lived during my marriage and where I brought up my son. It is a place where I have been happy, really happy. True, there has been sadness here, but to be fair the happiness has outweighed the pain and the tears. We moved to
- [Blog to follow - Man v Fat](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/16/blog-to-follow-man-v-fat/) - Man v Fat was set up by Andrew Shanahan in 2014 and is particularly aimed at men (clue in the title). This is a digital magazine, initially crowdfunded by Andrew. There is a Man v Fat football league, designed to get men not only losing weight but exercising and participating in sport too. Their philosophy
- [This and that](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/05/this-and-that/) - I am having a quiet time when it comes to kink and all that goes with it. Unfortunately I haven't been able to see Sir for the last couple of weeks, due to work, social and family commitments on both sides. Mean time, a post about this and that.... The first week of my diet
- [Review of 2017 and Recommendations for 2018 (part 2)](https://aftermpb.com/2017/12/28/review-2017-recommendations-2018-part-2/) - Yesterday I posted part one of this review for Wicked Wednesday and linked to a number of the bloggers and sites that have helped and influenced me this year. Today, part 2. July The creativity I managed to find for blogging this month was double that of last. Sadly this is not saying very much
- [Coming soon to Food, Fitness and Health](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/15/coming-soon-to-food-fitness-and-health/) - The site is still in a state of development and unlike my other blog, I’m doing it as I go along. This is partly because I know that the most important thing you can do when creating a new blog is to create content. So, while it might be great to get the design right
- [A bit of a show off](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/15/a-bit-of-a-show-off/) - Yep, that's me. I was that child eager to strut her stuff on stage or to take part in fancy dress competitions. I was that live wire, loud, trying to be centre of attention. Precocious the adult me would have called the younger Julie. I'm an extrovert and I'll be honest I am a show
- [Pain, marks and a new club](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/13/pain-marks-and-a-new-club/) - The Tell Me About prompt this week is pain and for obvious reasons that fits well with the Kink of the week on which is marks. I always live in hope that when we go out to a play event that I'll come back with some marks. Sadly, that really never happens. It's a shame,
- [Creating drama and the role of alcohol](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/13/creating-drama-and-the-role-of-alcohol/) - It's been a strange weekend. Busy in an unusual way. Straight after my slimming world weigh in on Friday But because my car is in the garage I took the train. Then Saturday I took another train that took me straight into Kings Cross, for an afternoon matinée. Having not had alcohol between Sunday
- [The reward](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/13/the-reward/) - I've been looking for some inspiration to write some more erotica and here it is. This beautiful photo of Marie Rebelle for this week's Masturbation Monday. This is the first time I've written from the point of view of a man. So I'll be interested in comments. Based as always on my own experiences, though
- [The keys](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/12/the-keys/) - To find out who else is participating in Sinful Sunday this week, click on the lips
- [SoSS 2020 - 1](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/11/soss-2020-1/) - I've not been great at producing Share our Shit Saturday posts. This is partly because I often dont have my own shit together half the time. I read and comment on lots of blog posts every week, but often forget which have been my favorites. I'm determined though to make this year different and so
- [There's progress](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/09/theres-progress/) - I'd like to stop weighing myself, but at the moment I'm a bit obsessed. Thankfully there has been progress since I began the low carbohydrate diet on Monday. As of this morning I'm at my lowest weight in over a year and have lost 4lb since I started on Monday. I admit I haven't followed
- [New lingerie](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/09/new-lingerie/) - Now that my breast reconstruction is delayed till later in the year, I've decided to invest in more new bras and where possible matching knickers. This set arrived before Christmas, but I just tried them out for the first time this morning. I'm pleased to say my new diet regime, which I started back in
- [Pinch of Nom](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/08/pinch-of-nom/) - This week's blog / website to follow is Pinch of Nom This is a recipe website run by Kay Featherstone and Kate Allinson. who, after joining Slimming World started a Facebook page of their recipes. As their popularity grew they started an Instagram page and a website. They have now also published two recipe books.
- [Thoughts on intimacy](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/08/thoughts-on-intimacy/) - While reading this post by May yesterday it struck me that there was a time when I hated intimacy. The reasons for these feelings differ between us, experiences in childhood and young adulthood are important. Being cheated on so early in my marriage had a profound affect on me. Over time, I learned to bury
- [Sleeping Venus](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/04/sleeping-venus/) - We didn't set out to take a photo os me looking like The Sleeping Venus, because if we had, I'd have moved one of my hands to a different location. But I have to admit that Master's suggestion of a title for this post is pretty good. Also a coincidence is that we managed to
- [Trying a new low carbohydrates diet](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/07/trying-a-new-low-carbohydrates-diet/) - Ever since I started intermittent fasting I've wanted to try reducing my carbohydrate intake.
- [Motivation](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/07/motivation/) - This was the last of my navel gazing, reflective posts (well for now). Onwards we march into January 2020. For once in my life I still feel motivated and it's already the second week of the year! But joking aside, what gets and keeps me motivated? Blogging motivation I'm definitely being helped along by my
- [Determining priorities](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/06/determining-priorities/) - I've written a bit about the pressures I felt were on me in the run up to Christmas. I have loved family Christmas' in the past and mourn their passing. Well, I thought I did. Because this festive period taught me that I need to be clearer about what is important and necessary and what
- [Weight versus body measurements](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/05/weight-versus-body-measurements/) - When I started trying to lose weight in November I took a whole range of body measurements. Chest, waist, widest part of tummy, hips, thigh and upper arm. This was because all of the facebook posts and blogs I was reading about intermittent fasting were telling me that this would be a better way of
- [Mindfulness](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/05/mindfulness/) - I was first introduced to the concept of mindfulness during a work away day over 5 years ago. Our boss brought someone in to run a session on the topic and after going through the principles spent a bit of time getting the group to try them out. At the time my dad was seriously
- [This should be my approach](https://aftermpb.com/2014/08/22/this-should-be-my-approach/) - Far too much of the time I fail to focus on the here and now. Instead, I think about what has been and fear what is in store for me. Master is always telling me, that I need to live in the moment and to embrace the experiences that are happening now. Of course that
- [Down a blogging rabbit hole](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/04/down-a-blogging-rabbit-hole/) - I had planned to write every day for Jumpstart January. But yesterday I found myself down a blogging rabbit hole. As I mentioned in my post on Tuesday, I have started a new blog - Big Fanfare: Food, Fitness and Health I set it up about 6 weeks ago, but December was a busy month
- [2020 - Goals and plans for the New Year](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/31/2020-goals-and-plans-for-the-new-year/) - I've written a couple of reflective posts over the last couple of weeks. This one offering my personal thoughts and reflections of 2019 and this, a review of my blogging year. And now, on New Year's Eve 2019 I turn to 2020 and my goals and plans for the coming year. Last year at this
- [First weigh in of the year](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/03/first-weigh-in-of-the-year/) - Today was my first Slimming World weigh in of 2020. Getting back to IF and reducing carbohydrates over the past few days has helped and I weighed the same as I did 2 weeks ago on 20th December. Checking back to last year, I noted that I am half a pound heavier than the same
- [Mindset](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/02/mindset/) - Our dynamic is about power, control and mind games. I say games, because to begin with it feels like it. Where someone is seeking to get you to conform to their way of thinking, to make you behave in certain ways and to develop a mindset. For me the mindset of a submissive, of a
- [Trying to get back into intermittent fasting](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/02/trying-to-get-back-into-intermittent-fasting/) - Over the past two weeks I've found it difficult to stick to 16:8 fasting. That is fasting for 16 hours and eating during an eight hour window. The key reason has been eating and drinking (but mainly drinking) late at night. So if I don't finish my last drink (that isn't water) until midnight or
- [Will today define the future?](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/28/will-today-define-the-future-2/) - Hubby has been away. He has been out of the country, away to a sunny place, with a male friend. He went, he said to think, to clear his head and to decide. He has been away now for 11 days and has been in contact through texts twice. In the most recent one on
- [The post where I ramble on about something and nothing](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/17/the-post-where-i-ramble-on-about-something-and-nothing/) - In lots of ways I have so much to be happy about, thankful about. I have a lovely Master who takes good care of me, someone who is there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or need a good talking to. At the same time, I have a husband who, while
- [The Pleasure of Submission](https://aftermpb.com/2012/10/27/the-pleasure-of-submission/) - i was just looking thorough my stats while wondering what to write about and how to start, when i noticed that on 3 occasions this week the words 'pleasure of submission' were used to bring people here. At the same time I have been reading a variety of postings by fellow bloggers. About the challenges
- [TMI Tuesday - 19 September 2017](https://aftermpb.com/2017/09/19/tmi-tuesday-19-september-2017-mpb-masters-pleasing-bitch/) - TMI Tuesday – 19 September 2017 1. Why would you go to a therapist? a. You need support b. You want to take responsibility for your life’s outcomes? c. You need guidance and to be told what to do I am not sure that I would go to a therapist for any kind of relationship
- [The view](https://aftermpb.com/2017/07/16/the-view-mpb-masters-pleasing-bitchmpb-masters-pleasing-bitch/) - In the Moselle area of France we travelled through the deepest forest to find the remotely located Chateau du Falkenstein. We parked up and walked through a path in the woods. We passed some people taking photos of each other, Master declared that they would be up to something kinky once we were out of
- [Reflected](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/19/reflected/) - The play area at Stoxx wasn't short of mirrors. So there was no shortage of ways for our image to be reflected. This is me, restrained and suspended in the swing. Reflected for Master to enjoy.
- [In the cage](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/30/in-the-cage/) - This is another Stoxx picture. Under the bed was a cage and of course I climbed inside. I admit that I like the idea of being a caged slave more than the reality. I do prefer the comfort of a soft mattress, but it makes for a good photo.
- [Kinky](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/14/kinky/) - Our sex life is 99% kinky, but day to day we barely reach 40%. Our sex life ebbs and flows, much like everyone else, I imagine. Life gets in the way and often we are powerless to intervene. Or else too tired. But sometimes we get the opportunity to reach a full 100%. Just such
- [Blogging update - moving on from the past](https://aftermpb.com/2017/02/26/blogging-update-moving-on-from-the-past-mpb-masters-pleasing-bitchmpb-masters-pleasing-bitch/) - Last Sunday I finally got around to moving my blog. Just over two years ago, when it looked as if Blogger was going to ban sex related sites, I bought my own domain. I searched for and read about hosting, WordPress etc and planned to move. I worked out how to move posts across and
- [Con drop](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/19/con-drop/) - Twitter is alive today with the voices of the sufferers of this rarely known condition, con drop. But it's one that strikes every year, without fail. The weekend was full of fun, education and information. It was also very busy. Now, as people return to pick up their normal lives the after effects are being
- [#SoSS - Eroticon Special](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/23/soss-eroticon-special/) - I've had a week to reflect on the events of last weekend and it feels like time to write about our Eroticon experience. It's a while since I wrote a SoSS post, so why not combine the two. A Share our Shit Saturday, Eroticon Special. For me, the experience of attending this marvellous sex writing
- [February Photofest](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/06/february-photofest/) - I know it's April not February. But February photofest run each year by the wonderful Molly from Molly's Daily Kiss has been an amazing influence on my blog. My first photos taken by me, of me were for Sinful Sunday and when the next February Phtofest came around I decided to take part. Little did
- [Letrozole - a thorn in my side](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/01/letrozole-a-thorn-in-my-side/) - My breast cancer was hormone dependent and so after surgery I was given medication designed to prevent recurrence. I was lucky and didn't require chemotherapy, just radiotherapy. The risk of recurrence as determined by my Oncotype test is low. But as a precaution I was prescribed Letrozole for 5 years. This tiny tablet looks pretty
- [January Jumpstart - More goals for 2020](https://aftermpb.com/2020/01/01/january-jumpstart-more-goals-for-2020/) - For the second year Violet Fawkes is running a month long meme - January Jumpstart. Designed to get the blogging year off to a flying start with 31 posts in 31 days. This year January looks pretty quiet and I'm keen to get writing so I'm joining in. There are a couple of goals that
- [2019 In Review](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/29/2019-in-review/) - Over the past few years, at the end of December, I've looked back over my blog and created a review. The year has, on the whole been a good one, we've travelled to new places and done some fabulous things. This is my 235th post this year, up considerably on last year. I've discovered that
- [Swimming as therapy](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/31/swimming-as-therapy/) - I've always loved swimming. Ever since I learned at the age of around 9 or 10 I have enjoyed being in the water and losing myself in that warm wet environment. I do like the sea, but prefer to swim in a pool. It's less salty and more controlled. I prefer swimming lengths to just
- [A blog to Follow: Slimming Eats](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/30/a-blog-to-follow-slimming-eats/) - Slimming Eats is a recipe based blog run by full time mum and food blogger Siobhan. she is from London but now lives in Canada. After moving Siobhan wanted to get into shape and lose weight but found there were no slimming groups to attend so she joined up online, There's information on how you
- [Christmas progress](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/30/christmas-progress/) - Well, I've not been the best at writing regularly. But with the New Year only two days away what better time to right that wrong? The trip to Amsterdam didn't actually destabilise my weight and after a couple of days I was pretty much back on track. So that when I weighed in on 20th
- [Cheeky Bathroom shot!](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/28/cheeky-bathroom-shot/) - I didn't know he'd taken this at the time. But I rather like it.
- [Birthday breakfast](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/31/birthday-breakfast/) - We are spending the weekend away to celebrate both Master’s birthday and mother’s day. This morning we enjoyed a relaxing naked birthday breakfast in our room. Later, we’ll throw some clothes on and have lunch with my mum.
- [Indulgence, vice and all things nice](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/28/indulgence-vice-and-all-things-nice/) - It's catchup week on Food 4 Thought and what better time to think about these things than at Christmas. A time of indulgence, being a bit naughty and doing nice things. The worst of this year's Christmas indulgence is behind me as I write this. But, that means I have the opportunity to think ahead.
- [Christmas stresses](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/24/christmas-stresses/) - The run up to Christmas has been a little fraught. It shouldn't have been, but a series of events at the weekend seem to have sent me off kilter. So much so that I am really not looking forward to the journey to my mum's later today. I truly wish we were staying at home.
- [A night in Amsterdam](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/21/a-night-in-amsterdam/) - We've travelled to Amsterdam many times in the past (almost) 6 years. Many times I've wanted to grab an outside shot for Sinful Sunday. But it is just such a busy place. Yes, there are lots of tourists, but also students, residents and those that walk around (or cycle) for the fun of it. You
- [Lies](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/18/lies/) - I lived with a man who told so many lies that I'm sure he grew to believe them. They mainly involved the reasons he would be late home, not home at all or unable to get to events involving his son. Sometimes I believed his lies too because It was easier and felt safer. Plus,
- [Abortion: A woman's right](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/28/abortion-a-womans-right/) - I'm lucky, I've never been in a position to have to consider whether I want to be pregnant or not. I haven't had to go through the turmoil of wondering who to tell or what people will think about me. Not about that anyway. As a nurse, I looked after a many people following the
- [If you fall off the wagon](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/19/if-you-fall-off-the-wagon/) - Just get back on. I've been very remiss and not blogged here since 6th December. I also haven't been giving this blog the time it needs to get established. Hopefully over the holiday period I'll be able to do just that, for a proper launch on 1st Jan. I have lots of ideas for posts
- [Personal reflections on 2019](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/17/personal-reflections-on-2019/) - As usual I will be posting a few reflective posts in the coming couple of weeks. About my own blogging milestones, as well as shouting out about my fellow sex bloggers and writers. I plan to articulate my goals for 2020 too. But this post reflects on 2019 for me personally. The ways in which
- [The mirror of positivity](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/15/the-mirror-of-positivity/) - We are spending the weekend in an Airbnb in Amsterdam. Mostly we hae been spending time with a friend who is not in such a good plae right now. But also having some fun. Sadly there is no great view as the large window in our bedroom overooks a drab courtyard Outside revealing shots are
- [Control](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/11/control/) - This week's Tell me about prompt is Control. This is a topic I've written about a lot and the fact that Master has control over me is fundamental to us and our relationship. Looking back to the beginning of our relationship, that has always been the case. It is what attracted us to each other
- [An advent diary](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/09/an-advent-diary/) - Opening my eyes in the dim early morning light, I reach for my phone. Several messages await, but my focus is on the time and date. 08.00, December 25th. I'm alone in the bed and I have time to luxuriate in the warmth, the space and the peace before family arrive later. Today will be
- [Three weight losses in a row](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/06/three-weight-losses-in-a-row/) - It's been a while since I consistently lost weight. But, at last I have 3 losses in a row. I am also coming to the end of the third week of Intermittent Fasting and am cautiously optimistic. My total weight loss is 5lb. I also redid my measurements earlier in the week and have lost
- [Fantasies](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/04/fantasies/) - I used to spend a lot of time thinking about what might be. Then I started on this journey of Dominance and submission, BDSM and self discovery. This whole blog is really about fulfilling fantasies. Some have exceeded my wildest dreams and some have been less thrilling. What's left to do? Well nothing I dream
- [New weekly feature - A blog to follow](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/03/new-weekly-feature-a-blog-to-follow/) - Each week I'm going to feature a website or blog that I think is worthy of a follow. I know how important it is to build a readership and to share information about those who inspire us. Even at the age of 57 I'm still learning about my body and trying to make changes to
- [Stop apologising!](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/03/stop-apologising/) - Last week I had a hospital appointment. They hospital uses an electronic booking in service, a machine that then gives you a receipt. Only last week it didn't. There was no one at the reception desk so, assuming I was checked in we just sat down and waited. And waited. When we had been waiting
- [Intermittent Fasting  - A new beginning?](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/01/intermittent-fasting-a-new-beginning/) - Two weeks ago I began Intermittent Fasting in the hope it might help me lose weight. I've tried many different eating plans (or in other words diets). Back in the days when I probably didn't need to lose weight diets were easy. Cut down my intake of food. Move more and a few weeks later
- [Head down](https://aftermpb.com/2019/12/01/head-down/) - And bottom up. Plus, just look at that lovely castle view!
- [Welcome to Food and Fitness for Health](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/29/welcome/) - Welcome to my new blog I've been meaning to start a food and health related blog for some time. But as usual I was in procrastination mode. My friend Rebel contacted me last weekend to tell me she had been thinking of starting something, but maybe I wanted to instead. Of course, I said yes
- [I am thankful](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/27/i-am-thankful/) - In the UK we don't have a Thanksgiving celebration. But that's not to say I don't think it is important to express thanks for the people and things in my life. So, I am thankful to have the opportunity to join in with the Erotic Journal Challenge prompt for November. Health I saw the oncologist
- [My family](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/16/my-family/) - My family have always been important to me and I have always lived close to them. My parents are still alive, though not in the best of health and I have 2 brothers, both now divorced. Our children are quite close in ages to each other (ranging from 15 to 22), and when they were
- [Mornings](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/25/mornings/) - My most favourite thing when i am spending time with Sir is to wake up beside him. As we both stir, he takes me into his arms and we rest there a while. Then we kiss a little and then i feel his fingers on one of my nipples, squeezing and gently twisting. Next he
- [Multitask?](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/27/multitask/) - Hardly! I can barely do one thing at a time. That is partially true. I am better at being efficient and effective when I focus on that thing and get it done than when I try to do 2 or 3 things at once. But of course life doesn't allow us the luxury of concentrating
- [Bedroom talk](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/24/bedroom-talk/) - He has a great way with words. I guess it is all the reading he does, plus his linguistics education. He tends to tell me what he thinks about my body and our sex life in English, but could easily do it in French or Spanish. Our bedroom is a fun place to be of
- [Definition](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/23/definition/) - On the new shelves installed in our living room last week is the dictionary section (yes this is something of a library). But I hope this picture doesn't completely define me. While I love posing for him and was happy to do so in front of the new shelving, I'm not happy with this body.
- [Weekend Break - Part one - The four of us!](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/22/weekend-break-part-one-the-four-of-us/) - At last i have something to write about; something kinky, something fun and a lovely lovely time. Sir and i have been away for a weekend away. We had 2 whole nights and the best part of 3 days together, a real treat. After the trials and difficulties of the past few months being able
- [Weekend break - Part Two - The two of us](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/23/weekend-break-part-two-the-two-of-us/) - Our trip away involved us travelling to a medieval town north of where we both live (further north for Him). The town has a castle and nearby are lots of interesting cultural and historical places as well as some very nice countryside. We were blessed with the first reasonably warm weather of the year (spring
- [Some more of 30 days of me](https://aftermpb.com/2013/04/29/some-more-of-30-days-of-me/) - Just like with the 30 days of submission, it is taking a while to get through these, so I am going to post about 3 of them today and weave in some of my thoughts following yesterday's post. What I wore today Since it is shortly before 10am, as I write this, I am still
- [Solo Traveller](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/01/solo-traveller/) - It feels that this last year or so have been about me doing new things, in new ways and in new places. I haven't actually written a bucket list of things I should do before I get too old or die, but it certainly feels like I am ticking them off. Lately I have learnt
- [Florence](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/08/florence/) - It is a place I have wanted to travel to for ages. A place that from photos looked beautiful. A place steeped in history. I wasn't disappointed. I haven't spent a lot of time in Italy. Not in comparison to France and Spain where I have holidayed lots. A few years ago, we took my
- [It only takes a day](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/10/it-only-takes-a-day/) - I had the most wonderful trip to Florence, but being the greedy girl I am, I needed something more. Yesterday I got it. I got to spend a day with my lovely Master. I have said before that we live some hundred miles apart and getting together isn't always as easy as we would both
- [Quite conventional](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/11/quite-conventional/) - That's what He described the part of the afternoon we spent in bed as. In terms of kink, D/s, BDSM: yes that is what it was. In terms of the usual life of me as a woman in 2013 aged 50. It was anything but my usual day. He is the first man with whom
- [More about me - 21 to 23](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/12/more-about-me-21-to-23/) - It's Sunday and I am currently thinking about getting on with some things. I say thinking, so what better way to pass some time without actually getting on than by catching up with more things about me. So here goes. 21. A self portrait What to say about me to paint something of a
- [30 days about me - 24, 25 and 26](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/18/30-days-about-me-24-25-and-26/) - Not long to go now before I manage to reach 30. A mixture today. 24. Something that makes me smile There is something about the innocence of childhood that is just so joyous and there is nothing like memories of your own children, the things they say and do that remind you of that. Something
- [Thoughts and feelings - More Questions than answers](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/23/thoughts-and-feelings-more-questions-than-answers/) - It would be true to say that I feel really mixed up right now. On the one hand, I have spent two nights and a lovely whole day with my Sir and had the best time. Just spending time together, chatting about random things, visiting places together has become a way of unwinding. The sex
- [Finishing up the 30 days about me (27-30)](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/28/finishing-up-the-30-days-about-me-27-30/) - These have been hanging around for far too long so here goes - 27 to 30: A favourite restaurant I don't have a particular favourite, but like to eat out. My favourite kind of restaurant would be one that is not part of a chain, and one where they cook all their own food. By
- [The ceremonies of life](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/20/the-ceremonies-of-life/) - Christenings, weddings, funerals and graduations have all been the ceremonies of my life. Christmas, even though I don't go to church is a ceremony of its own. Over the years I've enjoyed them all. I still look back with fondness to my own wedding. I loved the day, being centre of attention. happy and in
- [Freedom](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/21/freedom/) - This weeks F4T prompt is freedom. You would imagine that as a slave in a M/s relationship, my freedom would be limited in some way. But actually I feel more at liberty to do the things I want to do than at any point in my adult life. That's partly because I have fewer responsibilities.
- [Submissive training - is it necessary?](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/19/submissive-training-is-it-necessary/) - This prompt for Tell Me About has had me thinking for a few days. It is common to see information about 'training your submissive' in BDSM manuals and guides. Submissive training is also a big thing in fiction, for example the Brie series by Red Phoenix which is set in a training centre for submissive
- [Planning for breast reconstruction](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/17/planning-for-breast-reconstruction/) - I haven't written about my breast cancer journey for a while. Well I have weaved things that have already happened into various posts. But as for the journey itself, there has been nothing much to say. In early summer when I first saw the plastic surgeons, I was led to believe the wait for breast
- [A bright new day](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/16/a-bright-new-day/) - How I miss the bright, Mediterranean mornings of summer. The heat already burning through the patio door at 8am. The sky blue and the sun high. My apartment in France is wonderful in summer. It does get rather hot in the evening and over night. But each day brings a coolness that lasts till late
- [Being a Leo](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/13/being-a-leo/) - I'd like to say that I don't believe a word of what is written about astrology and star signs. But I do. Being a Leo means I am a lion, the queen of the jungle. Apparently vivacious, theatrical and passionate. I would believe in astrology less if more of what I read about Leo's were
- [The things we do fo love](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/13/the-things-we-do-fo-love/)
- [Phyllis](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/20/phyllis/) - When Phyllis punts, she wields the poleWith tiny hands in dainty style,Inconsequently chatting whileWe slowly move towards our goal. When Phyllis punts, I long to lieAnd idly watch her laughing face,For seldom does such lisson graceAs hers delight a lover's eye. BUT what with thrusting skiffs aside,Entreating pardons by the score,And pushing off from either
- [Looking out](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/27/looking-out/) - Hotel rooms offer up infinite opportunities for Sinful Sunday photos and we are lucky we travel often. This was taken in the same room as last week's image, but as you can see the view is very different. Some of you may even recognise the location.
- [Being positive](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/02/being-positive/) - This is prompt week on Sinful Sunday. But as I mentioned in my last post, I am not a lover of Halloween, therefore I make no excuse for not following the prompt. Instead I want to show you another (in what might be a series) of photos where I proudly show you my body. I
- [Touch me](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/10/touch-me/) - "When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand."Henri Nouwen
- [Resetting our relationship dynamic](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/08/resetting-our-relationship-dynamic/) - All relationships change over time. After the first flush of excitement of a new relationship we settle into a routine. But over time, physical and/ or emotional needs will alter and this can lead to problems. One aspect of a power exchange relationship that is usually different from vanilla, is communication. For us, listening and
- [What do you see?](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/06/what-do-you-see-2/) - We love to observe the people around us and wonder about their lives. We often question whether those people even see us. The focus often seems to be each other or their phone. Indeed I wonder whether some people are aware of their surroundings at all. I like to watch people, I like that Master
- [A meme from Hermione via Abby before I leave for 2 weeks R&R](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/31/a-meme-from-hermione-via-abby-before-i-leave-for-2-weeks-rr/) - Tomorrow I am off to France. I am staying in a town I know, in a holiday home I have been to with hubby (and with my son and nephew). We have had lots of holidays there, but this will be different. This time I am going on my own, and though I have a
- [My first blog from France](https://aftermpb.com/2013/06/05/my-first-blog-from-france/) - It's great to be writing this on my balcony overlooking a harbour in France. I'd like to say that I have just come off of the beach after a day of sunbathing, but after a sunny start it clouded over. It is far from cold though, and although I am wearing a sweatshirt I am
- [Faking orgasm](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/06/faking-orgasm/) - I'm pleased to say that I suggested this week's Food for Thought prompt. A few weeks ago I read survey conducted by Kinkly.com on Faking Orgasms. The writers there had read a couple of other smaller surveys and conducted one of their own. 1232 people of different ages, gender and sexual orientation. What interested me
- [Reclaiming my blogging mojo](https://aftermpb.com/2019/11/03/reclaiming-my-blogging-mojo/) - I've been struggling since the start of summer to get back into the swing of blogging. To regain my mojo. February, April and June were busy with daily (or almost) posts to keep up with various themes. I love to do these, but they are time consuming and tiring. They also use up a hell
- [It's Halloween](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/31/its-halloween/) - The current Kink Of The Week prompt is witches (plus otherworldly creatures) especially timed for halloween. I had started to write a witch themed post about the All Souls Trilogy, which I have recently read (and loved). But the very arrival of halloween has reminded me that this is one 'holiday' or ritual I detest.
- [A secret life](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/29/a-secret-life/) - I guess I have always kept some part of myself hidden and so have had secrets. Of course once I started this journey as a submissive with men who were not my husband so the secrets became bigger. But even though my life with Master is there for all to see, there are still secrets.
- [A road not taken](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/23/a-road-not-taken/) - This week's Food for Thought poses some questions about the choices we have made in life: How many times have you found yourself at a junction in your life?; What helped you choose the road/door you decided on?; Do you ever think about what you would be doing if you had chosen the other path?;
- [Relationships](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/22/relationships-3/) - I've been thinking about the different relationships I have had in my life. That I don't make friends easily and that those relationships often haven't endured on more than a superficial level. I had few boyfriends before my husband, but then we started going out when I was 15. This means that I have had
- [Keep it simple](https://aftermpb.com/2012/05/14/keep-it-simple/) - I have decided that my life is complicated enough that i would be well advised not to get involved in more than one extra maritial affair at a time. I also think that keeping that relationship slightly at arms length and on a more sexual level is what i am most comfortable with right now.
- [The person I am now](https://aftermpb.com/2016/03/01/the-person-i-am-now/) - On Sunday, I wrote about the slave I feel i am now. In that post, I considered the changes I have made during my relationship with Master and the way in which perhaps evolution has taken place. As a happier person, someone who no longer needs to take charge of many situations, perhaps my natural
- [Remembering](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/20/remembering/) - When we were in the throws of separating my husband told me that he felt that our whole life together had been a waste. That I had ruined all of the good things we had together by my act of infidelity and decision not to remain with him. That was a bit rich coming from
- [Breast](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/12/a-breast/)
- [New experiences](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/16/new-experiences-2/) - It isn't often these days that we do something new, when it comes to our dynamic. We're often talking about going to a new club or trying a new munch, but we are creatures of habit. Though we don't even go to the same munch every month since we also enjoy social events outside of
- [Time to share some shit](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/05/time-to-share-some-shit/) - The past couple of weeks have been way busier than I had imagined they would be. Partly because my mum who was staying locally for Christmas extended her stay for my son's wedding. Over the last couple of days though I've had the chance to do some reading and to begin some planning for the
- [#SoSS November 2018](https://aftermpb.com/2018/11/24/soss-november-2018/) - It is a very long time since I wrote a #SoSS. It isn't that I don't read and comment on other blogs, I do. But I am not so good at getting my shit together to work out which ones I want to share. Let alone writing about it. But in an attempt to start
- [Diet and fitness update](https://aftermpb.com/2012/08/27/diet-and-fitness-update/) - i promised myself that i would update my progress in improving my fitness and losing some weight. Another week has passed and as always that second week is a bit more difficult. The week started with my meeting with Sir and while i easily avoided midweek alcohol, i did eat some quite naughty food during
- [Time for action](https://aftermpb.com/2013/06/27/time-for-action/) - Redundancy and then time off work has been great for my general wellbeing. I feel relaxed, my batteries recharged. It has done nothing for my weight. This morning I decided to get back to my Wii work outs with Mel B. As I stood on the balance board, a message flashed across the screen -
- [Feeling safe](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/13/feeling-safe/) - This week's Food for Thought prompt is Safewords or Words that make you feel safe. I wrote recently about safewords so am not going there again with this post. So, what words make me feel safe? Early in our relationship I wrote about the words we use within our relationship and what they mean to
- [Bringing up the rear](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/12/bringing-up-the-rear/)
- [Me and my camera](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/10/me-and-my-camera/) - I got my first camera for Christmas when I was about 11. I loved going around taking everyone's picture. It was just a shame that when I got my first film back from the printers the photos weren't as good as I'd remembered. Cameras with film That was the whole problem, but also the exciting
- [Breast Cancer - Being aware](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/09/breast-cancer-being-aware/) - I wasn't going to write anything about Breast Cancer Awareness. But having read May's wonderful post about her friend Shirley and watched Tabitha's fabulous Vlog I feel compelled. A year ago next week I had a right mastectomy for Lobular Breast Cancer. I had progressed through my adult life thinking that Breast Cancer was a
- [Return to CMnf](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/12/return-to-cmnf/) - I was anxious, almost as scared as the first time. Would people stare at my scar, my lack to a right breast? Would I be able to walk with confidence from the locker room, through the bar and into the play area?The answer is yes. I did feel self conscious as I removed my clothes,
- [Reflections on the past - My submission today](https://aftermpb.com/2016/01/20/reflections-on-the-past-my-submission-today/) - Master has frequently looked back on my blog and reminded me of things that I have written. He is quite a reflective person, and while I am too, he often sees things that I maybe don't. This week we have been discussing my submission. This is the first time since May 2014 that we have been
- [Kissing vignettes](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/02/kissing-vignettes/) - The touch of your lips as you brush mine sends a shiver through my body. My nerve endings tingle and you pull me into your arms. Our lips meet again, your lips part and slide your tongue onto mine. They dance a little together, we smile, and then our lips meet again, this time closed.
- [Fear](https://aftermpb.com/2019/10/01/fear/) - The Erotic Journal Challenge for October is Fear. I love that Brigit has gone for a month long theme and hope it is something she will continue. I love to join in with memes but struggle with my originality and often feel I am repeating myself. For this one though I may well post a
- [Electric](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/27/electric/) - He used the violet wand on me from the first time we played. I held a respect for all things electric that made it difficult for me to quite trust the wand at first. My dad was an electrician and the idea of someone torturing me with an electric current scared me a little. Even
- [The kink returns](https://aftermpb.com/2016/10/31/the-kink-returns/) - There is probably nothing like blogging to say that the kink is absent from a relationship to make it return. Well I guess that's is no accident since Master reads this blog. Not only does He read, but He likes to discuss posts and make suggestions. What is more, even as I wrote my last
- [Blogging A-Z 2018: K&L](https://aftermpb.com/2018/04/13/blogging-a-z-2018-kl/) - Kink and Limits There is a place on Fetlife where you can list your kinks or as described there, fetishes. Those available range across the spectrum of those related to domination and submission, through pain, degradation, humiliation and so on. Just reading through posts there, blogs, books and comments on social media it's possible to
- [Bubbles](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/28/bubbles-2/) - I love a bubble bath, but I love bubbles created in a jacuzzi even more. This photo was taken earlier in the year when we were in Holland. I didn't share it at the time because I wasn't sure I was ready to show this much of me. But increasingly I am feeling proud of
- [Being pierced](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/24/being-pierced/) - We had been together just a matter of weeks when I became a pierced woman. I'd had my ears pierced as a teenager, but body piercings weren't something I had considered until I was in my 50s. S had first broached the idea and I have to say I was tempted. But since he wasn't
- [Welcome to the pleasure dome](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/24/welcome-to-the-pleasure-dome/) - It's been a long time, at least two weeks, perhaps more. Distance and then various appointments during the first few days back from Cyprus . Now at last we have time, energy and will power. "You are my pleasure bitch" he says as he slides his cock over my clit piercing and teases my vulva
- [Dangling](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/22/dangling/) - My blog and memes like Sinful Sunday have definitely made me into more of an exhibitionist. But there is someone else who likes to show himself off and who lets me photograph him. This photo was taken on our boat holiday and shows Master letting it all hang loose. So, I've called this photo dangling.
- [Being apart](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/18/being-apart/) - I arrived home last night, after a week away with my mum. There was so much I missed about being apart from Master. This felt worse because being away with mum made me recognise the changes I have made and why I would never go back. For so many years I was forced to take
- [Bend over](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/08/bend-over-2/)
- [Foreplay](https://aftermpb.com/2019/09/01/foreplay/) - We have a new toy. The old one was, perhaps a little worn out. This morning we tried it out and I can confirm that not only is it the perfect foreplay toy it is also pretty good at giving orgasms! Or maybe it was the skilled operator!
- [Friends](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/30/friends-2/) - The current "Tell Me About" topic is Friends. To be precise the topic is FrienD/s, or the people we have met and got to know because of our D/s (or M/s) relationship. The difficulties We have been together for just over 5 years and in the context of both of our lives, that is a
- [The disappearing orgasms](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/29/the-disappearing-orgasms/) - Early on in our relationship I wrote about the importance Master placed on giving me pleasure. That he loved me to orgasm and to orgasm a lot. While my orgasms have belonged to him from day one and I have always had to ask permission, they have not been in short supply. Until this year
- [Getting back to the core of who I am](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/27/getting-back-to-the-core-of-who-i-am/) - During normal, every day life it is easy to lose sight of what is really important. To imagine the small irritations of decision making, the routine of work and household activities are everything. It is easy to lose sight of your core, what makes you tick. The things that brought you together. Sometimes it takes
- [Why I blog - to write and to read](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/26/why-i-blog-to-write-and-to-read/) - There is something about writing here on my blog and posting my words online that I love. I have kept various diaries and journals over the years, but tended not to continue them for long. Blogging involves not only writing but reading the words of others and interacting with those writers. That is something that
- [Topless](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/25/topless/) - This is my first (and hopefully last) summer with just one boob. The idea of going braless, let alone topless is pretty much a step too far at the moment. Even around the house, I feel weird without a bra. But in hot weather wearing a bra (or swimming costume) all of the time is
- [Back to reality](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/24/back-to-reality-2/) - We arrived home yesterday. We managed to get ourselves caught up in bank holiday traffic, so the final leg of our journey took 7 hours. It is crazy to think that it took us most of the day to travel just over 200 miles. It certainly made me appreciate the open spaces of France and
- [New habits and old rituals](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/23/new-habits-and-old-rituals/) - While writing this post on the deck of a ferry crossing from Spain to England, I wondered. How to habits form and then how do they become so ritualised. I wondered too, if some of what I describe as rituals aren't just habits. But anyway, here goes. Like most people, I have certain rituals by
- [Admiring the view](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/17/admiring-the-view/) - Our return journey from France has begun, we left the apartment on Tuesday. My ex is now enjoying the retreat I love so much. But our departure gives the opportunity to visit new places and make new memories. We are now in Spain. Having crossed the pyrenees, staying both in the French and Spanish side,
- [The joy of summer](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/08/the-joy-of-summer/) - I absolutely love summer and in particular the part of summer where the days are at their longest and the nights, their shortest. I married in June, on 23rd. The closest Saturday to midsummer. I even tolerated night duty when it fell in the summer. It was amazing looking out on the streets of London
- [Retreat](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/05/retreat/) - There is usually one month (at least) each year when my blogging mojo runs out of steam. Usually this coincides with a planned holiday. It is not unusual while away to have poor wifi and long days out and about enjoying the sights of the area. Also, unless this was to become a travel blog,
- [Bend over](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/04/bend-over/) - I had forgotten that this weekend is prompt week. So, since I haven't prepared anything theme related I have looked back through some recent holiday snaps. Though I'm not particularly low down in this photo, I am leaning down. So I've called it 'bend over'. At one of the chateaux we visited, we found ourselves
- [It's been a while](https://aftermpb.com/2019/08/03/its-been-a-while/) - We arrived back in the UK last night for a few days to celebrate my mum's 80th birthday. For the past week, we have been in a wifi free zone. Hence no blog posts, not even Sinful Sunday, which I rarely miss. I was also short on mobile data, and ended up topping that up.
- [Lazy days and hot nights](https://aftermpb.com/2019/07/21/lazy-days-and-hot-nights/) - The first week of our holiday was very busy. We travelled through France, avoiding Paris by keeping to the west. Each day we explored landmarks on route and then at each destination. We followed the trail of Richard 1, his heart is apparently buried in Rouen, his body at Fontevraud-l'Abbaye and his entrails at Chalus.
- [Gone travelling](https://aftermpb.com/2019/07/08/gone-travelling/) - Today we finally leave for our long holiday. We will be spending about 6 weeks travelling through and staying in France. There will be a short trip back to the UK for my mum's 80th birthday and then a final couple of weeks during which we will drive up through Spain to take the ferry
- [Before and after](https://aftermpb.com/2019/07/06/before-and-after/) - our trip to Holland offered so many photo opportunities. But unusually many of those opportunities were of him rather than me. Plus in these two photos I had the chance to photograph him in two ways. Both fabulous and exciting. Before and after or after and before.
- [June 2019](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/30/june-2019/) - Every damn Day in June is the brainchild of Hy. Most of us have resolutions to blog more in January and the momentum lasts through February Photofest and on into the April Blogging A-Z. But keeping things going till June is hard. There are plenty of memes to help. But sometimes that help is overwhelming
- [Unmentionable](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/09/unmentionable/) - I think I have mentioned before that I am a member of a facebook group for people with or who have had breast cancer. It is a place where people support each other through treatment and recovery, recurrence and general daily life. People who are struggling with problems they can't speak to loved ones about.
- [Surviving](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/27/surviving/) - For the first time in months I have paid work. This involves time spent in my office at home running a project. But also time spent some miles away, meeting with new people, asking questions and seeking answers. I only have a few weeks to get this element of the project done because we leave
- [Swinging](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/24/swinging/) - The idea of going to a club, getting off with and having sex with someone else has never really appealed to me. Nor has meeting up with someone on a casual basis for sex, even if my partner were fully aware. This maybe seems strange, given I cheated on my husband and started more than
- [caged](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/23/caged/) - There were so many interesting pieces of equipment to try out on our recent trip to the Kinky Suite in Amsterdam. This was one of them. I guess it isn't usually the dominant you might see caged like this. But he tried it for size and I snapped him for posterity. I think you'll agree
- [Positivity](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/22/positivity/) - Another week of being mindful about my health and wellbeing has passed and I'm feeling more positive. I truly believe that to lose weight you have to be in the right frame of mind. I'm in it and I hope it lasts. Fitness This week I have been reading about metabolism and how to improve
- [When I grow up](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/19/when-i-grow-up/) - I don't remember when I decided that I wanted to be a nurse, but I was pretty young. As a child I wasn't massively into dolls as a child, but they made damn good patients. Why childhood reading often concentrated on stories about illness and recovery. I read stories about nurses, but also ones about
- [On the cross](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/16/on-the-cross/) - Sometimes you just have to relax into the moment and let the inevitable happen. Photo taken by Master at Stoxx.
- [Letter to hubby](https://aftermpb.com/2013/06/17/letter-to-hubby/) - B, On Sunday we have been married for 29 years. That is a lifetime - we have both been married for longer than we were single. We have had some great times, how ever would we have stayed together if we hadn't. Equally we have had some difficult moments, not least the present. This year
- [Being grateful for my mistakes](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/13/being-grateful-for-my-mistakes/) - I've made quite a few mistakes in my life, it would be difficult not to by my age. But I'm a little hard pressed to think of any that I really regret or that I'm not a little grateful for. I was married at 21 I think that was probably a mistake. He was my
- [A guy I knew](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/18/a-guy-i-knew/) - While I have alluded to his presence in my life some years ago, I have never actually written about Kevin on my blog. When we met for the first time he was the first person I had met through the internet. He lived about an hour away and was around 10 years older than me.
- [General frustrations](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/17/general-frustrations/) - My laptop has been playing up big time and that has put me off of blogging so much recently. Coupled with a blog that spent as much time down as up this weekend and it is no wonder I have been absent. But my blog host has rebuilt their server and I have a new
- [When life gets in the way](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/11/when-life-gets-in-the-way/) - Today's 30 days of D/s question is about what happens when the trials of life get in the way of a dominant / submissive relationship. Like most couples, we have had our challenges. Stuff has happened that has caused us to put our M/s dynamic onto the back burner a little. The most obvious ones
- [Role play](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/10/role-play-2/) - Steve was heavily into role play, (I wrote about it in this post). I enjoyed the thrill of it to begin with but after a while it got a bit wearing. He had a vivid imagination and came up with fabulous scenarios. For example, I was a housewife who had called someone in to repair
- [A different view](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/09/a-different-view/) - Following on from last week's Sinful Sunday scene, today I present a different view. This time, me looking out from our hotel room in Utrecht. Of course, the reflection in the window also gives you something of a glance at our room. I really must post more of the room, since it was an amazing
- [When we are apart](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/08/when-we-are-apart/) - Today's 30 days of D/s post is about what happens to our dynamic when we are apart from each other. Until last summer there were days (and nights) most weeks when we were apart from each other. As my moving date got closer I found the stress built up. I definitely struggled without Master's direct
- [Progress - Fit for Friday #9](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/08/progress-fit-for-friday-9/) - At last I feel I'm making progress with my fitness and weight loss. Plus I'm feeling positive about achieving my goals. So to the summary for this week. Diet and weight loss In some ways double paying for weight loss support seems crazy. But for a limited period it feels the right thing to do.
- [Lingerie for me](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/05/lingerie-for-me/) - Lingerie Is For Everyone is probably the only meme I haven’t yet taken part in. Hosted by Violet Faukes Lingerie Is For Everyone is body positive, inclusive and also a great place to see beautiful bodies and fabulous lingerie. But I have been hesitant to take part. I have a drawer full of lingerie that
- [F4TF - Room 101](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/06/f4tf-room-101/) - I have to admit that I haven't read 1984 by George Orwell. But I do know that room 101 is the place where your greatest fear resides. I have though watched the TV programme of the same name and on that people banish things they really hate or fear. My general fears As I've got
- [Sex and getting older](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/04/sex-and-getting-older/) - “There are six myths about old age: 1. That it’s a disease, a disaster. 2. That we are mindless. 3. That we are sexless. 4. That we are useless. 5. That we are powerless. 6. That we are all alike.” Maggie Kuhn I haven't written for the Erotic Journal Challenge for a while, but luckily
- [Thinking about rules](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/03/thinking-about-rules/) - I've written a few times recently about rules. In September for Food for Thought Friday I wrote about the rules of life and a little about my relationship. Then in May, for this series I wrote about how we negotiated our power exchange relationship. But in this post I'll go into a little more detail
- [What kind of submissive am I?](https://aftermpb.com/2013/05/15/what-kind-of-submissive-am-i/) - I got the link to this OK Cupid submissive type test from L at Willing Slut and seem to have come out as a Servant. Interestingly this is not how I see myself and it is really not how my Sir sees me since I have only cooked for hims twice and the most house work I
- [Thoughts on pain](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/02/thoughts-on-pain/) - I struggle, even after all this time to understand my body's reaction to pain. After all pain is meant to be a stimulus that warns us that things are not right, that we should take flight. But the right kind of pain delivered in a certain way isn't at all like that. Until I met
- [The softer side of  Rotterdam](https://aftermpb.com/2019/06/01/the-softer-side-of-rotterdam/) - The large windows in our hotel room provided a great photo opportunity. Perhaps this shows the softer side of Rotterdam? But also the fact the Master is increasingly willing to appear as a sinful Sunday subject and not just the photographer. Though in this image he is both.
- [Review - The kinky suite Amsterdam](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/31/review-the-kinky-suite-amsterdam/) - Last week we stayed at another self contained kinky room / suite / apartment. (See here and here for our previous encounters). It occured to me that it would be useful for me and others if I posted a review of places like this as we visit. I'm pretty sure we will visit others, plus
- [Fit for Friday #8](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/31/fit-for-friday-8/) - I should be up to week 21 or something but for me this is the 8th post. I guess though that doesn't matter. Fitness On Wednesday we returned from 6 days travelling to Holland, via France and Belgium. We mostly stayed in hotels which was a challenge for the diet (more of that below). But
- [Laughter and joy](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/30/laughter-and-joy/) - There were times in my life when laughter didn’t come easily. I spent more time alone than I would care to and socialised less that I’d like. Times when words were spoken in resignation and anger than joy. Those days are thankfully past. Even if Master and I are having an off day, if we
- [Live in the light](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/25/live-in-the-light/) - To love life is to live in the light.” ― Lailah Gifty Akita We are spending the weekend in a beautiful hotel in The Netherlands. Our room gives an opportunity for rest, relaxation and calmness. It also provides the perfect setting for self photograph.
- [Photographs of me](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/23/photographs-of-me/) - It’s been a while since I participated in Food For thought Friday. But this topic caught my eye and so having just written my Wicked Wednesday post, as I cross the English Channel on a ferry, I seem to be on a roll! Before the internet The first photos of me wearing little or nothing
- [Rituals](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/23/rituals/) - When I was thinking about writing this post, I told myself that I and we don’t do rituals. But of course, life is full of them. I have fewer now that I’m not working, but I am a creature of habit and tend to do things in the same way a lot of the time.
- [Fit for Friday on Tuesday](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/21/fit-for-friday-on-tuesday/) - Having stated on the blog that I planned to join in with Fondle's weekly fitness updates I have completely failed to do so. I have also put back on all of the weight I lost in January. But since I am not to be beaten and since I have a health and fitness update, here
- [Introducing D/s into a vanilla relationship](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/19/introducing-d-s-into-a-vanilla-relationship/) - This is something that I never did. When I started to read about Dominance and submission the one thing I knew deep down was that I didn't want to try such a thing with my then husband. There are a number of reasons for this. The relationship has run it's course We had been married
- [Issues of consent](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/15/issues-of-consent/) - Today's topic on the 30 days of D/s is consent. I wrote a comprehensive post about consent and what it means to me for my A-Z of blogging in April (I for Informed Consent). I'm not sure I have much more to say on the topic.
- [Friends](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/15/friends/) - On the surface I appear to be able to make friends easily, but those friendships are often superficial. I don't have a special person I have known for ever that I can confide in. Nor do I have what might be described as a 'bestie'. I know lots of people and sometimes I meet up
- [Safeword](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/14/safeword/) - You often read of slaves that have no limits and no safeword, but in essence I have both. As I wrote last time, Master takes care of my limits (though these were negotiated). I do have a safeword, but have never used it. Green In both of my BDSM relationships we have used the traffic
- [My Limits](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/08/my-limits/) - When I came into this relationship I did so with few preconceived ideas. Though I'd been in another D/s type relationship there was little I'd come across that I didn't particularly like. The key for me is discussion and negotiation (as per my last post). I may be lucky, but most of the things that
- [Negotiating a power exchange relationship](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/06/negotiating-a-power-exchange-relationship/) - At the beginning of our relationship there was a certain element of excitement. At times it felt we were throwing ourselves into the situation, pushing boundaries. We met at weekends, there were play scenes and there was sex. We both knew he was dominant and I submissive, that this was a power exchange and in
- [Title: slave](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/04/title-slave/) - This is day 3 of the Loving BDSM 30 days of Kink - Titles and labels. I identify as slave. One of the joys of being Master's slave is the opportunity it provides me to shed my vanilla persona. For a minute, an hour, a day or however long it is, I can be 'this
- [Exciting times](https://aftermpb.com/2013/06/24/exciting-times/) - Despite the mess that is my marriage, essentially I am having a really good time right now. I have discovered that with a bit of effort, good things can happen. Granted I have been helped along by my redundancy payment which I am mainly using wisely (though the odd bit of recklessness doesn't go amiss.
- [Owned](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/18/owned-2/) - For most of my adult life I believed it was wrong to own or be owned by another person. I still do believe it is wrong if the person being owned is kept against their will and without explicit consent. But I don't believe being owned by another is wrong. It is a fact of
- [Travel](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/24/travel/) - One of the greatest pleasures in my life now, is that I am able to travel to new places. But also that I get to do it with a man who so enjoys exploring new places and showing me places he has visited before. We are fortunate to be able to go away from home
- [Thoughts on submission](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/03/thoughts-on-submission/) - This is the second post in the Loving BDSM series 30 days of D/s. Does a submissive have certain behaviors? Over the past few years I have met many submissive people, in real life and through the blog and social media. There do seem to be common traits and behaviours that people share. There are
- [Confessions of an unruly slave](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/01/confessions-of-an-unruly-slave/) - I often worry that I am just not slave material. That I am too wilful and yes, unruly. You see I am just not like the slaves you read about in BDSM fiction. You know the ones, compliant and respectful. They spend their lives kneeling or else serving their Master in other subservient ways, their
- [TMI Tuesday - 28th October 2014](https://aftermpb.com/2014/10/28/tmi-tuesday-28th-october-2014/) - Let’s Get Serious 1. What are you most afraid of? Probably being alone. But more than that, alone in the knowledge I am a slave with no one to be my Master. 2. Do you believe in life after death? Not sure I really know. I want to believe, but worry that I will find
- [Interlude](https://aftermpb.com/2014/12/04/interlude/) - For the past 4 years, I have taken a trip with friends at this time of year. A trip for Christmas shopping, and for the chance to enjoy some time with friends. Today, I leave early for Germany, to a cold but festive place. I plan to buy things I don't need, chat with my
- [Used](https://aftermpb.com/2018/01/28/mpb-masters-pleasing-bitch-this-girls-journey-to-become-the-slave-her-master-desires-2/) - this girl's journey to become the slave her Master desires
- [This girl returns](https://aftermpb.com/2018/02/18/this-girl-returns/) - A reconnection has occured between Master and this girl. It isn’t exactly that we were disconnected in any particular way. But there hasn’t been much time to just be us and to discuss our relationship. We came together as Master and slave almost 4 years ago (Dominant and submissive before that for 3 months). Our
- [30 days of D/s](https://aftermpb.com/2019/05/01/30-days-of-d-s/) - I have had the great pleasure in meeting Kayla and John from Loving BDSM at Eroticon. They both provide some excellent resources about kink, BDSM and D/s relationships through their websites and podcasts. So it is with great pleasure that I embark upon 30 days of D/s. I'm not planning on posting these every day,
- [Elaborate - Menopause take 2](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/30/elaborate-menopause-take-2/) - I have mostly just mentioned my menopause in passing. There certainly aren't many times when I have tagged the word. But this post makes reference. This week's Wicked Wednesday prompt asks us to elaborate on a story or blog post from before. My Wicked Wednesday then is about my experience of the menopause first time
- [Cooling off](https://aftermpb.com/2016/02/05/cooling-off/) - It is not unusual these (menopause) days to feel the need to push the duvet off of me so that I can cool off. In this photo too, I love that you can see 3 of the signs of my status as slave to Master - collar, cuff and nipple piercing.
- [Zeal](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/30/zeal/) - Zeal is defined as: great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or objective. If you read my first few posts my excitement and enthusiasm for the future was palpable. I didn't know what would happen, whether my foray into the unknown would be a short lived thing. But I embraced the experiences and
- [YKINMK](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/29/ykinmk/) - There is an acronym widely used in the BDSM world: your kink is not my kink (YKINMK). Added to which Your kink is ok (YKIOK). This recognises that no two relationships are the same and that we need to respect that fact. Many people portray kink and BDSM as if there were only one way
- [X rated](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/28/x-rated/) - Until 2015 most of the photos that appeared on my blog were of other people, often found on Tumblr. It was really participating in February Photofest that year, and then Sinful Sunday that encouraged my exhibitionist nature to emerge. From the start of our relationship Master photographed me during play and sex. But over time
- [Taking a risk](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/27/taking-a-risk-2/) - For most of my life I was decidedly risk averse. I looked for certainty and security, but I was frightened that if I took the wrong decision it would backfire and terrible things would happen. I was moribund by fear. Lately I have discovered that if you never take a risk then life may well
- [Unique, Vanilla, Weekends](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/27/unique-vanilla-weekends/) - Unique I wanted to write about the amazing and unique folks I have met in real life and encountered online as part of this blogging journey. From the start I found the support and encouragement provided by other bloggers was unrivalled. Many of the blogs I read in those early days have unfortunately gone. But
- [Submission](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/23/submission-2/) - I have written a lot about submission on this blog. The whole thing started with my discovery that I was a submissive person. That my need to please others, to lead a structured and orderly life had a name. But what is clear from reading back, I really had no idea what I was getting
- [The swing of relaxation](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/21/the-swing-of-relaxation/) - On our recent trip to the Stoxx dungeon I snapped these two photos of Master trying out the swing. As you can see he looks pretty relaxed there.
- [Questions](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/20/questions-3/) - I put a request out on Twitter for questions for the A to Z blogging prompt Q. The one question received was from @May_Matters Her question was: Who was your first crush? When I was about 13 I fell in love with a boy from the 6th form at school. He looked something like Bryan
- [Psychology](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/20/psychology/) - Over the years I have used this blog to explore my feelings about the changes in my life. Whether it was my thoughts on infidelity and cheating on my husband. Or new sexual exploits, examining my submission and what it meant to me. Day to day it often feels as if I cover topics in
- [Owned](https://aftermpb.com/2014/10/04/owned/) - After the week that this girl has had, she longs to hear Him ask her who she belongs to and to be able to reply that she is His. That opportunity will hopefully come later today. This girl has come to value the knowledge that she is owned and to get pleasure from hearing Him
- [Nipples](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/17/nipples/) - It wouldn't be right to write a whole series of posts related to my blogging history without mentioning my breasts or nipples. They have been an important element of my kinky life and our relationship. And it would be wrong too, not to mention that since October 2018, I only have one of each. Nipples in
- [Mirrors](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/15/mirrors/) - I have a massive love hate relationship with mirrors. On the one hand they show me things about myself I would rather not see. The way my face is aging, where wrinkle show and hairs grow from my post menopausal face. They show me that my body bulges in places I would rather it didn't
- [Labia](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/14/labia/) - Warning: NSFW image below. The labia majora are prominent hair‐bearing folds of skin that represent the lateral boundaries of the vulva and meet to form the anterior boundary of the vulva at the mons pubis. The vulva is bounded posteriorly by the fusion of the labia majora at the fourchette. The non–hair‐bearing labia minora lie medial to the labia majora and
- [Journal](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/11/journal/) - Ever since I read the Diary of Anne Frank as a child I loved the idea of writing a diary or journal. Of course, the fact that Anne suffered and died as she did, mean that her writings have survived in a way none of us would wish. But as a young girl I loved
- [Informed consent](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/10/informed-consent/) - Quite rightly, consent is a frequently discussed topic on blogs and social media by the kink community. However it is not a topic I have given much space to on this blog. Often when I discuss our relationship, a Master / slave total power exchange, consent issues are implied rather than explicitly stated. In this
- [Humiliation](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/09/humiliation-2/) - One of the first things I learned on my submissive journey was that I enjoyed being humiliated in a sexual way. Against even my own expectations I enjoyed being called a slut or bitch. Early in my relationship with S I was expected to dress in clothing that would usually be restricted to the bedroom.
- [Girl](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/09/girl/) - At what age do we leave our girlhood behind and instead become a woman. Adulthood for me was technically reached at 18, but in many ways I was still a girl. I hadn't yet had sex, didn't have many responsibilities and hadn't yet voted in a general election. Emotionally I hadn't fully developed and did
- [Glowing in the dark](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/07/glowing-in-the-dark/)
- [Erotic writing](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/05/erotic-writing/) - I was reading erotic fiction long before I thought about writing it. Around the time I met S, I began to download erotica to my kindle. Before that I hadn't read anything like it. I was unfamiliar with The Story of O. Looking at my kindle purchase history, I downloaded a lot of books over
- [Fit for Friday in February](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/15/fit-for-friday-in-february/) - There was no time last weekend for a fit for Friday post. After a quiet January, we burst into February with a vengeance. There have been old films to see, concerts to attend and a couple of gallery exhibitions. We are culturally on top of our game. But this meant a lot of meals out,
- [Red](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/22/red/) - A couple of years ago we stayed in a Dungeon for Master's Birthday. The bed, a four poster, was red. Much like the rest of the room.
- [Flash!](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/24/flash/) - I was hoping to post a photo from our current trip today, but for various reasons that hasn’t been possible. So this is from 2015 in Seville.
- [Recovering](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/25/recovering/) - Well we’ve arrived in Sao Vicente and after a stroll and drink we are recovering from the journey. Hopefully some balcony shots will follow, I saw our neighbour naked earlier!
- [Holiday look](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/26/holiday-look/) - For this holiday and my new body, I bought myself a lovely new swimming costume and robe. I hope you’ll agree it is a great holiday look.
- [Stud](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/27/stud/) - It’s true, though they weren’t from me!
- [Sun bed](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/28/sun-bed/) - I’ve just had a lovely swim in the hotel pool and now, mindful of my still fragile skin, I’m drying off. On my sun bed. That’s it for February Photofest. Round up to come.
- [Double exposure](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/02/double-exposure/) - Before we knew what this month’s prompt would be G put together this little image. That particular window and the furniture lent themselves to playing with the images. Lucky really since while on holiday this week we’ve both been ill. So there’s sadly been little inclination for sex, orgasms or photos.
- [Fit for Friday the catchup](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/09/fit-for-friday-the-catchup/) - It's been a few weeks. February was a crazy month blogging wise. February photofest is always fun, but fitting in other posts too makes it all a bit of a challenge. I know I have the time these days, but normal life still has to be fitted in. Also February was challenging for another reason
- [Flash](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/10/flash-2/)
- [Vacced](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/17/vacced/) - I don’t even know if vacced is a proper word! But yesterday I put myself in the hands of Mactire once again, this time in the vac bed. For me it wasn’t the most fantastic thing I’ve ever done, but it was an experience. I loved that I was immobilised but didn’t really enjoy having
- [Waiting for breakfast](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/24/waiting-for-breakfast/) - After a busy, fun and somewhat tiring Eroticon weekend we managed to grab a lie in on Monday. That extra night was definitely worth it. So, feeling much more refreshed I headed for the shower. But not before being instructed to sit in front of the window. Our view was of the street and opposite
- [Sex education](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/30/sex-education/) - This is a catch up post for the Erotic Journal Challenge. Meme overload and a busy social life has meant I've missed a few posts. Sex education is as important as any other topic of education, but it is also vast and complex. What's more it isn't something that can just be learnt at school
- [Can't turn the clock back](https://aftermpb.com/2013/12/15/cant-turn-the-clock-back/) - A post by Vesta at Vesta's submission has had me thinking all day as I have gone about my pre-Christmas preparations (decorating the tree and shopping for presents) today. I am struggling with getting into the Christmas spirit this year. I can't quite get into the mood and am going through the motions a little.
- [Time to reflect](https://aftermpb.com/2014/01/24/time-to-reflect/) - It's been about 10 days since S told me that he was ready to move on. During that time I have spent quite a bit of time reflecting on our relationship together, but also about what I might want in the future. While we were chatting on Skype that evening, he said he hoped I
- [Hair](https://aftermpb.com/2015/04/14/hair-2/) - Master would love His slave to shave all of her hair off. This, is one of His kinks and He feels that it would help this girl to embrace her slave side much more and what is more it turns Him on. Having said that, He is not insisting on this girl complying with this.
- [Alone time](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/04/alone-time/) - This week's Food for thought Friday is about making time for yourself. I am fortunate that I am able to grab some alone time most weeks. It helps that the person I live with absolutely needs time to himself, just as I do. How often do you make time for yourself? This depends on what
- [Dominant](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/04/dominant/) - It wasn't until I started to read about Dominance and submission that I realised I needed a dominant. And until I had been dominated in the bedroom I truly know that I am submissive. But I did and I am. Back in 2012 I tackled the 30 days of submission meme. Day 26 asked what
- [Commitment](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/03/commitment/) - What to right about for C? The two obvious contenders were control and collar, but I have written about both recently. Then I thought about contract, so I went looking for posts about our contract and found only two. Then it struck me that the key word for today should be commitment. In June 2015
- [Butt plug](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/02/butt-plug/) - One of the first purchases I made when I started to explore BDSM was a butt plug. This was at the behest of S who in April 2012 I had just started a relationship with. On 29th April of that year I was preparing to visit him and wrote this: Last night we discussed what
- [Blogging A to Z challenge 2019 (A - Archives)](https://aftermpb.com/2019/04/01/blogging-a-to-z-challenge-2019-a-archives/) - This is my fourth Blogging A to Z challenge and from the badge above you can see it is their 10th Anniversary. I have been wavering over entering again as posting every day is enough of a challenge. What is harder is thinking up something to write about for each letter over several years. This
- [Being positive about my body](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/29/being-positive-about-my-body/) - I won't deny that my last post was rather negative. I hadn't intended to write in that way, but as is often the case it felt right in the moment. Having one tit really does suck. However there is much to celebrate about myself, my body and my situation. I really do intend to post
- [Loss](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/27/loss/) - This week's food for thought Friday is about loss and asks: what is your most significant loss? This presents me with a conundrum. What is my most significant loss? Is it the loss of trust I experienced when my husband cheated on me early in my marriage? Is it the loss of my grandmother 20
- [Experiences of bondage](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/26/experiences-of-bondage/) - Bondage has been part of my BDSM / kink experience since the beginning. Both of my dominants have enjoyed restraining me in one way or another and from the start I knew it was something I liked too. Their techniques, materials used and locations may have differed, but the experience for me is the same.
- [Mind and body](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/21/mind-and-body-3/) - During the course of this relationship I and we have had some amazing times. It is definitely the case that I have had more sex during the past 5 years than I had during the previous 30. But we have had some lean periods during that time, when my, his or our mind and body
- [Holding hands](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/20/holding-hands/) - There is something very special about holding hands with someone you love and care for. It is a way of being intimate with them, of feeling close to them but in a way that is conforms and is acceptable within social norms. What I mean is, holding a lovers hand while in the street is
- [Eroticon diaries 2019 edition](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/15/eroticon-diaries-2019-edition/) - In the next couple of hours we will make our way to the station for the short trip into London and the event of the year - Eroticon. What with holiday, post holiday and what not, I haven't quite been on top of preparations this year. As I write this at 12.30pm I still have
- [Orgasms](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/14/orgasms/) - It is over 5 years since I gave up control and ownership of my orgasms. Before that, I didn't really know that was a thing and even if I had, I doubt I would have understood what it meant. When I was seeing S, he made me ask permission to cum. This, I have discovered
- [Eroticon 2019 Meet and Greet](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/08/eroticon-2019-meet-and-greet/) - What is your favorite item or book you’ve purchased so far this year? For me: Our holiday to Cape Verde. We just got back on Sunday. It was the holiday we needed and was definitely money well spent. For him: The river in the sky by Clive James. You can have an unlimited supply of
- [Parallel lives](https://aftermpb.com/2019/03/07/parallel-lives/) - In so many ways, the person I am now is the person I was then. I look the same, dress the same, know the same people but underneath I am different. I am living a life that runs parallel to the one I had before. But it is and I am different. This isn't just
- [Wrapped up](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/23/wrapped-up/)
- [The touch of our hands](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/21/the-touch-of-our-hands/) - The touch of his hands I love to feel his hands on my body. When he comes up behind me and takes hold of my waist, my bottom, my breasts in both hands. Or when he strokes my leg while we sit together or even when he takes my hand in his while we watch
- [Enjoy life](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/20/enjoy-life/) - We visit lovely places and enjoy ourselves as much as we can. We enjoy staying at good hotels and are particularly partial to a room with a large bath. The photo below is from a hotel we stayed in about 3 years ago. Champagne in the bath is one of our guilty pleasures.
- [Revealing my vulnerability](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/20/revealing-my-vulnerability/) - Radiotherapy took much more out of me than I expected. The journey to the hospital, waiting around and receiving the short treatment was fine. It has been the ensuing 3 weeks that has been difficult. I have been sore, very sore and I have been tired. Surprisingly too my mood has been low. You would
- [Taste and decency](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/19/taste-and-decency/) - Perceptions of taste and decency change over time. Many of us have (or had) Tumblr accounts, certainly before the recent policy change. Their ban on 'adult content' seeks to exclude anything deemed pornographic - in particular photos and videos showing human genitals and female presenting nipples. Although I downloaded my Tumblr content and have uploaded
- [Thoughts of distress](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/19/thoughts-of-distress/) - Do you now find, or have you ever found, anything distressing or uncomfortable about your sexual thoughts, fantasies, desires, or actions? Is there anything that you want or need that you have trouble asking for or are reticent to admit because it makes you blush? Have you had any experiences that have caused you embarrassment?
- [At the end of the evening](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/18/at-the-end-of-the-evening/) - When even the London streets are deserted it is an ideal time to take a few photos. You might notice that this is from the same evening as 'come join the party' a Sinful Sunday post 2 weeks ago. This time I am using the bottle (now empty) to shield myself from the gaze of
- [Bottoms up](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/17/bottoms-up/)
- [Symbol](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/16/symbol/) - The main symbol of my submission, that I am Master's slave is my collar. Mostly I wear the same titanium collar and rarely remove it. You can see it in most of the photos of me, taken in the last 4 years or so. For Christmas Master presented me with a new collar. Something to
- [Wayback when](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/15/wayback-when/) - I have a few photos that were taken before I regularly posted anything of myself. Wayback then, I was a little more worried about showing pictures of myself. Especially those of me in a somewhat compromising situation. Things have changed over the years. This photo was taken at the very beginning of our relationship, almost
- [Sexual style](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/14/sexual-style/) - I've never really considered if I have a sexual style, never mind what it is. But I guess that just as I have altered my hair style over the years, there have been changes when it comes to my sexual style. In the past, I was some what repressed and while I had fantasies, they
- [Mutual masturbation](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/13/mutual-masturbation/) - Warning - Image NSFW As I wrote here in 2016, mutual masturbation has become a part of my life that is different from what happened before. Now that we live together, all elements of our sex life have moved onto another level. There is more sex and more masturbation. Plus there is more time for
- [My nipple](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/12/my-nipple/) - When I took this little selfie I had no idea that the target was slightly out of focus. But sometimes imperfections are just the right thing and today feels like one of those days. This is my nipple. It's the only one I have and it is time to celebrate what I have, imperfections, blurriness
- [His enjoyment](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/11/his-enjoyment/) - As he takes pleasure from me his enjoyment is evident. He tells me he loves the taste of me. The feel of my clit and especially my piercing on his tongue as it explores my depths. At the same time, I am able to lie back and enjoy the sensations, the arousal as my clitoris
- [Watching](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/10/watching/) - It is always fun to stand (or in this case) kneel watching the world go by. While in hotels we love a photo opportunity or two and this sofa and the window offered a few.
- [Come join the party](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/09/come-join-the-party/)
- [Relationships - F4TF](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/07/relationships-f4tf/) - I do love to keep up with the various memes, but with the added pressure of February Photofest I am struggling this week. So, this is going to be a bit briefer than usual. Food 4 Thought Friday is about relationships. Casual sex, dating, friends with benefits, hook-up, one night stand, fuck-buddy; have you ever
- [Thoughts of summer](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/08/thoughts-of-summer/) - How I long for the long days of summer. Days when there is no need for coats and jumpers, socks and boots. Times when it is possible to wear just a dress or shorts and a top and little else. Actually we leave for a winter sun holiday in two weeks, so maybe my thoughts
- [Everybody hurts](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/06/everybody-hurts/) - Everybody Hurts - REM When the day is longAnd the night, the night is yours aloneWhen you're sure you've had enoughOf this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go'Cause everybody criesAnd everybody hurts sometimes Sometimes everything is wrongNow it's time to sing alongWhen your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on)If you feel like letting
- [What submission means to me](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/07/what-submission-means-to-me/) - Last week I joined the SafeworD/s Club a chat community and website run by Missy and His Lordship. This is a great resource for both new D/s couples and also those who have been around for longer. I joined the live chat session and hope to get back soon. It was great to share experiences
- [Favourite socks](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/06/favourite-socks/) - Since finishing work at the end of last summer I have hardly worn a dress. This is really unusual for me because at work I wore dresses most of the time. Bare legged in the summer and with tights (often opaque) in the winter. Over the past few months though, separates have been the thing
- [Checking in to social media](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/05/checking-in-to-social-media/) - From time to time I post on facebook a lot. Checking in to bars and restaurants, announcing my departure for and arrival on holiday. Posting daily holiday snaps, often of churches and historical buildings. Friends and family expect this stuff of me. They pull my leg about the number of trips we take and my
- [Looking up, looking down](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/04/looking-up-looking-down/)
- [The whiteness](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/03/the-whiteness/) - I love the whiteness of the hotel sheets. The contrast against my skin. I love the expanse of the bed, the way we have to travel to touch. The luxury of the vast shower, warm towels and white robe awaits. For now I indulge in the pleasure and whiteness of this bed.
- [A gift](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/02/a-gift/) - I have been overwhelmed by the kindness of family and friends over the past few months. People checking in regularly to see how I am. Those who sent or gave me cards and flowers following my operation. But I have been most touched by the generosity of people I don't really know and those who
- [A hiccup - Fit for Friday #4](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/01/a-hiccup-fit-for-friday-4/) - Week 4 hasn't quite gone to plan, you could say I've had a bit of a hiccup. Diet and fitness It started a week ago. Before I'd even posted week 3, I had fallen off of the Dry January wagon. I did have every intention of climbing back aboard, but that didn't really happen. Intake
- [Being Celibate](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/30/being-celibate/) - During our marriage there were long periods of time when my husband and I abstained from sex. That is we abstained from sex with each other and sometimes I didn't masturbate either. But were we celibate? I had a baby and he had an affair My husband was having an affair when I was pregnant.
- [Re-exploring anal sex](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/31/re-exploring-anal-sex/) - This week's Erotic Journal Challenge is about exploration and experimentation. Rather than exploring a large and wide ranging topic, we have been asked to focus in on something small and specific. My topic is anal sex. Why anal sex? There was a time when we were enjoying lots of anal sex, but over time this
- [Loving and being in love](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/30/loving-and-being-in-love/) - What is the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone? There are many different types of love. Of a parent for a child, a child for a parent, of friends. Then there is the love felt between those physically and emotionally attracted to each other. Falling in love is something that seems
- [February Photofest 2019 - Kickoff](https://aftermpb.com/2019/02/01/february-photofest-2019-kickoff/) - This is the third time I have participated in February Photofest, the annual photographic meme hosted by Molly. Having taken a break last year due to other commitments I am pleased to be back and raring to go. All my photos are taken either by me or my Master, Graeme. I'll let you know in
- [Fit for Friday #3](https://aftermpb.com/2019/01/26/fit-for-friday-3/) - I was late weighing in this week due to hospital appointments yesterday. So consequently my post is late too. Diet Last weekend we were out both days and so ate out. Tapas on Saturday at our favourite restaurant in London and burger on Sunday. The tapas lends itself to sherry or wine and I decided
- [What I would like right now](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/07/what-i-would-like-right-now/) - Is to be in bed with my Sir, waking to a sunny morning, after the night before. This morning I woke alone, as I do often these days. If I were in bed with him now, at 6 am, I would hope to still be sleeping, to still need to be asleep. After all yesterday
- [Jealousy](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/09/jealousy/) - Many of the things i have found i love to do for (and with) Sir are things that hubby has always wanted me to do for him. Indeed it is not true that before i met Sir I had never worn stockings and heels for hubby, it is just that i complained about the idea
- [The best laid plans](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/10/the-best-laid-plans/) - The opportunities for Sir and i to get together at the moment are limited. We are just busy people, with lives to live, work to do and family to please. On Sunday, faced with the prospect of not seeing Sir for another month, i hatched a plan. While i wouldn't be able to stay at
- [Looking forward](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/11/looking-forward/) - So yesterday ended in disappointment. But as they say tomorrow is another day. In fact so is today. My life, as Sir is always reminding me, is mainly positive these days. Redundancy has brought with it new opportunities; new car, apartment in France, new kitchen. In short, i am pretty much financially secure. Of course
- [Thought of the day](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/14/thought-of-the-day/)
- [Reflections on the last week](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/20/reflections-on-the-last-week/) - Around 7 days ago almost to the hour, S and I were walking near where he lives. We walked across a beach that was really too rocky for the shoes I was wearing. We negotiated rock pools and saw fish swimming in them. We sat on the beach and ate local crab (not caught by
- [The future of 'innocent pornography'](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/23/the-future-of-innocent-pornography/) - Some would say there is no such thing, they would say that any pornography is bad, somehow likely to not only cause offence but to cause harm. Some, like the Prime Minister of my own Country apparently think that online pornography is harmful to children and therefore must be blocked. In future in the UK
- [200 not out](https://aftermpb.com/2013/07/27/200-not-out/) - This is my 200th post on World of Joolz. It is amazing to think that when I started this blog I was essentially living something of a dream. Something new and amazing had happened in my life, something I had kind of wanted to happen, but had been too frightened in the past to actually
- [Lost](https://aftermpb.com/2013/08/10/lost/) - I think it might be true to say I have lost my way a little here. I am struggling to move on, to work out how to get through the mess that is my life right now. Well of course my life doesn't seem to be a mess to those around me. People tell me
- [New page](https://aftermpb.com/2013/08/14/new-page/) - That is how it feels. Perhaps writing my last post, about how lost I was feeling was significant. Maybe it made me turn some kind of corner and to decide what I want to do next. My decision might surprise some people; it certainly surprises me. I said there is no going back, and to
- [Thoughts](https://aftermpb.com/2013/08/16/thoughts-2/) - Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to call by and comment after my last post. You know, it is really amazing to have such support from people who I know only through this and your own blogs. A good friend sent me some words from a couple of verses yesterday which rang true
- [Never say never](https://aftermpb.com/2013/08/20/never-say-never/) - The weekend went well. There was no guarantee it would, but it did. I was tentative as I arrived and he seemed as nervous around me as I was around him. Neither of us knew whether it would be the same. In one way it was quite different. Neither of us took our D/s roles
- [Still here](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/07/still-here/) - I haven't had much to write about over the past couple of weeks, plus I have been busy with work and things. That doesn't mean I am not here and it doesn't mean I am not keeping up to date with other blogs. Reading what everyone else is up in their daily lives makes me a
- [His slut](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/10/his-slut/) - She wore a tight grey skirt, with a cream top. Heels. Every bit the business woman? Well a cream top with black bra? Seamed stockings? As they entered the bar, she looked around and saw people in casual dress. It was Sunday, so people were out for lunch, socialising, chatting. He observed that men looked
- [The mirror](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/11/the-mirror-3/) - He decided that he wanted me to stay fully clothed. So skirt hitched up, knickers off, I knelt on the bed. His hands moved over me, feeling my clit once again, bringing me closer and closer to orgasm. "Sit on my face" he instructed. Of course, I gladly complied. He has the most amazing tongue.
- [No longer lost, but not quite found either](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/14/no-longer-lost-but-not-quite-found-either/) - So S and I are back in the swing of seeing each other again and things are, I think, pretty good on that front. He seems like his old self, and what's more, he is keen to see me and to touch me. I am happy to comply with his wishes on dress, and actually
- [What I am looking forward to](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/15/what-i-am-looking-forward-to/) - I am seeing S tomorrow night. Unusually for us, fate has offered the opportunity for a night together just a week after the last one. He is on a course and needs to stay in a hotel and that hotel is easily accessible to me after work (traffic permitting). I have been feeling unusually horny
- [Truth and lies](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/21/truth-and-lies/) - I am not by nature someone who tells lies, though as a not very popular child at school I told some quite big ones to try to get people to like me, but that is another story entirely. As an adult, I have usually tried be true to myself and true to others. I don't
- [An evening together](https://aftermpb.com/2013/09/22/an-evening-together/) - The place he was staying, courtesy of work, was about an hour away. Certainly I was there an hour after getting into my car to get to him. I think that if we lived an hour from each other, rather than 2 or more, life would be much much easier. He had a room overlooking

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## Categories

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- [Psychology of me](https://aftermpb.com/category/psychology/psychology-of-me/)
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- [Slave](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/slave/)
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- [Relationships](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/relationships-relationships/)
- [Life](https://aftermpb.com/category/life/)
- [Blogging](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/)
- [Sinful Sunday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/sinful-sunday/)
- [February Photofest 2017](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2017/)
- [collar](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/collar/)
- [Eroticon](https://aftermpb.com/category/eroticon/)
- [piercings](https://aftermpb.com/category/nipples/piercings/)
- [Menopause](https://aftermpb.com/category/menopause/)
- [masturbation Monday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/masturbation-monday/)
- [BDSM](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/)
- [Kink of the week](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/kink-of-the-week/)
- [kink](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/)
- [corset](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/corset/)
- [365 questions](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/365-questions/)
- [exhibitionism](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/exhibitionism/)
- [holidays](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/holidays/)
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- [Wicked Wednesday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/wicked-wednesday/)
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- [vanilla family life](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/vanilla-family-life/)
- [Cock Worshiping Sub;](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/oral-sex/cock-worshiping-sub/)
- [30 days of kink](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/30-days-of-kink/)
- [M/s](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/)
- [psychology of M/s](https://aftermpb.com/category/psychology/psychology-of-m-s/)
- [Sex](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/)
- [Spain](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/spain/)
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- [KOTW](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/kink-of-the-week/kotw/)
- [endings](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/endings/)
- [Marriage](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/relationships-relationships/marriage/)
- [France](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/france/)
- [rules](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/rules/)
- [Memes](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/)
- [Communication](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/relationships-relationships/communication/)
- [memories](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/memories/)
- [#sccwriting](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/sccwriting/)
- [hair](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/hair/)
- [TMI Tuesday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/tmi-tuesday/)
- [Bondage](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/bondage/)
- [masturbation](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/masturbation/)
- [Sex slave](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/sex-slave/)
- [Dominance](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/dominance/)
- [elust](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/elust/)
- [forced orgasm](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/orgasm/forced-orgasm/)
- [orgasm control](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/orgasm/orgasm-control/)
- [Orgasm](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/orgasm/)
- [Travel](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/)
- [Day out](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/day-out/)
- [February Photofest](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/)
- [Underwear](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/underwear/)
- [mutual masturbation](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/mutual-masturbation/)
- [Blogging a-z challenge](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/)
- [used](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/used/)
- [nipple play](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/nipple-play/)
- [slavery](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/slavery/)
- [butt plug](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/butt-plug/)
- [owned](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/owned/)
- [power](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/power/)
- [glasses](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/glasses/)
- [limits](https://aftermpb.com/category/limits/)
- [MPB](https://aftermpb.com/category/mpb/)
- [clamps](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/clamps/)
- [TPE](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/tpe/)
- [anal sex](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/anal-sex/)
- [good girl](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/good-girl/)
- [figging](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/figging/)
- [humiliation](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/humiliation/)
- [March - Questions](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/march-questions/)
- [weekend away](https://aftermpb.com/category/travel/weekend-away/)
- [tattoo](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/tattoo/)
- [this girl](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/this-girl/)
- [contract](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/contract/)
- [Lord](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/lord/)
- [Random thoughts](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/random-thoughts/)
- [cunt](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/cunt/)
- [slut](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/slut/)
- [Pain](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/pain/)
- [BDSM websites](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/bdsm-websites/)
- [pornography](https://aftermpb.com/category/pornography/)
- [Control](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/control/)
- [Christmas](https://aftermpb.com/category/christmas/)
- [submissive](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/submissive/)
- [girl](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/girl/)
- [property](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/m-s/property/)
- [psychology of D/s](https://aftermpb.com/category/psychology/psychology-of-d-s/)
- [oral sex](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/oral-sex/)
- [polyamory](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/relationships-relationships/polyamory/)
- [golden shower](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/golden-shower/)
- [real neat blog award](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/real-neat-blog-award/)
- [censorship](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/censorship/)
- [Daddy](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/daddy/)
- [sexuality](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/sexuality/)
- [Beaver](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/beaver/)
- [separation](https://aftermpb.com/category/separation/)
- [girls](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/girls/)
- [change](https://aftermpb.com/category/life/change/)
- [LOL](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/lol/)
- [30 days of submission](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/30-days-of-submission/)
- [closure](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/closure/)
- [death](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/endings/death/)
- [sex outside of marriage](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/relationships-relationships/marriage/sex-outside-of-marriage/)
- [riding crop](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/riding-crop/)
- [blow job](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/oral-sex/blow-job/)
- [coming clean](https://aftermpb.com/category/relationships/coming-clean/)
- [sex outside](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/sex-outside/)
- [Just stuff](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/random-thoughts/just-stuff/)
- [30 days of me](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/30-days-of-me/)
- [group sex](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/group-sex/)
- [shopping](https://aftermpb.com/category/shopping/)
- [Role play](https://aftermpb.com/category/role-play/)
- [phone sex](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/phone-sex/)
- [One lovely Blog Awards](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/one-lovely-blog-awards/)
- [journal](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/journal/)
- [BDSM literature](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/bdsm-literature/)
- [D/s](https://aftermpb.com/category/kink/bdsm/d-s/)
- [SCC Writing](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/scc-writing/)
- [Erotica](https://aftermpb.com/category/fiction/erotica/)
- [Blogging](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/blogging-blogging/)
- [Art Twist](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/art-twist/)
- [Food For Thought Friday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/food-for-thought-friday/)
- [SoSS](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/soss/)
- [Fiction](https://aftermpb.com/category/fiction/)
- [Questions and answers](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/)
- [Psychology](https://aftermpb.com/category/psychology/)
- [Smut Marathon](https://aftermpb.com/category/smut-marathon/)
- [Every Damn Day in June](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/every-damn-day-in-june/)
- [Boobday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/boobday/)
- [Archived content](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/archived-content/)
- [Body image](https://aftermpb.com/category/body-image/)
- [Breast cancer](https://aftermpb.com/category/health-and-illness/breast-cancer/)
- [Review of the Year](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/review-of-the-year/)
- [Erotic Journal Challenge](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/erotic-journal-challenge/)
- [Friday Flash](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/friday-flash/)
- [Fit for Friday](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/fit-for-friday/)
- [Health and Illness](https://aftermpb.com/category/health-and-illness/)
- [Sex Bloggers for Mental Health](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/sex-bloggers-for-mental-health/)
- [February Photofest 2019](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/posts-from-1st-to-28th-february-2019/)
- [Tell Me About](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/tell-me-about/)
- [30 days of D/s](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/30-days-of-d-s/)
- [Dungeon Review](https://aftermpb.com/category/dungeon-review-2/)
- [Lingerie Is For Everyone](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/lingerie-is-for-everyone/)
- [September Song Project](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/september-song-project/)
- [Photography](https://aftermpb.com/category/posts-that-contain-a-photograph-of-me-or-that-i-took/)
- [Abortion,](https://aftermpb.com/category/abortion/)
- [Women's Rights](https://aftermpb.com/category/womens-rights/)
- [January Jumpstart](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/january-jumpstart/)
- [Health Matters](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/health-matters/)
- [February Photofest 2020](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2020/)
- [Book Matters](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/book-matters/)
- [Blogging A-Z 2020](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/blogging-a-z-2020/)
- [Xeronisus](https://aftermpb.com/category/sex/orgasm/xeronisus/)
- [Scavenger Hunt](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/scavenger-hunt/)
- [Lockdown](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging/lockdown/)
- [No True Way](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/no-true-way/)
- [Quote Quest](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/quote-quest/)
- [The Blog Days of Summer](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/the-blog-days-of-summer/)
- [Big Sexy Words](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/big-sexy-words/)
- [EROBLOPOMO 2020](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/erotic-blog-posting-month/)
- [Never Have I Ever - November](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/never-have-i-ever-november/)
- [Love Yourself](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/love-yourself/)
- [31 Days of Self Reflection](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/31-days-of-self-reflection/)
- [Lustitudde](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/lustitudde/)
- [February Photofest 2021](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/posts-for-february-photofest-2021/)
- [Mindful Moments](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/mindful-moments/)
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2021](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/blogging-a-z-challenge-2021/)
- [30 Days of Sex Positivity](https://aftermpb.com/category/questions-and-answers/30-days-of-sex-positivity/)
- [Every Damn Day in June 2021](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/every-damn-day-in-june/2021-posts-for-this-meme/)
- [Five Things](https://aftermpb.com/category/a-weekly-meme-of-five-5-things/)
- [Erotic Journal Challenge 2022](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/erotic-journal-challenge/erotic-journal-challenge-2022/)
- [#SWAP with Floss](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/swap-with-flos/)
- [Mastectomy](https://aftermpb.com/category/body-image/mastectomy/)
- [Mastectomy](https://aftermpb.com/category/health-and-illness/breast-cancer/mastectomy-breast-cancer/)
- [February Photofest 2022](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2022/)
- [Breast Reconstruction](https://aftermpb.com/category/body-image/breast-reconstruction/)
- [Blogging A-Z 2022](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/blogging-a-z-2022/)
- [Every Damn Day in June 2022](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/every-damn-day-in-june/every-damn-day-in-june-2022/)
- [Five Things Meme](https://aftermpb.com/category/five-things-meme/)
- [News](https://aftermpb.com/category/news/)
- [Prompt](https://aftermpb.com/category/prompt/)
- [Revelations](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/revelations/)
- [February Photofest 2023](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2023/)
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2023](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/blogging-a-z-challenge-2023/)
- [Aging](https://aftermpb.com/category/aging/)
- [Slave Training for Suzie](https://aftermpb.com/category/fiction/slave-training-for-suzie/)
- [February Photofest 2024](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2024/)
- [Blogging A-Z Challenge 2024](https://aftermpb.com/category/memes/blogging-a-z-challenge/blogging-a-z-challenge-2024/)
- [Exercise](https://aftermpb.com/category/exercise/)
- [Food](https://aftermpb.com/category/food/)
- [Health](https://aftermpb.com/category/health/)
- [Wellness](https://aftermpb.com/category/wellness/)
- [Intermittent Fasting](https://aftermpb.com/category/intermittent-fasting/)
- [Blogs to Follow](https://aftermpb.com/category/blog-to-follow/)
- [Slimming World](https://aftermpb.com/category/slimming-world/)
- [Weight loss](https://aftermpb.com/category/weight-loss/)
- [Recipes](https://aftermpb.com/category/recipes/)
- [Mental Health](https://aftermpb.com/category/mental-health/)
- [Swimming](https://aftermpb.com/category/swimming/)
- [Letrozole](https://aftermpb.com/category/letrozole/)
- [Measurements](https://aftermpb.com/category/measurements/)
- [Carbohydrates](https://aftermpb.com/category/carbohydrates/)
- [Nutrition](https://aftermpb.com/category/nutrition/)
- [Weight Watchers](https://aftermpb.com/category/weight-watchers/)
- [Alcohol](https://aftermpb.com/category/alcohol/)
- [Site development](https://aftermpb.com/category/site-development/)
- [Resources](https://aftermpb.com/category/resources/)
- [Book Reviews](https://aftermpb.com/category/book-reviews/)
- [Breast Reconstruction Surgery](https://aftermpb.com/category/breast-reconstruction-surgery/)
- [For the Health of it](https://aftermpb.com/category/the-food-fitness-and-health-meme/)
- [For the Health of it Prompts](https://aftermpb.com/category/the-monthly-meme-prompts/)
- [Coronavirus](https://aftermpb.com/category/coronavirus/)
- [Blogging A-Z April Challenge](https://aftermpb.com/category/blogging-a-z-april-challenge/)
- [Advent Calendar](https://aftermpb.com/category/advent-calendar/)
- [Travel](https://aftermpb.com/category/musings-about-my-travels/)
- [Writing and blogging](https://aftermpb.com/category/writing-and-blogging/)
- [Wedding](https://aftermpb.com/category/wedding-2/)
- [Five Things](https://aftermpb.com/category/five-things/)
- [February Photofest 2025](https://aftermpb.com/category/february-photofest/february-photofest-2025/)

## Tags

- [M/s dynamic](https://aftermpb.com/tag/m-s-dynamic/)
- [Review of the year](https://aftermpb.com/tag/review-of-the-year/)
- [Random thoughts](https://aftermpb.com/tag/random-thoughts/)
- [Endings](https://aftermpb.com/tag/endings/)
- [Previous relationships](https://aftermpb.com/tag/previous-relationships/)
- [New Year](https://aftermpb.com/tag/new-year/)
- [Blog](https://aftermpb.com/tag/blog/)
- [world politics](https://aftermpb.com/tag/world-politics/)
- [Leather](https://aftermpb.com/tag/leather/)
- [kneeling](https://aftermpb.com/tag/kneeling/)
- [lazy Sunday](https://aftermpb.com/tag/lazy-sunday/)
- [old age](https://aftermpb.com/tag/old-age/)
- [friends](https://aftermpb.com/tag/friends/)
- [Hornyhour](https://aftermpb.com/tag/hornyhour/)
- [tasks](https://aftermpb.com/tag/tasks/)
- [pubic hair](https://aftermpb.com/tag/pubic-hair/)
- [happiness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/happiness/)
- [nursing](https://aftermpb.com/tag/nursing/)
- [clumsiness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/clumsiness/)
- [harness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/harness/)
- [fetlife](https://aftermpb.com/tag/fetlife/)
- [fantasy](https://aftermpb.com/tag/fantasy/)
- [munches](https://aftermpb.com/tag/munches/)
- [weight](https://aftermpb.com/tag/weight/)
- [food](https://aftermpb.com/tag/food/)
- [twitter](https://aftermpb.com/tag/twitter/)
- [time together](https://aftermpb.com/tag/time-together/)
- [lonliness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/lonliness/)
- [spanking](https://aftermpb.com/tag/spanking/)
- [toys](https://aftermpb.com/tag/toys/)
- [fun](https://aftermpb.com/tag/fun/)
- [FGM](https://aftermpb.com/tag/fgm/)
- [dirty weekend](https://aftermpb.com/tag/dirty-weekend/)
- [responsibilities](https://aftermpb.com/tag/responsibilities/)
- [the world wide web](https://aftermpb.com/tag/the-world-wide-web/)
- [appearance](https://aftermpb.com/tag/appearance/)
- [lost and confused](https://aftermpb.com/tag/lost-and-confused/)
- [diet and fitness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/diet-and-fitness/)
- [off topic](https://aftermpb.com/tag/off-topic/)
- [swallowing](https://aftermpb.com/tag/swallowing/)
- [Health and Fitness](https://aftermpb.com/tag/health-and-fitness/)
- [embarrassment](https://aftermpb.com/tag/embarrassment/)
- [maid](https://aftermpb.com/tag/maid/)
- [Threesome](https://aftermpb.com/tag/threesome/)
- [Gangbang](https://aftermpb.com/tag/gangbang/)
- [Used](https://aftermpb.com/tag/used/)
- [Birthday](https://aftermpb.com/tag/birthday/)
- [Sinful Sunday](https://aftermpb.com/tag/sinful-sunday/)
- [Squirting](https://aftermpb.com/tag/squirting/)
- [Bed](https://aftermpb.com/tag/bed/)
- [Orgasm](https://aftermpb.com/tag/orgasm/)
- [Butt plug](https://aftermpb.com/tag/butt-plug/)
- [This girl](https://aftermpb.com/tag/this-girl/)
- [Touch](https://aftermpb.com/tag/touch/)
- [Control](https://aftermpb.com/tag/control/)
- [Orgasm control](https://aftermpb.com/tag/orgasm-control/)
- [Play](https://aftermpb.com/tag/play/)
- [Hair](https://aftermpb.com/tag/hair/)
- [Tits](https://aftermpb.com/tag/tits/)
- [sex](https://aftermpb.com/tag/sex/)
- [Cock worship](https://aftermpb.com/tag/cock-worship/)
- [Cocktails](https://aftermpb.com/tag/cocktails/)
- [Hotels](https://aftermpb.com/tag/hotels/)
- [Exposed](https://aftermpb.com/tag/exposed/)
- [Spain](https://aftermpb.com/tag/spain/)
- [Flowers](https://aftermpb.com/tag/flowers/)
- [Reflections](https://aftermpb.com/tag/reflections/)
- [Writing challenges](https://aftermpb.com/tag/writing-challenges/)
- [Bathroom](https://aftermpb.com/tag/bathroom/)
- [Nipples](https://aftermpb.com/tag/nipples/)
- [Jeans](https://aftermpb.com/tag/jeans/)
- [Blog review](https://aftermpb.com/tag/blog-review/)
- [Tattoos](https://aftermpb.com/tag/tattoos/)
- [France](https://aftermpb.com/tag/france/)
- [Secret dungeon](https://aftermpb.com/tag/secret-dungeon/)
- [Meet and Greet](https://aftermpb.com/tag/meet-and-greet/)
- [Art](https://aftermpb.com/tag/art/)
- [music](https://aftermpb.com/tag/music/)
- [Oral sex](https://aftermpb.com/tag/oral-sex/)
- [Sex machine](https://aftermpb.com/tag/sex-machine/)
- [Memes](https://aftermpb.com/tag/memes/)
- [Anger](https://aftermpb.com/tag/anger/)
- [Abuse](https://aftermpb.com/tag/abuse/)
- [Race](https://aftermpb.com/tag/race/)
- [Life](https://aftermpb.com/tag/life/)
- [family](https://aftermpb.com/tag/family/)
- [Legal issues](https://aftermpb.com/tag/legal-issues/)
- [Hotel rooms](https://aftermpb.com/tag/hotel-rooms/)
- [New relationship](https://aftermpb.com/tag/new-relationship/)
- [Anal sex](https://aftermpb.com/tag/anal-sex/)
- [Amsterdam](https://aftermpb.com/tag/amsterdam/)
- [Power](https://aftermpb.com/tag/power/)
- [TMI Tuesday](https://aftermpb.com/tag/tmi-tuesday/)
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- [Selfcare](https://aftermpb.com/tag/selfcare/)
- [Recipes](https://aftermpb.com/tag/recipes/)
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- [Cities](https://aftermpb.com/tag/cities/)
- [History](https://aftermpb.com/tag/history/)
- [Lleida](https://aftermpb.com/tag/lleida/)
- [Paradores](https://aftermpb.com/tag/paradores/)
- [Measurements](https://aftermpb.com/tag/measurements/)
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- [2022](https://aftermpb.com/tag/2022/)
- [Wedding planning](https://aftermpb.com/tag/wedding-planning/)
- [2025](https://aftermpb.com/tag/2025/)
- [mucking about](https://aftermpb.com/tag/mucking-about/)